I write these words cause honestly i'm lost

I don't know why there is this loss of direction

I don't know much but I know that when I was with you I at least had a reason to forget it and not feel it

because i'd write line after line knowing I was expressing my true feelings

how I couldn't find a word for a feeling that mean't more than love

but I felt it every time I held you close

I saw it sparkle in your eyes

I feel it's absence every time I see the things you left me

it makes me remember it all

all the night's we'd talk for hours

every hour I held you

the thousands of times I kissed you because once, twice, one hundred times wasn't enough

how our life seemed to be as perfect as something written by a poet (an actual good one not me)

now all there is is regret. because without you I remember how broken and alone I am

and it gives me to all the time in the world to think about my mistakes, once again.