I may find closer friends
But they will never match your wit
They will never have your laugh

I may find someone else to love
But they will never make me feel the way you made me feel
The butterflies would not be as colorful

I may choose another sibling
But they will never be as good of a compass that you were

The world may move on, I may walk forward
Time marches on, the earth still spins
But there will always be an empty space in my heart
Where you once dwelt

As I am getting ready
for the day you leave

I put my pen on paper
words flowing out of the pen
letters, sentences, paragraphs

the precious words with a piece of my soul
the words that you will never know
how much worth they hold

to you, they may just seem as though
they are empty sentences
even if I poured my heart out
they will mean nothing to you

The same old lies they tell me
It will get better.
              When?
I will be there for you.
           Then why did you leave?
I will check on you.
            Then where were you for the last week? I never got any messages from you.
I understand.
            Then why aren't you listening to me?Why are you not helping me?
The same old lies.
Over and over.
Different people, same lies.
It is like a ferris wheel, around and around.
Different colors and lights, but it always goes in the same direction.

The same old lies
coming from different colored tongues
The same old lies
that shot my hopes dead
The same...old...lies
that once made me believe that someone is still out there
reaching for me through the darkness
The same...old...lies
that killed that dream
of ever reaching the light

Cutting ties, losing trust
Repair the damage, do what I must
Rule my kingdom, focus on me
Try to find little things that make me happy

Don't let anyone else in
Or you will be broken again
Become cold, build my wall of stone

I'm just here sitting on my throne
And dancing all alone
Conquer the difficult lands
And turn my enemies' bones to sand
Turn pain into power
Work Tirelessly every hour
The gain pretty much stops the pain...

But I don't wanna admit it
I only stay happy for a bit
It's hard ruling a kingdom on your own
Because it gets quite lonely on this throne

This is a love poem
To a person who doesn’t know me
They could be a he or a she
or someone who’s non-binary

All I want to do is hold you in my arms
To be safe and sound on a stormy night
All I want is to laugh and talk with you
Or go on adventures then watch the sunset
Is this really too much to ask?

To whom will I give this poem to?
Who will love me and not hurt me
Will there be someone who will love me and not hurt me?

I want a love that’s like a rose without thorns
Rain without thunder and lightening
I want a love that will not hurt me
Is this really too much to ask?

I knew I should have kept hating you
I knew I shouldn't have let you in
If I had kept my icy walls up,
These memories wouldn't be piercing my heart,
Drawing blood and leaving scars

You drew me in with your voice
With your touch
with your beauty

But then you swam to the dark blue deep
and you never came back

And all I was left with was
Mermaid Memories
of basking in the sun with you
of swimming alongside you
as the rays of sun shone through the water
and you combing my hair
and saying I love you

Memories of being there with you
All there is left
Mermaid Memories

Middle school, was heading out to recess after my international day presentation,
And having some older boys slap the Chinese drama mask design sewn on my qi pao
Watching them run away high fiving each other and wondering,
Why were they laughing? What was so funny?

Middle school, was filled with the questions that people asked,
“Where are you from? No, where are you REALLY from?”
Apparently “Maryland” was not the correct answer
They want to know the ancient path of my ancestry that is imprinted into my DNA
The Taiwanese, or was it Thai? blood that flows through my veins
Why do I bother with repeating myself over and over?
When my  words of
“My parents are from Taiwan but I was born in America”
And “no it’s not Thailand it’s Taiwan”
Just fell upon deaf ears and closed minds

Middle school, was the kids sitting across from me at the 7th grade table
Sniffing the air and wrinkling their noses
As the smell of my mother’s homemade spicy tofu and cabbage over brown rice
Escaped my thermos
Should I have eaten somewhere else? Maybe it’s better if I’m not around  

At every turn, I had to explain my existence
A cruel reminder that, though I was born in America, I was not “American” enough
Differences pointed out everywhere, a reminder of where I am “really” from

But many questions later, my insecurity gone
I am proud of who I am, the strong person I’ve become
Though others may have questions, I no longer doubt
That I am Taiwanese American, and I deserve respect and love

Missing someone
Is replaying all the moments from when you were together
From laughing about the days of childhood
To remembering his arms around you
at the train station, when you said your last goodbye
You replay it all, like a movie
wishing you could go back to those moments
wishing you could step into that movie

Having those old conversations in your head
Remembering when you told him about how you felt
His words of comfort echoing back
saying that he won't let you go that easily

You whisper that conversation, playing it back
pressing the rewind button, just to hear his voice and to remember that moment...the last moments with him

Missing someone
is reading through old texts and looking at old photos
while feeling the pain and having your heart long for him
while tears of emptiness fall down your cheeks and you think
"If he were here, he would tell me everything is all right."
But knowing that he would never come back
and that he is gone

Missing someone
is hearing a song you used to dance to
faintly hearing his voice singing along
and feeling his movement as he dances
or going to an old place, and remembering when you were there together, what you were talking about
laughing and never knowing how much you would miss him

And when you think that you are ok and that you have moved on
An old memory would slap you back
and your head will rewind that movie again
and bring back all that pain and your heart starts yearning for him again.

And the most painful part is,
that though your head says that he is gone forever,
you still imagine him being there with you as you sit alone in your room...and your heart still thinks that it has hope.
But it doesn't

To my love:

I hope that you will always stay like this
so bright
so full of life,

always using the great ability
to light up people's darkest nights

I hope that
when you enter a phase of unfamiliarity,
a time of darkness

a time of tears and loneliness

you remember
I am amongst the stars
I will try to light your path
and to provide comfort with my light

remember,
life is not always full and bright
life is not fair and it is not always good,
like you are...
life will be evil
it will drag you into darkness

but I know that...
if you are strong enough to pull the tides
you are strong enough to make it through those dark times
because

your fullness and your brightness will come back
and your lightness and your capability to shine
your fullest potential
will return

As scattered ideas come together
As emotions flood my soul
Mountains of papers on the floor
Mountains of words come to mind
But in the end, these mountains form a mountain chain
called a poem

A cabin in the woods
With a fireplace, the smell of wood in the air
Fresh baked bread in the kitchen
And a cat purring on the windowsill
There is a bubbling river flowing in the back

This is my happy place in my imagination
Where I am surrounded by greenery and life
Where time seems to slow and sunlight seems to shine a bit brighter
A place of safety, a place of happiness, a place of rest

I used to be a full moon
So full of life
So bright

But now its full of darkness
As I settle into a new life

As I leave the familiar, safe space
A place that I know
A place that I love

I feel the darkness of unfamiliarity come
as I enter
this new cycle of life
this new phase

I hope I can find my light
and my fullness again

He is just
a friend
But he is a brother to me

-Few months later-

I am falling for him
I am in love with him
His eyes, the light that is in him...a light that no else has
His laugh, the best music in the world...a laugh that no one else has
His smile,
lights up the world better than the sun and stars...a smile that no one else has
His hair, so black...like midnight...dark and mysterious, but so soft and shiny
His hands, so gentle and caring...hands that no one else has
round, short nails, short fingers
His arms, so full of strength, yet can be so tender...arms that I can be in for days...arms that no one else has
His voice, so strong but yet so gentle
Like the sea, lulling you to sleep or igniting the spark of passion in you...a voice like no other
His heart,
so golden and valuable

A heart, like no one else's...

The way he sees the world, like no one else...

The way he makes me feel, like no one else...

He is like no one else...

I want no one else...but him

The old places of laughter
Are now full of sorrow and yearning
As I remember all the days we spent together
Without you here

The treasures that have your fingerprints on them
Are now meaningless objects, stored away in boxes
Shut away in cupboards
Forgotten
Just like the way you have forgotten me

The songs we used to sing on the top of our lungs
The ones we used to dance to
Are now the songs I play at 3 am
When I yearn to be snuggled in your embrace

The old photos in the album with us laughing,
Moments frozen in time,
Moments where I can’t go back
A reminder that you are gone

They shun me, they fear me,
They force me to be something I’m not
They force  me to be sunlight,
to dance with pure white clouds and the blue sky
Even though I dance with the moon and stars
I am darkness

Only the moon knows my pains and my secrets
Only the stars wink back with encouragement
in my sorrow laments

They say that I should be bright and happy
But to darkness I shall forever succumb
To darkness I shall find peace
With the dark of the night, I shall be
And with the winking stars and pale white moon
I shall dance

Open wounds are bleeding cuts exposed to the sun
Caused by a knife or a scratch from a run
They are lines on the skin that fade after a while
At least that is what it is in people’s mind files

But sometimes blood is not the only thing that flows
Sometimes tears or numb expressions are the only thing that’s shown
Sometimes they are not simple lines that just fade away
For some they run deep, they are there to stay

Some wounds feel sharp like a knife on skin
But to some those wounds are short moments of relief, heaven
Compared to the wounds inside their head
Telling them that they are worthless, they are better off dead
If people look on the inside they will realize, they will find
Not all open wounds mark the body, they can also mark the mind

From the car
to walking in the hallways

from waking up before the sun
to going to sleep at night

that same song
playing in my head
on repeat

the song that will be there forever
the song of us

the chords of laughter
the notes of tears
the lines of pain
the lyrics that tell our story


Our instruments now destroyed
we haven't sung for days
the music we enjoyed
all lay in waste

though our vocal chords are severed
our song forever stays
in my head forever
endlessly playing for days

Even though I tell myself I'm over it
Even though I tell myself I'm happy
Even though I think of something else
It doesn't make the pain
hurt any less
Cause when the old song plays on the radio
Or when I am reminded that your gone
All the grief comes flooding back
and I die all over again

Time doesn't heal, doesn't make it any better
and trying to convince myself that everything's alright
won't make the pain hurt any less

I remember that day
Sitting by the river
in your arms

The petals from the cherry blossom tree
fell into the flowing water

You made a promise that you will never let me go
Even when raindrops fall in my soul
Even when the storms stir my sea
You will never let me go
You will guide me to the rainbow
And the sweet smell after the rain
This was your petrichor petal promise

Then that day
When raindrops fell down in my soul
You left me alone...
And broke your petrichor petal promise



Now I sit by the same old river
that has the same flowing water
and the same cherry blossoms
But I was not in your arms

I then made my own
petrichor petal promises

That I won't fall so easily
Like the petals of the cherry blossom tree
I will continue to flow
Even when raindrops fall
I will guide myself to the rainbow
And the sweet smell of rain after the storm
The petrichor after the sorrow

These are my petrichor petal promises
to myself

Different faces, different places
Different stages, different people chased
But it always ends the same old way
Broken glass and broken hearts
Something taken, Something lost
Never to return, forever gone

I build up walls conceal how I feel
Protect my heart with plates of steel
I swear an oath never to succumb to love
To surround myself with ice, to not trust the dove
So that my bleeding heart may heal after what they have done
What they have taken, what they have stole
What they have forsaken, the hurt that they bestowed upon my soul

My warm heart is now a heart of stone
My open doors are now closed
My living blood runs cold in my veins
For I am too tired to play more games

Tw: mentions of rpe, sxual *ssault, *buse

Falling…
I never realize it is happening
Until the butterflies in my stomach turn to whirlpools
Until I wake up and realize that I’m on yet another roller coaster
It is as though I am walking towards an open door that leads to peace
But it closes on me as soon as I reach for the doorknob

Falling…
I see it in the palaces made of words in fairy tales
I see it in the flashes of images on a blank screen that light up a dark room
Why does falling in those places always end in a happily ever after?
Why do those images and palaces look so different…
From when I fall?

Falling…
Why does it look like hidden smiles, forehead kisses, and long hugs in the rain on the screen
While I watch my own kingdom be invaded by conquerors who only see me as a prize
Why do the words say that it daring, exciting….or even like the warmth of a comforting fireplace
But every time I fall, I feel the glass shards pierce my palms and my knees…
As spears of grief pierce my heart as I see how far I’ve fallen and what could’ve been…
The realization of how pieces of me will always remain in shards, even if they are glued together
Why do I see the magical spells conjoin the sparkle of love struck eyes
While my falling feels like the shackles of a cursed cycle of losing myself
Where my mirror on the wall erases everything and recreates a perfect illusion for another

Falling…
I hear it in the guitar strings and the chords of love songs
It sings of midnight dances in every note, synchronized hearts in every beat
Why does it sound so different from what I hear?
Why does mine sound like ignored protests and whispered pleas of “do not hurt me”
Or like silent teardrops running down one’s cheek
Why does mine sound like the unheard gasps that are muffled by pillows at 12 AM?

Falling…
The fairy tales, the screen, the songs…all mention that falling smells like roses
Well, I guess that is the one thing that is true…
For one only seeks rose petals for their beauty and their sweet smell,
But they always forget that even with the most beautiful things, there are thorns too

Though we live on the same earth
It seems as though our worlds have drifted apart
You are on mars and I am on Saturn
We are so close, yet so far apart
I am the earth, and you are the moon
Orbiting slowly around me
But never getting closer
Pulling on me with your gravity,
But I am not the one that makes you shine
Someone else illuminates you, you belong to someone else
The sun…

Silence is the biggest noise
Light pastel colors on the walls
Notebooks scattered on the floor
As I procrastinate my *** off

Writing poetry instead of my essay
Thinking bout love
when I should be thinkin bout tests
Seeing my bed and wanting to sleep
But I’ just sitting here on my laptop
Complaining bout a student’s misery

I want to go out into the world
And see people walk along the streets
I want to go window shopping, or the bakery to get some bread

I want to laugh with my friends, but not through a screen
I want to hug them as we go through the hallways of school

But all I can do is stay in my neighborhood
Crossing the street each time a person comes
Endure my family’s endless critiques
And them loudly talking as I try to concentrate
On my online classes and quizzes that I failed

I can only live in this bubble right now
It seems like the world is ending
I cannot keep pretending
That my friends are here with me
I cannot keep making conversations in my head
I cannot stop myself from slipping into the abyss
Of darkness and depression and uncontrollable emotions

I see people staring on the streets
As they confine me into either box
"boy" or "girl" those labels slapped on me
But truth to be told I am neither
I am non-binary
Agender, more specifically

And although some people can't know
I'm queer and it's beautiful

People often call me weird, odd, or peculiar
Heck, some people even call me disgusting
But...I prefer a different word, some word that holds more light
"Queer" as in different
A word that once was  a word of disgrace but now holds glory

Although people may say it's a sin
I just remind myself
That I am queer and I am me...and that is enough
I am enough and I am beautiful

The color of passion
The color of the spark in each of our hearts
As we love, as we fight, as we live
It is the color of that drive in us
To persevere against all odds
The drive to make sure that
Our voices are heard
Red
The color of anger and pain
The color of the blood spilt after each fight
The hearts broken
The demons released
From the cages of our minds
Red, the emotion that we cannot control

Red
Is a double-edged sword
It is love
It is that drive that makes life worth living
It is the excitement, the spark
But it is also the color
That hurts us the most

If I can return my feelings for you
I would
If I can return all the **** you put me through
I would
If I can have a refund for all the love I gave you that you did not deserve
I would

But darling,
my heart won't let me return you
my heart will only let me return to you

As you sailed away
in the big blue sea
I sat by the river
and cried

My tears,
sadness from
the fact that you are gone

pieces of my soul
became part of the river
and I hope that they travel to you
so that you may know

how willing I am to save you from the rough waters
when the river of life meets the storm

or how happy I am, when your river of life
travels to a safe haven of trees
gently flowing, everything going smoothly
sunshine shining through the leaves
...when the river of life has reached a golden time

I send my soul out to the sea
so you may know
how much I loved you
of all the wishes I have for you
but most of all...my plea
for you can come back home,
to me

You are in a place full of strangers
a different world
than the one I live in
3 hours away somewhere out there
I hope your happy now

Though you probably are smiling
living without me
I know your thoughts don't contain me anymore
just don't forget me
and remember

We live under the same sky
We sleep under the same stars
We bask under the same sun
We dance under the same moonlight
and we still live in the same world

You are finally free and happy
I'm still here imagining
that you'll come back to me
At night I can hold you in my arms
You visit me in my dreams
But when I wake up your gone

Even though I know it's impossible
I'm still waiting for you to come back
and be here with me
But all I can do is remember you
and the memories you left me
I hope you remember me like this too

Last first days, time ticking
My time at high school falling
I should savor the moment
Live in the present
Before it all turns to dust

But how can I feel okay
When you're weren't here to stay?
You said I'll be fine and that I should be happy

I feel so disconnected
I'm going through the motions
And I don't know where I'm going

All my relationships feel meaningless
Can't compare them to what we had
Everything is changing so fast

Fighting, waves of the past, drowning
Screaming, but no one is listening
The world without you is so, overwhelming

I wish I weren't this complicated
I wish I could just live in the present
But my mind keeps going back to you
Without you nothing makes sense....

Guess I'll just keep feeling disconnected
And going through the motions
And not know where I'm going

Feeling like all my relationships are meaningless
Can't compare them to what we have
And face the fact
That you, and everything is changing too fast

For years and years I have been the shadow to your light
Always there while you shone like the sun.

I have always tried to shine, but you shone brighter
My soft, weak, delicate voice could not overpower yours

No one saw my light
No one saw all the things I could have gave them
All cause I was your shadow

Your star of talent always out shone mine
And you all know what happens when a star can't shine
It starts to die
It became a shadow to your sun

The spotlight was always on you
And I had to put my talents on the shelf
Cause no saw
no one cared
All they saw was you and your light
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But now it is my turn to shine
It is my turn to be recognized
People will finally see me
and all the things I could have done for them

They will see what they have missed out
But I won't be coming back to them
Cause they should have seen it earlier
They should not have let me down
They should not have made me worthless
They should have given me some chances
It is your turn to become the shadow
It is your turn to sit down
It is my turn to become the sun

I refuse to hide in the shadows
I refuse to put my talents on the shelf
I refuse to be the shadow of the spotlight

I will be heard
I will not be silenced
My once weak voice will ring across the nation
And everyone will remember my name

I know you are happier out there
in the big wide world
A place so far away where no one knows your past

I know you want to let go of your childhood
and the place where you used to call home

But I'm here feeling empty without you
I know you belong to someone else
But I want you
So tell me,
How do I let go of someone that isn't mine

You tell me that we will keep in touch
Then the last hug the last wave goodbye
I miss you too much
So tell me,
How do I let you go?
How do I numb this pain?
How do I stop my heart from wanting you?

To stop wanting your arms around me
To stop wanting to hear your voice and your laugh
To stop wanting your presence

Because I know
Even though it hurts
You are happier in a foreign place
with another person
So how do I let go of someone that isn't mine?

When you were here
So many sparks flew in the air
Just like butterflies with fiery wings

Back then
Christmas had it's joys and it...actually felt like Christmas
The performances we did together
were thrilling

My emotions were a mess but it's now a complete enigma
Now that your gone
I'm searching and scanning for any sign
of love in each and everyone I meet's eye
My heart is so lost without you

Christmas just feels like an ordinary day
Christmas season is non-existent, cause your not in it
The performances are nerve racking
And some days I just want to quit and give it up forever

The things I used to enjoy
don't have the same spark
Those butterflies with fiery wings
are dead and long gone
Those songs we used to sing together
are now void of sparks and butterflies
The butterflies with wings of flame are long dead and gone

It’s time to take this broom
And sweep away the sorrows of winter
The heartbreak of last year
The betrayal of fall

Because...I am a flower ready to bloom
I need room to grow
I do not have space
For all these glass shards
But most of all…
I do not have space
To be a pawn in someone else’s game

I turn to a new clean page
To start a new chapter in my life
To forget the past, to start anew
To paint a picture that is not filled with tears, pain or suffering
A picture where I don't cry at night, rather I sleep soundly
A picture where I see my body as a home, rather than filled with cracks and flaws
A picture of the images of my imaginations, filled with sparks of life and magic

But that page still has stains
From the broken parts of me...from the past
Rain stains, that fell from my eyes with gray and dark blue ink
from the times I was on the verge of falling off that cliff of stability,
on the verge of losing it all and giving up
Blood stains,
from the times when I drew a straight red line with a silver pen
and see the red paint dripping down on my arms
Those battles, some almost ending in defeat
But most of all,
I see the aftermath of a storm
Stains of debris of trauma, fear, and heartbreak
From the times where I have learned that
When you fall, no one can catch you
Not even your friends....who you thought you could trust
Who you thought will never leave you, but lied

Although I turn to a new page
To a white, pure smooth piece of paper
There will always be the stains
of all my pain
that will never go away

I have seen many stars in my life
some have a special bright light
but **** others brightness with their knife

I have thought them as the perfect star
but I was fooled and my soul was marred

Their brightness was so bright
that it blinded my sight
Blinded it so much I did not see the coming plight

Now I am wiser I know better
to be someone who chases after looks
and forgets that they only know how to be a player
Not warming other people with their light
only to draw them in and **** them with their poisonous bite

Beware of those stars who know nothing but to take
Beware of those stars whose brightness is fake

Beware of the stars who do not love
Who only know to steal the fire of innocent doves

Beware of those stars
for they will deceive you
I beg and hope that you do not to fall in this trap too

We were so innocent, so pure, our eyes shine like stars
Looking in the mirror, our eyes shine like stars

We loved what we saw from the bottom of our feet to the top
We sparkled with much pride and had hearts that shine like stars

But we heard what we should look like, we saw models
With sparkling gems and gowns that shine like stars

We look at the judgements of others, then at ourselves
With a cruel gleaming glare that shine like stars

But love, you don't need to fit in a box of beauty to be worthy
You have come so far, look at yourself, rekindle that pride, you shine like stars

Sometimes, the storm inside your head
Is so loud
That you can’t hear yourself think

It amplifies the noises around you
The world seems to scream
The whisper of your thoughts
Could never overpower the world’s chaos

You only feel the waves tsunami that I have summoned
You only feel the winds of my hurricane that's threatening to blow you away
You only hear the daggers upon my tongue
You only see the red gleam of my eyes filled with rage...

But in the eye of my storm
My inner child is screaming
Save me
I feel like I'm drowning
I feel the darkness filling up inside my lungs
As I attempt to fix the bleeding that has begun
The eyes of the world sees someone who's not perfect
They only see my walls, my flaws, and everything that's wrong

I just want someone to love me
Want someone who won't leave
Want someone to shield me from the war inside my mind
I just want things to feel alright

I swear I don't want to hurt anyone
But things feel lonely when you are the only one
Who understands you, who sees the invisible scars you bear alone
When you can't cry tears in your own home
Clouds collide and take control
But I swear I mean no harm,
I just need someone who unconditionally loves

Where is home? Where is the place that I belong?
I stare into the mirror and see someone else
Long hair, makeup, wearing a dress
Why is my reflection a stranger?
Why isn't the place where my soul dwells
not a place I can call home?

Where is the place that I can go
when I need someone to rely on?
Where is the place where someone understands?
Where is the place where I don't have to hide?
A place where I can let my guard down,
and break the walls that surround my heart

When can I spread my wings?
When will I arrive
To a place where I can finally see myself  in each mirror I turn to
To a place where I belong?
To a place where I can call home?

I know the fight to get home
Is a long and hard one,
full of pain and sorrow
Full of tears and bitterness
Though I am in a dark tunnel now
I can see the light, at the end of the darkness
a place where I can truly be me
A place where no one stops and stares
and asks me what is wrong with me
A place where no one looks at me strangely
A place where I don't have to be scared

It's not my time to spread my wings yet
But when I do, I will touch the sky and be at the peak of my life
and finally...
be surrounded by people I can truly call a family
A place full of love
A place where I can truly be me
To a place I call home

Strangers
They see a quiet young teenager
Short black hair that the wind messes up
Brown, shy eyes that refused to make eye contact
A seemingly, insecure teen

Through the eyes of friends
They see a loud chaotic ball of energy
Filled with passion, but filled with pessimism
An emotional mess
But will always be there for you

Family
They see the worst side of me
They see my storms, my frustrations, my tears
They are so close but they could never be more far away
They will never know this maze

When we first met
our soul strings tied together
we were meant to be

Now your leaving
Because time won't let you stay
Wrong time to love you
Wrong place to get too close

My susurrus soul strings keep
reminding me of you

They sing your beautiful song
that I long to hear


Your smile that brightens up the dark world like no other
Your laugh that makes the cold world a little warmer
Your voice that the world stops and listens to

I miss you...
My Susurrus soul strings
Won't let me let you go
Cause we were bound

But I can never have you
So I must cut the Susurrus Soul strings

Even though my heartstrings will hurt
At least it will hurt less
When my Susurrus soul strings aren't
whispering your name anymore...
goodbye...
I miss you....
Please come back home....
so that I can tie our soul strings
back together...
and our strings will sing our song louder
instead of me being here....

listening to the susurrus of our old song

Laughing till our stomach hurts
But we are still unsure
Though our time is short together
In less than two years we'll be writing letters instead

You are that special someone
I lose my breath when I look at you, girl
Especially when your eyes seem to fly when you put wings on them
Our moments together are sweet but go by in a whirl
Why are you so afraid?
If you love me why don't you just say?

Our love may be forbidden
Although it has to be hidden
It can still be our little secret
So just say, that you love me back
if you love me back

Those jokes you make are so insane
I promise, I meant it in a good way
Your art skills never leave me unamazed

You have picked me up from my darkest times
You brought me back into the light
You have shown be the way
to be brave
and to put myself out there
without a care

I love you so much but I'm scared that if I say
That I love you our friendship might break
So please, tell me that you love me girl

And though people say that you are quite crazy
an odd one with her head stuck in daisies
to me you are that one special one

A path of white lilies leads up to a small wooden building
The grass scented summer breeze welcomes guests through the open window
Hot spring smoke greets the white clouds in the clear blue sky
Fresh fruit and small cups of warm milk tea on the table
A gray tabby stretches its back and yawns on the window sill
Yang Ming Mountain beckons contentment within me, and puts all anxieties to sleep

The future
Is a long winding path in a dark forest
The leaves on the trees are so thick
That the moon and the stars can’t be seen
There is no way of telling which way is north, south, east or west
You just follow the path and try to find the light
You hear mysterious sounds in the night
Never knowing if it is made by a friend or a foe

The future
Is full of unknown
Like a dark murky lake, or a black abyss
The direction is always uncertain
There is nothing you can do,
But continue to walk along the path
Until you find the place of rest