depression isn't an excuse to be mean
but one must understand what comes along with a depressed mind
it isn't fun and games
it isn't smiles and laughs
and more times than not it is impossible to forge happiness
you can't expect everything out of someone who can't even get out of bed
you can't expect sanity when one is high off of self inflicted pain
and wasted off of several bottles of alcohol
maybe it is something others can't quite comprehend or understand
maybe it is something not everybody has had the misfortune to experience
but please don't hold it against those who have
please don't assume that they are bad people
because they are good at their core
and they are trying their very hardest to find the light

I'll never forget how you saw your daughter's blood and told her she should have cut deeper

I'll never forget how you became aware of my mental illness and instead of trying to help me, you got angry and left me

I'll never forget the way you looked at me while I was crying, as if I were crazy and out of my mind

Maybe I am, but as my father, as the one who watched me grow, wouldn't you want to help me reach the aspirations you claim to have for me

I'll never forget the way you left and cut me off, the way you acted cheaply and said you would no longer help me

For as long as I live, I'll remember this abandonment and how you made me feel more worthless than I ever have before

And next time I pick up the blade and slide it across my skin, I'll see the blood, the blood we share, and remember your harsh words

You've done something to me.
Life wasn't like this before.
I write poems about love now,
And convince myself that they aren't for you.
I don't know how you feel,
Does it really matter?
You've taken over my mind,
And the butterflies in my stomach...
Wont sleep.
Lets just go our separate ways,
Before its too late.
Because,
Its inevitable.
Please stop...
Please stop.
Before i fall in love.....