I vaguely remember you use to visit me
For a whole month straight only at night
My unrealistic mind lead me to the conclusion that you were a vampire
And that your skin would burn during the day
If you came to see me
But then you confided in me
And that's when I discovered that the only thing  burning was your heart
And that you were so depressed over something you couldn't change that
You punished yourself and believed that you didn't deserve anything as peaceful as the sun
And became a night walker

If your relationship is too perfect
You start thinking of things that aren't wrong
You began to create problems in your head that's not really serious in real life

"Is he so perfect that he's not good enough?"

Does there have to be some sort of conflict in the relationship to make "us" seem real?
To make it seem like this is really a relationship?

I found the secret notebook you hid from me
It was full of love letters that you never gave to me
Because I was too cold hearted to let you in.

I wanna give up
I honestly do
But then I think of you

You caused me pain

Now I know I cant trust a soul.

I'm running out of pain pills for my headaches
Im getting less upset that you don't want me
The pain I felt is now numb
And it seems the rain doesn't effect my outlook anymore
Either way I'm colder than I was before
My skin doesn't warm up at the sound of your voice anymore
Things around me are quickly changing
But I'm still intact with my feelings

We swam to the bottom of the ocean
To find beauty
But all we found was                       Darkness

I knew you were heartless because when you smiled you looked dead.

To wake up each day
Next to your warm body
And roll over to meet your lips
Those lips of which belong to me
Those lips of which have been mine since we've met
Your eyes of which tell a story of love

Oh How I Crave

Your body on top of mine
You breathe breathlessly into my ear
Sweet nothings
I Crave, I Crave
Just you

The first time I reach out to you
And need you the most
You treat me the opposite way of what I needed
How could you do me that way?
That is not love

No matter if it's
guilt, anger, love, loss or betrayal.
Change is never easy
We fight to hold on and we fight to let go.

"Forever" he mumbled carelessly. He expressed the word like it was another ordinary word.

"Forever" I reposnded like the word was a melody. I expressed it like my life depended on it. Because it did, and still I mean it today, even watching you with a girl that is not me.

"Forever" we both said. But only one of us meant it.

Big or small lies are lies
And the pain from it never dies
It crawls deep into you and hides
Waiting for its time to rise
A dark force it forms to be
It may take a while for you to see
It has a face and two feet
It's just like you and just like me
oh what a beautiful creature pain
Could be

Your so broken

Your so jaded.

Your right

We can get Addicted to a certain kind of sadness

I feel as though I changed
And this new life is amazing
But if I'm loosing myself in this change
I'd rather have my old life back
As well as myself

When you walked through that door

I realized right then and there

What people meant when they said

Something

Took there breath away |

There's so many amazing poets in this world. (:

Its that time again
That time of  night when you cant sleep
Your mind running a mile a minute
Its filled with millions of thoughts
You've got to release
Your heart and brain are working together creating
Different ways for you to let go of these feelings with
Words
And thats how us
The poets are created

Some people just aren't wise enough to hear the powerful exsposion in your words.

Praising Jesus in your darkest hour
When your stressed and tired
You feel no hope in you heart
Things around you are not perfect
But there's got to be something worth smiling about


So praise Jesus.


"Thank You Jesus"

Because things can be bad right now
But they could always, always be much worse.

He was nervous I could tell
His smile was shaky and his eyes watered.
"Anna." He murmured looking me straight in the eyes.
He bent down in front of me and my eyes flew wide open, he quickly took something out of his pocket and he opened the box.
I gasped at the sight in front of me
"Will You Marry Me Annabell Collins?" His voice was so hopeful I couldn't help but gasp in admiration at this man and this gorgeous huge ring. I also couldn't get over the fact that someone was asking me to be with them forever. He wanted me...Forever. Every single day for the rest of our lives he wanted to wake up next to me. I couldn't be happier.

"Yes!" I cheered. "I will marry you!."

Ever get so angry you start shaking?
Wanna cry but you won't
Wanna die but your finger never reaches for the trigger
you just like knowing that you could simply end all the pain by one bullet traveling through your brain


But you don't pull the trigger.

I could get anything I've ever wanted
And still feel like somethings missing.


But that's just me.

The only HATE I've ever felt

Was the reflective madness

I received from the ones I dumb foundedly

Loved with every piece of me |

i prayed to have someone like you
And then suddenly the Angels sent you to me
I didn't know how handle any of it
I ******* it up I pushed you away
And I got no second chance.

End
  But feelings continue.

Remember that your life is not a Waste

Where all individually here for a purpose

Don't give up
Find hope in something

And stay strong for someone and if not them then for yourself.

Pressing my lips in a thin line
I tilt my head back
Squeezing my eyes shut
Trying my best to hold back those angry tears
Caused by those around me
Who conjure up my fury
They make me wear it on my sleeves
It's obvious but to them it's the most oblivion
And they constantly send me back to that dark pace

Images flash through my mind
Of my coming of a future
Pictures, videos, events that did not take place in my reality just yet
I was beginning to think I was physic
And then my grandmother easily told me that I have a gift
My fragile mind, oh my

It would be so out of character
To treat people how they treat me


But oh how sweet
Revenge could be

Disappearing doesn't sound so bad anymore.

Can we start over?
I promise I won't fall in love this time.

You want love but you cannot give love.

I'm selfish because i want your lips all the time
There's no time of day that I don't want you, you treat me like a princess
dont think I didnt hear how you defend me when I'm not around, I love to wake up knowing you are all mine
Telling me you love me everyday is nothing but music to ears,
Your amazing,

Your friends
They don't deserve your time
I don't want them to see your smile or get use to your laugh like I am
I would hate for them to love you like I love you because they won't want to let you go either,
I don't want you to go out in public
There's other girls
They might hear your laugh, or catch a glimpse of your beautiful eyes and they might fall in love you
And if you think there beautiful enough then there's a chance you could fall in love too

I don't want anyone else to have you
I envy anyone else who has because I love you.

I can taste your sadness on your lips.

I've never had *** ... But I  hear it's amazing when it's with someone you truly love.

It was that kind of breakup
That left you both emotional and emotionless
All while wondering was it all worth it?

She doesn't love anymore
Actually
She doesn't even feel anymore

Do you really want her?


Or

Are you with her because you felt lonely?

They say thinking of sin is pretty much sinning
So let's sin away
And later pray for forgiveness.

How about we slow dance
To the rhythm of my heartbeat
Our eyes connected
Our souls in sync
A stranger to my face
A lover to my heart
Everything is black and white
But we remain in the dark
Behind the talk and the whispers
And the topic of the town
Your fingers touch my lips and I forget
Who's around
Your intoxicating scent Often puts me in trance
What a unforgettable moment
The first time we slow dance

Slowly sensing an altered reality
Or maybe its a parallel universe
Scrathing our earth
Hypnotizing and brainwashing our youth
Its working
Where falling under the invisible trap
Forced to think that we are suppose to live this way
Forced to think that depression and suicide is the way to go
Forced to think that there is no way out
They are WRONG

Now I'm all choked up
I have no words
Well my mind does but my mouth won't let me speak
I'm gone
I wanna leave
Go somewhere alone, darkness
A place that is nothing

I feel as though I'm waisting away
Like I'm just a color on a paper slowly fading

It is truly amazing

                          When you meet someone

and you feel that connection


                              That changes your life forever.

My heart still beats rapidly in my chest when I see your name flash across my screen

Is there any chance that you could
Look past my

Eyes

Mouth

Nose

Legs

Arms

And feet

And judge me by my heart?

So far this isn't the beginning of summer
It's the beginning of hell.

Guess I need to cry more

Because it didn't go out yet