It's funny because as poetic as I am
And how much time I spent thinking of him in the wee hours of the night
I could still only think of one word to describe him
And that word
Is
Heartless.

It only bothers me when I'm alone
And I think about it

Is swallowing me again
No one understands
And I wanna go away


Far far away
Alone and content
Warm and Lonely with only myself to comfort

I wanna go away
Away from the madness and gossip
Away from ugly judgmentals who torment my emotions

I wanna go away
And sometimes I wish I didn't need people because on my own id be gone
And alone In A Dark Whole.

" Forever "

Is just another ordinary word that's used to put a temporary smile on our faces.

There is no greater love
Then a love that was meant to be.

Lately I'm lost

More lost then ever before |

The way you left the relationship just shows the type of person you really are.

I get attached to things, places, people, You.
all things I always eventually loose.

I'm in love with the air in the morning
And the chilly winds at night
I love the honesty that escapes from you when you've had way to much alcohol
My heart flutters at the sweet couples who express there love publicly
Smoothies taste especially good in the summertime
I'm in love with weird things and strangers and the idea of you

Not being pretty enough
Or not feeling good enough
Or just simply not being "enough" for someone has got to be the worst feeling in the universe.

Right now things seem the same but months from now where gonna say they were so different ~

I was always hopeful.

He didn't understand why I liked storms
But what he never realized is that
Everytime he left me
I felt like one

A black and white setting is what reaches my vision
Blurred voices going back and forth

I was here and it was two of me
One stading next to him and the other me watching this all play out

His eyes were wet and red pleading me to say something
But I was speechless
needless to say a heartbreak goes a long way
Big or small
There were still things I should have said
Things like

I need you
We've connected in so many ways
You woke up a part of me that I thought never existed
I thought you would be to good to be true because your everything that I've always wanted
Your all I have, all I want
And I love you.

Now your gone and this hurts because these are things that I should have said :(

Everyone told me it feels so good
But no one said it would hurt so terribly bad

Love is suppose to be breathtakingly amazing
The reason for life
Not the reason for death
as I let my feelings take control of my mind
The darkness swallows me whole
But im not scared
because you are the darkness
My light in the dark
While im counting the stars
Your the moon watching over me
My protector

What is it about anger
That makes our fear disappear?

A bittersweet soothing event that terrifies yet amazes me.

You all say that I am very close to my deliverance

But I feel as though I am farther then ever before.

Every time I think it's getting better
It gets worse

I truly hated my name
Until my ears got the pleasure of hearing it come from your sweet lips

It's really sad isn't it?
I'm tired of complaining I want things to change right now, you don't want me I get it I promise I'm trying to except that,
I wanna cry now and get it over with but I know that tears only come to my eyes when I'm overwhelmed with millions of others things and I crash with all of my emotions at once,

Oh wait *


My eyes are tearing up right now because I'm thinking of the girl that you've chosen over me,
She must be prettier, I get it, trust me i do
But it's just tragic you know?
I never get exactly what I want
Something always goes wrong I always find myself back in this black whole, this blank space, this emptiness and fulfilling darkness.


No no I'm not jealous
She's really lucky though, she gets to see that smile of yours everyday and watch you dribble a basketball through your legs and show off knowing your watching him, he loves it, he loves showing off for the girls,
I just don't get it though, what is wrong with Me? People please stop it when you say looks don't really matter, Looks are what catches others attention,
"Looks" are part of the reason you chose her over me, well that and the fact that your stupid friends hate me.

I'm angry darling,
I'm angry that I'm never good enough, not for you or for anyone
I've never really done anything wrong to anyone
I'm not 100% innocent but I'm not like any other teenager
I've been through hell and I'm still finding my way back to the closest place to heaven.



I'm sorry...I'm ranting now But I need express this heartbreak, this depression, this blank space, and these cigarettes and straight ***** aren't helping.

Ever want to runaway, but you have no where to go?

If only we could wish the bad memories away...
My mind would be pure Again.

Nothing saddens me more than
Knowing that our love was so
Weak
That you went to go get what I have
From another girl

Like the love you have for me
That smile that stays attached to your face in my presence
I know I give you a rush
I make your heart feel a little bit better each day
And I'm not use to this love
I've never met anyone like you so please forgive me when I push you away
I'm being selfish I'm sorry
You told me that when I ignore you it makes your heart hurt
I'm sorry for that too
I keep thinking this is to good to be true, maybe it is or maybe I need to just let myself fall helplessly in love with you without any fear
Like you did with me

In a crowd I'm lost in it
Staring at each and every individual human being
Knowing that each and every one of them have there own lives, there own stories to tell.

Dont worry if your having hard times

Just remember

That we all fall before we rise.

Is every mistake forgivable?

Or maybe I loved him because I was at my worst and he still thought I was perfect.

I'm the white spaces between every single word.

He was a simple minded boy
Who didnt quit understand poetry or the dangerously poetic girl who made thunderstorms only look like rain

I've never Been this angry
And so closed off from the world
And ive never been so terrified of what could come next

I can even feel the distance far away
When where texting.

Stronger then I thought.

And if he leaves me, I'll die.

Rereading old messages wishing we could go back to that Beginning stage of the relationship where everything is new and our love was pure.

I miss you
Even when your sitting right here in my face.

Once you entirely give yourself to someone they'll start taking you for granted.

Oh what a beautiful sight death has become .

Why is it that when you finally get what you want
You suddenly don't want it anymore?

Is it when your innocence has fled that you are no longer as pure as you use to be? Are you not as poetic as you use to be?

Are you even the same person?

I don't want the memory to disappear

I just don't want to think about it.

I would love to explore the world

But only if im hand in hand

With someone i love

& that would mean this was all worth it.

You tell me all you feel is pain

But you must have forgotten

That sunshine Only comes after the

Rain ♥

Your face which was my coffee in the morning
That voice that was my lullaby at night
Those hands that soothed my soul
Your lips that made my skin burn
Your heart that belonged to mine
Will always love you