.

You were skipping stones

and as I watched
a slowly arching ripple

gently kissing the shore

I found myself wishing
I was that ripple

and you were that shore

The night you said you'll be okay, you'll be fine,
That's when I felt something's wrong and it was a sign,
You said you'll not cry and it'll take time,
But your world's drifting from mine,

What's good in the morning?
When we both know you're not returning,
I stared at the door hoping to hear a knock,
But then the sun starts to set and I knew you're not coming back.

My room felt so lonely,
These sheets have become my remedy,
Every time I lay in bed,
They're whispering and telling me all the words you've said.

I'm tired of crying every now and then,
I'm scared of asking for a paper and a pen,
You might not give the things I need,
Ignore me like an annoying kid.

But please don't add yourself in my past stories,
Because i'm holding on to us and to our memories,
All I ask from you is be here,
Stay with me because I can't control my anxiety and fear.

Losing you wasn't in my list,
But it seems like you had chosen like it was already a goodbye kiss.

in some ways, i wish to forget you.
to let go of how your words hurt so much inside my heart,
how you left me to myself;
                                                 alone.
in other ways, i can’t stop trying to remember
the times we had - the hopes, dreams, thoughts whispered to each other.
the hope of a better place and time, where we could be together, as one.

i cannot forget you.
but i will always hold close the things i choose to remember:
our juvenile, silly promises,
rather than the lost hopes that will always remain inside my heart.

Ice* cold
Like my soul
     Growing older than old
  Melting away
         As the days get hotter
Why bother with the same things
      When everything changes
          And I can't escape the heat
   Of my heart as it finally feels
                   *Defeat