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Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

Romali Arora

Somewhere deep, inside her soul

She often craved to be complete, to be whole

To be kissed without being judged

To have her bruises loved

Without being hurt.

She prayed to be prayed for

To be sought after

To be longed for

Just for once

She wanted to be, not someone’s leftover or looked down upon

But someone’s one and only one

We all have the innate desire to be loved, to be craved for, to have our wounds and scars kissed, to be longed for. But we often hold on to that feeling and keep it suppressed within, fearing that maybe we are asking for too much and may not be worthy.

#heartbreak #broken #sad #life #pain #hurt #heartache #lessons

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

She craved....

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

Romali Arora

She craved....

Somewhere deep, inside her soul

She often craved to be complete, to be whole

To be kissed without being judged

To have her bruises loved

Without being hurt.

She prayed to be prayed for

To be sought after

To be longed for

Just for once

She wanted to be, not someone’s leftover or looked down upon

But someone’s one and only one

We all have the innate desire to be loved, to be craved for, to have our wounds and scars kissed, to be longed for. But we often hold on to that feeling and keep it suppressed within, fearing that maybe we are asking for too much and may not be worthy.

#heartbreak #broken #sad #life #pain #hurt #heartache #lessons

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

S(t)aying Goodbye

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

Eternal Threshold

S(t)aying Goodbye

For all the things
I try to say,

Why do "goodbyes"
Always slay?

Cause not even once,
Did you insist,
To stay.

I said a word,
With pure,
**Dismay.

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

Trend(ing)

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

Day

Trend(ing)

I don't want a moment of fame,
I want a lifetime of creativity.
Known for my words and not my numbers.

#words #creative #fame #trending

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

Daytime Nightmares

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

Day

Daytime Nightmares

Let him in
Want him out
Don't know the words to say
All alone
Not by myself
The darkness came to play.
Hear my cry
On deaf ears fall
The pain is here to stay.

It's late.

#pain #alone #cry #lost #hurt #him #me

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

killed

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

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killed

i have been killed
i have been hit with a spear.
It destructed my security.
It pierced my joy.
he killed my with two words.
"*******"
he killed me when he said
"you don't deserve happiness"
i thought he was supposed to be a father.
NOT a killer.
for years i refused to recognize the step before his name.
I wanted Step-father to become father. to become dad.
Joe, *******.
**** everything you are.
You robbed me of my happiness, my faith, my childhood.
For years i gave you chances.
I didn't turn you in because i believe(d) in change.
And then you wonder why you don't mean anything to me.
My heart was slashed.
Who the **** beats an eight year old kid?
Who?
Who takes away hope by kicking a nine year old out of his home to roam the streets?
I shake just sharing that memory.
Or when you put screws underneath my knees to stop me from falling on them while doing endless push-ups?
kids must be punished.
But not your way, you selfish *****
And now god is your salvation?
i hope he has mercy.
Because you deserve worse than hell

a gimps into my past. Not even close to everything. But i felt like i had to share. More to share that i survived.

#broken #abuse #ruined #step-dad

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

it's time

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

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it's time

indeed, my fellow poet.
It is time to exist in reality.
Its time to let go of the fairy tails.
Its time to pick up our lives and make something...anything.
If you expect me to sensor myself...
well...
how's this?
*******?
Am i fulfilling expectations?
AM i existing to your standards?
Because i am DONE.
D
O
N
E
!!!
See, you don't get it.
You can't live in a castle forever.
Eventually, evil will strike.
If you can't see your problems.
They WILL consume you.
And the **** you find hard now,
will seem like NOTHING
compared to what's next
if you dont step it the **** up

inspired by a comment from another person.

#truth #uncensored #blunt #mikedrop

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

untitled 115

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

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untitled 115

hello
its been a while, huh?
Im at home.
Whiling away my day.
Reading her words.
They sting.
They bleed through the paper.
Her last words.
Her last will.
was me.
And yet, she's gone, and i'm here.
****.
Who am i?
i think i should go.
You don't deserve to see me

#depression #death #bleed #last

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

good morning

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

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good morning

good morning people.
How did you sleep.
Was yesterday hell?
Is today a waste?
Just hold on.
Just make a sun.
Let it shine.
Let it shine
let the ******* shine.
and make today a good day.
So pick up your face.
stand UP.
not down.
and lets rock and roll.
________

just get up and go!

#truth #raw #inspirational #bleedingdiamonds

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

(song) Conviction

Apr 2016 HeatherBeth

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(song) Conviction

Every day I see you, and how your sick world manifests!
Every day, I experience the cold. The shameless winter that takes hold.
How do you become the winter?
How do you let yourself get so low?
I gave my trust to you. You had a lust for two.
Your secret was as hidden as a man hiding in a house of glass.
I could see straight through you, for you had no shame.
But you’re to blame!
This is your conviction. This is your call to shame.
This is where I expose you! And all that you have made me feel!
This is where we learn your name!
Because, the day you fail, is the day that I prevail!
Go!
Leave!
Disappear!
Fall into the shadows once again.
Maybe if you actually gave a ****, I wouldn’t be as mad as I am!
It was all an act, but not the impact.
Did you love me or hate me?
Reject or accept?
Was it just for show?
Don’t you know there is a place meant for people like you?
Its way down under and it’s called hell.
Can you hear its bell?
I heard its ‘a calling you!
So go ahead and do as you said!
Crawl around looking for your victims.
This is for the broken
This is for all the people you’ve left.
This is your conviction. This is your call to shame.
This is where I expose you! And all that you have made me feel!
This is where we learn your name!
Because, the day you fail, is the day that I prevail!

Sing with me!
The. Day. You. Fail. Is. The. Day. I. Pre-vail!

I will never fall again.
I know your ***** tricks.
I see the lies.
Your memory dies!
So go to hell!
Don’t bother saying bye, because I won’t try to say it back!
I want you to know…
The world. Will go on. Without yooouuuuu!
Feel the shame that you were not given.
Enjoy your fate, because you are not forgiven.
I hear your threats, and that’s when the mood sets.
You don’t have any idea!
Do you love or leave it to burn?
Now it’s time for your other side to turn!
This is your conviction. This is your call to shame.
This is where I expose you! And all that you have made me feel!
This is where we learn your name!
Because, the day you fail, is the day that I prevail!
We the people find the defendant…GUILTY!

another song i wrote

#music #song