It woke me up outta my sleep,
These thoughts and feelings won't go away,
I'm starting to think it's not temporary,
Never felt this way before in my life,
Life has a way of testing you,
I don't know what the test is about or for,
In the toughest battle of my life,
It ain't getting no easier.

Lord give me a sign,
Where do I go from here?
What do I need to do?
Why now?
Does depression run in my family?
Things were feeling better,
And then I got woken up with these thoughts,
It's getting worse not better.

I'm doing my best to move forward,
But keep getting pushed back,
I'm trying to hold on,
I don't know how much more I can hold on,
Lord help me.

You're a lady,
You should be treated as such nothing less,
If you're not cherished, uplifted, respected,
All the things you deserve and more,
You should wait on it,
Don't deal with nothing less,
Queens are valuable,
Your worth is priceless,
Don't let him take you for granted,
If he can't see your worth,
Leave him behind and move forward.

If y'all have something to say about me,
Say to me and not to her,
Always knew this would happen,
I ain't even mad but I'm very amused,
Life has a funny way of showing you things,
I see everything clearly,
All that hiding and pretending has been revealed,
The truth has come to the light,
You can hide in the dark for so long.

The lies that were told are so amusing,
The jokes on you not me,
If you only knew but too bad you don't,
Mama ain't raise no fool,
Watch what you say and what you ask for,
Life gets real different faster than you think.

The family just ain't **** that's not your fault,
Distance yourself from them,
They holding you back from your better self,
We gotta love our families from a distance,
Not everyone is meant to be in our lives,
Don't ever feel bad for living for you,
You come first over others.

Them thoughts I been having lately crazy,
Life can get deadly when you don't expect it,
Our lives can change quicker than you realize,
Everything that has taken placed is a surprise,
I can't worry or stress,
Life could be much worse,
I continue to keep pushing,
I won't give up,
Just keep putting in that work.

I knew the risks of my choices,
I knew it wasn't gonna be easy,
God has a plan for me,
I can feel something good coming,
Nothing good comes easy,
If you want something good,
You gotta take a lost to get the big win,
You can't succeed if you don't fail,
Can't experience success without failure.

Before you can walk you gotta crawl,
Before you talk you gotta listen,
Lessons are learned by paying attention,
How can we do better if we don't know our mistakes?
Know what you did wrong,
Before you can make it right,
What's wrong can be made right.

You ain't gotta be a secret,
You can be my surprise,
No need to keep secrets and tell lies,
Never thought I could feel again,
You changed all that,
You know who you are,
No need to say your name,
This was back in the day,
Things aren't much different these days.

The bond was so pure,
The vibes were so sacred,
Our connection was instant,
I seen something in you from day 1,
I never caught feelings for nobody besides you,
That's how you know what we had was real.

Never been no perfect man,
I always knew we were once perfect together,
Put you through a lot but it's all love,
Nobody could ever take your place,
You're irreplaceable.

If you wanna know me,
Spend time with me don't judge me,
We all make mistakes,
But our mistakes doesn't define us,
It just shows we are humans,
If we don't **** up we can't learn,
Never think ******* up means you're a **** up,
There's no such thing as a perfect person.

Perfection doesn't exist,
Trying to be perfect will **** you faster,
If they don't accept you for you that's on them,
You are special the way god made you,
Don't allow nobody to change you,
You're unique in your own way.

I saw some things in myself I didn't like,
I then decided to change my ways,
Nobody made me change,
I made the changes within myself,
If you don't like what you seeing,
Change what you see within yourself.

I'm in a jungle filled with animals,
Them noises get louder and louder,
When is the chaos gonna calm down?
Will the chaos ever end?
Long as I been around it's gets worse,
I took notice on many things,
I've decided to get out the way.

I tried to put an end to things,
Then I realized there's nothing I can do,
It's up to the universe,
I'm stepping out the way,
Stepping to the side,
Stay in my bubble,
Remain in my lane.

There's nothing left on the brain,
Mind is empty,
System is empty,
Emotions are empty.