You say you want me here but so you really?
It don't feel like you want me here,
Doesn't feel like home,
Feels more like prison,
Locked in a place where I don't wanna be,
Where's the key?
I need to find my way outta here.

Never thought I'd feel this way but I do,
I can feel the tears but that ain't coming out,
I'm crying inside,
This feeling is more painful than words can say,
The depression feels so real,
Life was so simple months ago,
Now everything is upside down.

I feel like I'm falling apart,
Where do I start to pick up the pieces?
My life has been shattered into pieces,
Nothing feels the same,
I made this choice,
I'll take the blame,
Something has to change.

The rainy days has became stormy nights,
Fight after fight,
Drama night after night,
The pain has deepened,
I feel like my heart has been torn from my chest,
In this life what's left,
Ever feel alive but inside you feel dead?

I ain't worried about what you saying to me,
It's more about what you ain't saying,
Those private thoughts are the most dangerous,
Be mindful of those private thoughts,
Never know what one is truly thinking,
What they saying ain't what they really think of you,
You can't trust others when it comes to the truth,
But them lies can give you comfort.

Don't cuddle with them lies too close,
Lies aren't true so don't get comfortable,
Just because it feels good,
That don't mean it's good for you,
What feels good ain't good for you,
I rather you hurt me with the truth,
Than comforting me with your lies.

You alive but you feel dead,
Life just don't feel the same,
Can't tell if I'm coming or going,
I'm here but don't know where I'm headed.

I give the glory to God,
Holding on much as I can,
Faith is the only thing that keeps me going,
Without faith I would have nothing,
My life has taken a different turn.

Live and learn but is it my turn?
What do you expect when you take a different lane?
Something has to change,
I'm the one to blame,
I'm not igniting but I see the flames.

I'm not playing but I play the game,
The rain has become thunderstorms,
The thunderbolts have gotten stronger,
The storm much longer than expected,
Didn't see this coming,
I'm here to stay ain't no running.

You put your trust in the one you think you can trust,
Then it turns out you can't trust em,
That trust is more lethal than them bullets in a gun,
You can run from them bullets,
You feel them bullets harder than a heart attack,
They both can **** you,
The question is which is more fatal.

If that bullet hits you inside your heart,
You're pretty much dead,
You're heart is the most fatal,
Without your heart you can't live,
Nothing compares to a broken heart,
The ones you love the most hurt you the most,
It's less painful not to care.

All that pain made me cold,
The only thing I care about is family,
My mama more than anyone,
Heartless what I've become,
I can't feel nothing,
My EMOTIONS have been faded.

My tongue be rubbing all over your ****,
Then the rest of that ***** I kiss,
That morning bliss,
I wanna lick on her until she ****,
Where you going don't you run,
Your juices is what I want,
I wanna feel you and taste you,
Breakfast,lunch,dinner and dessert.
You're the only thing I have a appetite for,
You got the recipe for whatever I need,
No need to beg nor plead,
But you're the only thing I wanna eat,
My favorite thing to eat and please is you.

I took one look at you and I knew,
You will always be my first love,
The love we once share was beautiful,
Felt like we were the only two in the room,
It was our world for a long time,
It was shattered for many reasons,
Things could've turned out differently,
But we didn't make the best decisions,
Many things didn't take place,
It only made us better people in the end.

Don't beat yourself up,
It's not your fault we both had a part to play,
Not everyone's love is forever,
Our season just came to an end,
The silver lining is we are better apart than together,
Better to be friends than to be enemies,
Why not have a piece of someone,
Rather not have them at all.

Stop holding on to what killed us,
Just let it all go and give to god,
What's gone is just gone,
Can't live in the past but can make a better future,
The past is mirror for our future.