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She's starting to feel different--
She wasn't herself anymore.

Bounded by the chains of his rules,
She wasn't free.

Like a butterfly with torn wings,
She felt useless now.

Like a bird inside a cage,
She wants to break free.

But breaking loose means leaving him,
She decided to be engulfed with this non sense boundaries.
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Home.
Family.
Loved ones.

--I thought being surrounded by them will calm me.

Chaos.
Self-doubt.
Mess.

--Is all that they have given me throughout the years.
My mom and my dad uses words that triggers something inside me that's too hard to control. It's like I badly want to give up on myself.
If you give yourself completely,
If you surrender everything,
Remember a lot of things can change.

At first, it will feel great-- knowing that your loved one is taking control of you.
But as time passes,
This dark void will start to consume you.
It will swallow you whole,
Not giving you a chance to fight.

So before you give yourself,
Make sure you're willing to be empty.
I feel nothing anymore. I'm always confused.
She's becoming used to being by herself.
Slowly accepting the fact that she's happy alone.

She's losing everything else.
But in the end, she gained her peace.
I found myself by being distant to those I love the most.
She clears her schedule all for you.
But I can see, you just squeeze her in yours.

She stops doing the things she was supposed to do just to focus on you.
On the other hand, you don't.

Maybe the reason why you gave her all those watches was that you can't give her time.
You can only give her watches, but not your time.
Clearly this is what I feel with my current relationship.
She grew tired--
Not of other people,
But herself.
She grew tired of herself.

She tried and tried,
Not knowing how put her life together,
She gave up on herself
And slowly blood dripped down her wrists.
Lately I feel like I want to give up.
As she slowly drifts away,
He tried to get her back,
Back to where they started.

She lost herself,
In the midst of the love,
The love he had given her.

She turned into a monster--
Cold and harsh,
But he tried his best to tame her.

Unable to fix her,
She was completely gone,
He lost her.
I somehow felt that I am losing myself and I'm trying to put myself back together.
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