I have something
I need to get off my chest
and this is the way
I know I can bring it out best

Two thousand and eleven
was supposed to be my year
that's when you left me for him
and you thought everything we had
was just gonna be another fling
Girl, I don't play people
It's not my thing
I almost made the mistake
of letting you go
I could have left you in the dust
and moved on through this life
When the message I sent you
said I needed time to sought myself out
You replied with, Why? and laughed
I thought about every single word
put so much thought and effort
into every line, I said and sent you
They were the longest messages
I'd ever sent anyone
I'm not sure you gave a ****
Not sure you even care

I don't know
What I'm doing back
in the studio
Trying to make this song for you
So you see, feel what's going on
deep inside of me, what's been yearning
to be set free
and you didn't think I could communicate
like this, I'm full of surprises
What else can I say, so take the chance
allow me to explain
everything that's going on
deep inside of me

Uh, he acts like he owns your heart
But he doesn't know much about the art of love
And I'm not gonna let him
Tear what we have left apart
I'd fight for you, Die for you
I'd fight for everything we have left
so if you want this, you'd better start
showing me a little more interest
If you want me to stay
better say something
this is getting ridiculous
Can't read your mind, every single time
I'm tired of chasing, playing silly games
Girl, am I some sought of back up plan?
I need a little more respect
If you want me to invest
All this love I have for you
I'm taking a little more control
So if you don't want me anymore
Say something, so I can let go.

I don't know
What I'm doing back
in the studio
Trying to make this song for you
So you see, feel what's going on
deep inside of me, what's been yearning
to be set free
and you didn't think I could communicate
like this, I'm full of surprises
What else can I say, so take the chance
allow me to explain
everything that's going on
deep inside of me

I'm not some sought of hypocrite
Believing in every feeling that you're giving
So you better slow it down
Explain to me what you want to do now
Can't read your mind honey
Sometimes I need a little direction
I don't have the power of perception
stop playing me like a fool
Can't fight for someone
When they don't want to be fought for
What's the point of giving my all
To somebody that doesn't want me around no more
So show me a sign, that you want me around
I ain't playing second so I can be your rebound
someone you can bounce back off
so that you still feel wanted
because baby, I'm not somebody
you can just take for granted
I'll go and give another girl a chance
Because my hearts just not something
I'm willing to break again
Especially when you couldn't even give me a chance
To prove I had what it takes to be your man.

I don't know
What I'm doing back
in the studio
Trying to make this song for you
So you see, feel what's going on
deep inside of me, what's been yearning
to be set free
and you didn't think I could communicate
like this, I'm full of surprises
What else can I say, so take the chance
allow me to explain
everything that's going on
deep inside of me

©2018 Written By Benji James

You were so full of good intentions
but nothing ever goes your way
love how you lie to me
every time you're staring me in the face
do you think that I'm stupid, girl?
You've never dealt with a man like this

You can pretend nothing ever happened (girl)
I'll never believe another word you say
you know you really went and hurt me
Not don't go say, "But babe"
It's not something I need to hear today
Just walk, walk away
before this anger turns into rage

Plant my fist through the wall
As you walk out that door
Fall to my knees
as the blood from my hand
Drips onto the floor
I close my eyes
Try to forget that you were in my bed
with another man.
The scars are running deeper
with every blow
Light up a smoke
to take a drag
grab a drink from the fridge
Just stop, just stop
I don't want to think

You can pretend nothing ever happened (girl)
I'll never believe another word you say
you know you really went and hurt me
Not don't go say, "But babe"
It's not something I need to hear today
Just walk, walk away
before this anger turns into rage

Razor blade cuts to release the strain
can't bandage a heart that's been broken
you chipped away
all the pieces
that was left in me
I held on hope
you'd never do this to me
What were you thinking?
I treated you beautifully
Every time I looked at my reflection
I saw you standing next to me
I tore up all the pictures
Tried to erase the memories
Unfortunately, You'll always be a part of me.

You can pretend nothing ever happened (girl)
I'll never believe another word you say
you know you really went and hurt me
Not don't go say, "But babe"
It's not something I need to hear today
Just walk, walk away
before this anger turns into rage

You were so full of good intentions
but nothing ever goes your way
love how you lie to me
every time you're staring me in the face
do you think that I'm stupid, girl?
You've never dealt with a man like this

You can pretend nothing ever happened (girl)
I'll never believe another word you say
you know you really went and hurt me
Not don't go say, "But babe"
It's not something I need to hear today
Just walk, walk away
before this anger turns into rage

©2018 Written By Benji James

I'm here in Brisbane city
There are people passing by
I'm staring at the ceiling
I'm getting high on the drugs
Need another cigarette
to calm my nerves
The girls are putting on a show
here in Brisbane city
silhouettes of innocence
portrayed in plays on Broadway
there is so much left for me to say

These dead-end streets
are leading nowhere
Familiar faces in far-off places
My imagination
keeps on creating situations
that's no good for me
I'm supposed to be carefree
But lately, I haven't felt the same
as I used to be.

I want to create a memory
here is Brisbane city
I dialled your number
into my phone
I know you've been hanging on my call
you're a girl with attitude
There are so many things
I want to do with you
here in Brisbane city
Nothing comes easy
I'm learning to survive
with every minute I wait
and every breath I take
I know there's a better way

These dead-end streets
are leading nowhere
Familiar faces in far-off places
My imagination
keeps on creating situations
that's no good for me
I'm supposed to be carefree
But lately, I haven't felt the same
as I used to be.

I want to bear the mark of you
You can see the part of me
hidden under my tattoos
it ain't a pretty sight
when I breakdown (alright)
I didn't want you to see me cry
here in Brisbane city
There are so many things in this world
You've learned a million signs
about reading between the lines
and every time I looked into her eyes
I didn't think to see the signs
that you needed me in your life (alright)

These dead-end streets
are leading nowhere
Familiar faces in far-off places
My imagination
keeps on creating situations
that's no good for me
I'm supposed to be carefree
But lately, I haven't felt the same
as I used to be.

Now I'm sitting in an empty house
in Brisbane city
And I know where I went wrong
But I can't stand this feeling
of being alone (alone)
I can't stand this feeling
of being alone
And I know where I went wrong
But I'm sick of being alone
And I won't move on
You shouldn't leave me on my own
here in Brisbane city
Cakk you up to come around
so I'm not alone in this empty house
in Brisbane city

These dead-end streets
are leading nowhere
Familiar faces in far-off places
My imagination
keeps on creating situations
that's no good for me
I'm supposed to be carefree
But lately, I haven't felt the same
as I used to be.

The spotlight comes on
As I start singing into this microphone
The crowd starts to go wild
I'm drunk
Here in Brisbane city
and girl your wrong for all the right reasons
nobody has to be alone tonight
Because I need you all in my life
here in Brisbane city
Everyone starts singing along with me
here in Brisbane city
silhouettes of innocence
portrayed in plays on Broadway
there is nothing left for me to say
In Brisbane city
Here in Brisbane city

©2018 Written By Benji James

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Chilly wind kept blowing
steel poles  of the swing
felt colder to  the  touch.
earlier,
chained seats  moved  high up
voices shrieking crescendo-ed
seats went higher,
wind became harsher
motes of dust hit the eyes,
and were forced to close
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speed lessened, then came to a halt,
the shrieking....the hands scooping sand
the giggles, the laughter, the cheerful air
all vanished...except the path of shoe prints
rushing away....and marks of tiny fingers
struggling to grasp anything to hold on to,
desperately...even the sandy ground,
but in vain.
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loud whispers of the wind rock the empty swing
pained, terrified souls.....are hardest to comfort
a cold fear breathes.....invisible eyes, stay alert
trust fled into the air.......phones are yet to ring
minds drown in dreaded scenes
they freeze better sense
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the chilly wind, blows on.
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Sally

Copyright December 27, 2017
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The lines from my palms were ripped off to make a graph. A plan of my future deeds then am pushed on a raft. The flow of water took me down stream and left afloat. No medics, no boats....no coast to meet. The daring sun shot direct rays in my eyes to blind. The winds did no good and nature became so unkind. Laying half dead with muddy skin, I was caught in a whirlspin. Inside I screamed cause I was alive, outside was ragged and dead then alive. My palms no longer bleed as its been washed off. My face no longer cried as the emotions drained off. Am left in this unknown place, I hear no one...I see no one. I wished to be dead at the end of this day. I have fought but now there is no other way. Am pulled out of water by a great force. A gain of instant energy in my body, I rouse. A new life, a new beginning...all is well, that was my past dwelling.....


©sim

I want you to:

Protect me always
Even if you are away
Always call me
Cause you are mine to be
Everything else doesn't matter, you see

I come with peace:
                                 Personality
                                 Education
                                 Attention
                                 Care
                                 Everything
I just want you for me...



©sim