Walking through the gate was frightening
Being surrounded by older, taller, more experienced people
Afraid of the never ending halls
Afraid of getting lost on my journey from class to class
Terrified of the work and the new people I would soon greet

Middle of the year was like being caught in the eye of a thunderstorm
The chaos, the friendship, the drama, the work
Oh the work!
At times I thought I would crack
Just shatter to the floor, unable to continue
I lost hope that I would make it

Often I felt doubt
On who I was, how I looked, how I acted
I even lost courage in myself because I didn’t know what I wanted
Even if I did, I wouldn’t know where to start to achieve it
I gave up trying, thinking how could I even compete
When these older, taller, more experienced people already know

By the end of the year as I walk out the gates to leave
I soon realized I didn’t have to worry and lose hope,
Because even though these people are older and taller,
Doesn’t mean they know what they want or how to get it either

Escaping the light, the two of us, together
Running from our dreadful reality
Searching for our home in the dark
Where our demons can play,
A place where we can be ourselves
Stealing moonlight kisses

I craved you
I craved your lips
The way I fit against your hips
I craved your scent
And hated when you were absent
Until one day you walked away
And I was forced to face nothing but today

-EC

A sense of pleasure rippled through me as I felt him hug my skin
kissing me softly, caramelizing my pale outer exterior
Even though you are too bright to see  
I could feel you constantly watching me

-EC

The day the words no longer made sense
The day when the world lost its color
The day you lost hope
Was the day you lost your breath and the sky lost a star

I tried to wash off your lies with the soap of truth
Scrubbing my skin to a raw fleshy pink

I tried to sew your figured wounds with the velvet ribbon of betrayal
Stitching my scars to be unforgettable regrets

I tried to heal from your deceit
Bracing myself for a long road ahead

-EC

When we see our reflections, we see what others expect
We do our best to try and fit into society,
body shape, clothes, makeup, hair...
But in that process we lose ourselves
Forgetting our true beauty lies within
We are told we won't make it in life if we don't fit the mold,
That its not okay to not be okay, but it is
It's hard to be who we are in a plastic judgemental society
But without us the world's diversity would be nonexistent

On the edge of slumber
My frame started to crack
Half heartedly, I made it to my quarters
And I gave into my limb's screaming demands

What so strongly desired
Had already belonged and was sired
It hurt like hell to see she had no chance
But his happiness is worth more than her selfish romance

-EC

When your hands would roam
I got this tingle of want
A want that couldnt be exposed
For you were my guilty pleasure
My secret

Who am I?
Who are you?
Who are we?
I don't recognize us from who we used to be

My hair is longer
Your eyes are older
We are stronger

Who am I?
Who are you ?
Who are we?

Offers strength, hope
Beauty
Soft growing compassion
Intense, spontaneous, strangely
Unexpected
Leaving you daring,longing for more
Building a powerful bond of
Trust, tears, pure sadness, blind exotic
Determination
Love

Do not give me a fresh rose
give me one that has crusted leaves and a brown stem
because my heart is telling me
that I can not handle to watch another life fade

There is something pure about the way the soft white city lights flicker in the dark unbearable night

We make these scars to hide how we feel because we are to afraid to say something real.

To many mistakes have led to this;
A point of desperation and lack of self worth.

As I grow up I will face many challenges in my road
I will forget who I am, have my first heartbreak, and lose some friends
That road seems rough and I know I will have a hard time crossing it
But I'm thankful I have a beautiful, strong, courageous and independent Mother
To help me get through my battles
To help me get through life not only as my mother,
But as my best friend