There is always the world that does not forgive
absolute unforgivess
The unbroken trauma in an event
Fearless
Never wavering into the assumptions of indulgence
Never paused long enough
to be understood properly
yet it drives the will to understand
The intervals between events of indulgence
in the frivolity of language
making bare the absurdities
Like fire that needs intelligent attention
to keep us warm
Neglect it and it consumes us all
This world demands a history of its own
Untainted by the acceptance or disputes of compromise
Inalienable direction
Weaving us together with unforgiving charm

parades of bombs lighting the silver night
causing ripples in the magnificence of the ocean
depleting the sensitivities of creatures
famine in the midst of bountiful weaponry
abundance of fire
now self incandescent
peace of minds at war
mourning choice

while alive
those that lose lives
without ever having
been allowed
to have one
never mind
ownership
of many

A special play
with 2 casts
one is representing “liberty”
the other representing “freedom”
the director looks on in anticipation
the audience is freshly free slaves
not freed
because no one freed them
free as in they had to **** every one
with possible intent on enslaving them


Liberty: stop taxing us so much
so we can take over the world
with slave labor
Freedom: stop building an institution
out of transporting us
into your time machine of whiteness
**** and slavery
which is more inspiring
to human children?
no wonder greed breeds
more of itself
educating this
whiteness is taxing
beyond repair
too much pressure on humans
every where
even in itself
whiteness colonialism
dissatisfaction with life
dressed up as “Indians”
throwing tea over board
while freedom is being bled
to death
liberty
weeping
wailing
tantrum
in legal terms
institution
imperial

if the emanations of the motive were noticed
one would be completely still
defined
uniform
a choice in the flesh
intricate doubt

living
reincarnating
on the literary edge
voting with my language
vocation
refuse to reincarnate into it again
This is the chance
one time to spend death
no more lifetimes later
English the etymological disaster
government education
called the anatomy of whiteness
warns us all
"you will never get out!
You will never find where you came from!”

being proud to be black is more important than
slavery
money
insurance
whiteness
caution tape around a social construction zone
that is also an advertisement
also is a warning
advertisement
whiteness
warning
blackness
advertisement
warning
in another language
pay attention to this
if you do not then this will happen
whiteness or else!
Liberty
constitution
justice
whiteness or else!
screaming it
acting like its this pretty evolved thing to be
technologically advanced
to the ultimate in dissociative technology
Organic Intelligence knows within power struggle of language
advertisements and warnings are the same

ever since black women have been allowed to play tennis
with white associates
against white acquaintances
humans that think they are white
for more than 3 seconds
at a time
have been allowing themselves
to be black more
and equality is a ****** ace
black tennis was right on

all we are is seasoned revolutionaries
like a sun
even though the intentions
were to beat us down
cook us down
own us down
slowly and steadily
deplete our constitution
our bodies
minds and families
into something else
other
than what we were
where we were from
origins
bleached white
like slaves cotton laundry
quarters spilled onto fertile land
becoming many mansions

I forget everything
when she is tightly wrapped around me
I around her
the simplification of social excess
that usually protrudes
long into the night
just before blazing orange dawn
I realize
like the last possible realization
that life is desperation
happiness is surrender

Exponential Nothing
cancer
whiteness is a free radical
no allegiance to organic intelligence
exerted by a force
a pressure
that made some of us humans
slaves
no loyalty to being a human
once and for all
our bodies do not know
what to do with it
like fake sugar
used to be real
used to be liquor
used to be steel
nuclear whiteness
instability
exponential nothing
it did not take nature
into its equation
colonizing our cells
deep
affecting our gene function
what is the cure?

whiteness is an intellectual
psychological virus
that justifies slavery with every breath stolen
and words within it
ethnicity the antidote
when police say caucasian
it is a lie that white people
came from the Caucasus Mountains
scared into associating with whiteness
rather than genealogy coming from Africa
country built by Africans
music that is love
culture and society we love
is inherently blackness

Genocide and dissociation
how do I convince myself
and others
that we need to empathize
with genocide
right away
right now
I can still see the gashes
open ****** open bodies
still beautiful butts
not rotted yet
naked ****** open bodies
spilling out
what you keep inside
screaming in the background
of what you keep inside
cell phone genocidal drone
bright shiny fresh
****** scars of black bodies
so you can keep your face
into a screen
antisocialize
be noticed
cobalt, platinum, plutonium
gold, diamond, oil
all the names of genocide
to make whiteness think its real
so you can keep it inside
dissociate and hold hands
kiss and ****
dissociate to smile for the kids
while other children ******
opened up
naked
so you can keep dissociating
screen and eyes anti socialize
but its all based on happiness
from lies
the screen is made from
internal imperial dissociation
of tortured children
war bloodied and naked for you
no curiosity or questioned
confidence
in consumption
the leisure love life of genocide committee
competing
enforcing dissociation
scared to end up like it
crumpled souls naked
contorted on the streets
eat sleep and breathe genocide
until too tired to brutalize

Next time you say you are white

become the fascist
Forcing ethnicity into a clean slate
Don’t hold back
Even one bit
No common cure
For this mental illness
So **** it
Miseducate youth
Imprison the sick
With diminished resources
Redistribute wealth
Stay out of the sun
Unless vacationing wildly
Don’t let your parents
Or your ancestors
Mix their ethnicities
Make a white brick wall
In your mind
When we try to get in
Drag you out into
The black reality
Black Death
Not the intellectual
Not objectified kind
Not the white body
constitutional agreement
Empty beauty for the indulgence of lust
Insisted on emptied ethnicity
deported hero forgotten
A new race to find those words
The combinations that tip apathy over
Spill it over undercover white fascists
Drowning in empathy
Desperate to change immediately

the aperture of doubt

my message is not as easily dismissed
Minimized and catagorized
Like the stereo type of black profanity
Black music rap hip hop
I refuse to be isolated and sent off to the prison
Of white elitism trickled down into poor white persons
Pure White Island boasting made up origins
Aristocratic dream
Having only an absolute ending
My words come from light skin
The honors class war on insides of white institution
My words come from within the confines
The razor wire fences of whiteness
beyond premeditated
Pre-infiltrated always looking for the harshest
Most efficient
Most direct ways to declare
Unflinchingly whipped and slaughtered and *****
in any order
domesticated international doom
I find myself constantly surprised
By the reserve and compassion of criticizing whiteness
Even in weapon yielding
Terrorism
Mild and peaceful by comparison
Black think tanks beyond slave based Ivy League colleges
Centralized Africa dissolving the black made white efficient
To sustain slavery
Or the after effects genocide on bravery
those depths of imperialism
where outsourcing of labor massacres
Starves and destroys humanity
All of the sudden
With enough funding to make whiteness
By design
language history engineering sociology philosophy business
To make American whiteness the underdog
Not enslaved like blackness has been
Not the priority without its historical purity
Not the reason for existence
Or the beneficiary of human harvest
Malevolent adventure story that captured
The imagination and focus of leisure
Taking advantage of poor light skinned ethnicities
white American Feminist
in a sweatshop with women making her clothing

Is natural selection
none other
than our consciousness
choices
love regulation of beauty
is natural selection
none other than a business
capitalism
discrimination
culture
is natural selection
the dissociative language
of genocide
the poetry of the Eugenics Society*
is natural selection
the scientific demand for class war
race war
organic selection is none other
than the elephant in the room
trying to ******* tell me
that whiteness is more “natural”
than ethnicity
than evolution
than being human
than being alive

among the earth
consumed with mindless malice
chanting sanskrit mantras
spiraling from Tibet
holding what peace of mind
can see through chaos
the sound suspends physical existence
to the universe
like the air under the wings of an eagle
clasping a serpent in its talons

I am not trying to save anyone
or even change anything
I expose my writing
as a message to what is organic
still not fooled by whiteness
not a sucker
I need the world to know that
I was not one of those people
confused and trapped
by the desperation
of the failure of whiteness
to force everyone to dissociate
from being human
from evolution
from indigenous
from nativity
**** that
Im not the one you think
I am
My daughter will know
in the future that her father
safely
and pretty much alone
escaped and navigated
out of the hallucination of whiteness

It’s important to make up words
Like life or death
Colonial spelling
Grammar sounds
Punctuation
Slave punk rock
Autocorrect
Didn’t want me to write this
Autocorrect
Is genocide
Artificial intelligence
Is genocide

I have light skin in the winter
But I’m blacker than the worst stereotypes still
I stare blankly for too long at dark skinned people
Hoping they will question me
I stare at light skinned people
Who might call themselves white
Hoping they feel uncomfortable
About this black soul
Staring at them
There’s the answer we were missing
We weren’t just kissing
It was more than that
So we took over the world
Then gave it black

philosophy is the bullets of beauty

I’m an atheist but with people
I don’t believe in anyone that creates gods
or that responsibility
that is cleverly left for dead

how abstract are the problems of whiteness?
socialist meeting
whiteness is socialism gone wrong
in itself
look it up
its secret agreements that are no secret anymore
the contracts of whiteness
modified
in America
whiteness is a conspiracy on humanity
whiteness is a conspiracy theory
to be white is to conspire
to deny that it itself is capitalism
socially constructing a world that cannot
reflect the fact that it is conspiring
against others
in every associated breath
conspiring and justifying by thinking others
are conspiring against it
it was the first agitator
the first conspiracy in America was whiteness
slavery would not be possible
if whiteness did not conspire
to ****
to teach killing
to educate conspiracy
to teach
how to call **** something else
enforce
a system to justify its theory
a system to justify it is a theory
but thats all it ever was
a bad theory
and while whiteness has been conspiring
the others have been human beings
trying to teach whiteness the way out
that is what understanding black history is
the black experience
is the way for whiteness to regain its humanity
to stop this dangerous conspiracy theory
that studies every other field of study
and society keeps begging
exposing where focus needs to be
stop conspiring whiteness
please
and stop calling it capitalism

I know you think this poem is for you
whiteness
but it is not
it is dedicated to the human
after being killed for being not white
that is who my poetry is for
to raise the dead
that urgency
the sheer brutality
of something related to whiteness
that has been very hard to change
while we bleed to death
no matter how good we are
reincarnate

Yeah yeah
passing has been alright
the popular white girls
my outside appearance in courtrooms
hearing the honest racism
from people who think I am white
but its boring
it gets old quick
ancient and obsolete
I want to be called ******
by friends and enemies
I want to be beyond ******
beyond African
beyond human
I want to be lynched
reincarnated
over and over
until I am a living scab
hideous and hip
all at once
I want that fury to be noticed
I want to be the one with the credit
for scaring white people
out of ever wanting to own us again
I want to be the one
to silence
your heated and “innocent”
racist conversation
when I walk in the room
violently virtue
forced realization
that africans gave you
everything good you know of
including yourself
your beginning

Perspective
Judgement
From domesticated genocide
Judicial branches
Standing dead wood
Burning keep warm
Social justice intoxicated
Fleeting eye contact
Sugar ******
Eye contact in liquor stores
Touch starved
While smothered by bodies
Fleeting what is common
Human
Preaching domesticated genocide
Through word of mouth
Autographed accounting
Bibliography bully
Of desperate
Domesticated genocide
Plagiarized status quo
Extensions of corruption
Woven web
Insecticide companies
Invest in domesticated genocide
Deep ecology grinding its gears
Intensifying it’s failure
The side business
Oil and gasoline
Highly flammable
Like minds longing
For the names of betrayal
Where it lives all over imperialism
Social mediums psychic

Theology is dedicated atheism
Because in a multicultural world or event
existentialism is organic
to leave the focus of monotheism
atheism intervenes to allow polytheism
disloyal indulgence
and also
It is doubt that drives us to research and study
to remember experience on purpose
we do not always exist
all gods are so important
that if you just got one
you are terribly flawed
unevolved and tricked
if you had to pray to white jesus
to breathe the same air as being human
required atheism and then
the desperate search for the source of doubt
there is no need for doubt
we do know safely and casually
and there are so many gods
and who are we to create them and not know them all?
like the woman knows birth

My white privilege is being proud to be black
I am white so I can be over the top and outspoken about being black
I can say whatever I want about whiteness
and
or blackness
It is self criticism
nothing to do with anyone else's assumptions
black lives matter more than white lives
is the mantra I use to self medicate
pick yourself up by the bootsraps
making black children excited
instead of scared
from the trauma of a racially imbalanced
world of whiteness
in a world that legally denies its traumatic process upon its victims
a society structured on the denial
that whiteness is a mental illness

Sometimes I auction myself to myself
Sometimes I enslave myself
Then late at night
Instead of sleeping
I desperately break out of captivity
I teach myself how to read in write in secrecy
With a vengeance
Sometime I am the overseer
Brutal
I lash myself until my back is open and ******
I catch myself stepping out of place
We give each other space
Black and white and me
I have become very strong
This ebb and flow
This internal struggle
Ever since white people needed to **** black women
In this struggle that is relentless and eternal
Sometimes I settle for being
Simply a human
That is when I grow the most

I cannot believe Im bleeding again!
all over my white shirt
all over social media
bleeding all over youtube
blood all over academia
how much blood do I have to spill?
why aren’t they standing up for me
bleeding all over whiteness
bleeding all over my heart

the psychosis of absolute freedom
possesses your alarm clock
you press snooze
existentialism is hiding behind the next corner
in the darkness
waiting to scare the **** out of you

Cards for humanity
Go stare at your screen
While people starve
Telling children of the right age
Santa wasn’t actually white
he was black and native
Grow excess food for each other
“Give all land back to natives
Stop pretending you are the ****
Cause you have light skin
And can call yourself white”
Tweets mixed race trump
Ignorant means cowardly
Watch more people **** each other
Over resources for indulgence
Empathize
Bark ferociously at a pet on a leash
Eat dog food on YouTube
Super imagine if starving people got the money in food
That are making there goods
Spoof super size me
For a couple weeks maybe
You should never not know how to produce your food
You should know fire
Intimately
Society changes like fire
Not like politics
Or statistics
Composed by intellectual agreements
Inclusive to a few
Organic decomposition
Unravels fierce
Friction fire
Moments like these are special
The force necessary to maintain
Freedom
Must be spontaneous
Overbearing
Loving
Public and proud

never catch me alive
in so many ways
I have tried to lose my old selves
to leave them behind
shedding skin
I’ve tried to get it ****** up
leave it behind
on the dance floor
I’ve tried secretly
pawing off
my old selves
to innocent bystanders
relationships
with the lost night
it comes back in my sleep
in my dreams
it says I am still here
nice try
you’ll never catch me alive
regenerative self destruction
shows up again
old self
like everything is cool
of course I laugh and snuggle it
like familiar fire
I saw you conspiring
with my old selves
against me new
so I got rid of you too
never catch me alive

I’m mixed race
a human
and still
I am so unanimously ******* segregated
for Christmas
tell the children
that there is no way Christ
was ******* white
its not innocent or cute
while life is lost for this egregiousness
Christ was the same confused shade
that Obama resides within
and apologize
needing them to believe this
so that humans could be tortured and *****
In America and Africa
proslavery language
to keep the distractions cheap
to turn up the frequency of apathy
and wrap it up with a bow and tinsel
shine away
a children’s book
detailing the reasons
for teaching that whiteness
in caves
in the blistering cold
starving and diseased desperation
invented things like
higher intelligence
that really
the warmth of Africa incubated and spread
generously letting greedy tourists study
Africa taught the precursor to whiteness
Europeans
how to get to America
and what to expect
there is no happy ending
to the imagination of whiteness
which is a self destructive
self fulfilling prophecy
of the most cowardice event
experienced by humanity
human trafficking
the genocide of colonialism
they refer to as traditions

my poems are the ones
you find charred
in an empty still smoking world
silent except fires
dark clouds
everyone had grey skin
post frustration
post success
a clue in the rubble
when everything taken for granted
is gone

the most valuable
thing we have
is attention
towards tension
from points
we vibrate

never
give
it all
up
at once

never
take
it
all
at
once

the language
used
by
whiteness
is fear
that is its sustenance

humans
destroy
fear to
evolve

We are supposed to be using our power
to show that we communicated
diamond crystal clear
communicated too much already
communicated to death
until no more breath
until our families ran dry
of blood and water
of patience
this is not survival
it is cowardice
to separate ourselves
from reality
to further the gruesome imagination
of whiteness

confused
justify confusion
stumbling through ocean
flopping on to shores
slipping
and slithering on the land
not knowing how to live on the land
torturing to survive
invasive dissociation
***** for healthy young native girls
justify ****
no longer confused
focused genocide
whiteness laughs in its cell
alone in repentance
society is safe
from whiteness for lifetimes

Is love professional
in a professional way
I love these children
helping them
understanding
how to heal their trauma
noticing the times they can learn
from the times to just listen
and how important this distinction is
I used to miss my family
then I missed my friends
now
like hot coals glow
on my heart
society breathes on
After I awake
struggle to be
before them
I only miss my daughter
that is where
the emptiness
where my heart
once was beating
but most of all
I miss myself
before I was forced
to miss my daughter
like this
consoling children
with their pains and traumas
due to the negligience
of a Child Trafficking Agency
while CTA/DCF forces me
to trust them
with my heart
that which is a heart
that is the most powerful heart
they have ever tempted to remove

the reason it is so hard for some to take conspiracy seriously
is because all they ever do
is conspire
they wouldn’t even know
where to begin
to relate to the oppressed
even though the conspirators
do not even care about race
and made it up on purpose
to replace origins and
create a new ending
in making slavery the beginning
of something
evolution is missed
an ending not confined by evolution
you got tricked
by the conspiracy of whiteness
that has been institutionalized

beauty doesn’t need us
love does not feed us
must we make the choice now
how far are we really
seems as quiet as a bomb
the thing is your caution
proves you wrong to the risk
they don’t give a ****
about your families
enemies
enemies
enemies
all I see is words from captivity
only if we
could know what did
this to you and me
things dissipate for reasons
fade into corrosive obscurity
the beauty of creativity
is that it is inherently misunderstood

American
Whiteness
the greatest mental illness of all time
even before they were diagnosed
the world has become safer
because the world finally
has funded a wall around America
a padded room institution
where the dissociative disorder
can destroy itself
and not everyone else in the process
the casual crisis
is an emergency
whiteness the coup d’état
is wreaking havoc
on the human soul
domesticated whiteness
riskiest to do business with
spilling blood all around the world
quarantine the biohazard
whiteness on its journey of impunity
when my family was most vulnerable
to the morbid lust
of the mental illness of whiteness
we gently genocidally refer to as social construction
which is really the deconstruction
of the black human
and the origins of humanity
American
American built by the pieces of my family
glued and mortared by the blood and sweat
spilled from them
the most dangerous deconstruction site
in the world
biological warfare
spewing
leaking
uncontrollably
contaminating humanity
polluting its evolution
at war with symbiosis
for the purity of fascism sake
a coup d’état called American whiteness
which is also been a long
untreated dissociative disorder

language is directed
at the brutal heartless racist
whiteness
do not care about measly sidelines of whiteness
not concerned about the stagnant
fabricated branches of whiteness
innocent by standers guilty be association
that some are so scared to call what it is
genocidal dissociation
the many angles of oppression
institutional impunity required for imperialism
violent art is directed at the very center of whiteness
its beginning
those that had those first genocidal conversations
agreements and funding
and ferocious toward the apathy
that wraps it so tight and cozy
whiteness
reclaim your ethnicities
and denounce whiteness
amen

You are your best audience
You are your only audience
Stay creative
Creatureless habit
No seriousness
Can touch your laughter

I am America
**** black and white people
We are on our own now
mixed up and left
to seethe
******* both
I knew you wouldn’t
get it in time
we are the only humans left
in America
how many words have we had together?
***?
War?
*** again?
War that is ***?!
Hatred?
Hatred is the white part
of this country
and psyche
vengeance is black as ****** oil
forgiveness
heritage
love
evolution
historical experience
beauty
awareness
humanities language
a new whiteness
We have tried to teach you
the people you **** into being mixed
insistence
denial
love
you should have snuck knives in your chains!
black women!
you should have killed them during ***!
By any means necessary
sorry not reasonable
**** is **** and been white for 400 years
talk about black people ****** white women
******* whiteness
**** is never okay
but the trauma on black men
is unbearable
what you whiteness expect without
the treatment you give
your own whiteness treatment
**** your misdirected violence
for a buck or two
for a ****
slavery
whiteness communication
with blackness
handcuffs
modified insured slave chains
the same company you keep
cause your lust to **** people
and look away from the whiteness
that still is
I don’t give a ****
we are mixed now without a choice
no turning back
dancing uncontrollably
with our privates out
by choice
not force
our passion
is ****
love
baby slaves
birthing slaves
marriage
children
future
economy
language is not your waste
it is not the excess of whiteness
it is a measure of cooperation
we are more like the rest of the world
than any of your oppressors or oppressed
language
social functions
birthing humans that will destroy
whiteness
that is a joke
wasn’t funny
stop laughing
******* clowns
breathing this mixed race
feels good
even in the most ****** sense of existing
We have to love ******* from the **** of slavery
being mixed
back to simply human

The nightmares I’ve had
of my black father
getting hurt
by local white people
from the police
in front of me
to the white people
in front of me
with the confederate flags
who used to threaten us for not being white
and try to beat us up at our birthday parties
try to outnumber us
but always got beat
because of how little of a joke
it actually was

Dear natives
Please come back to your land
I have seen through
The genocidal construction
Of whiteness
Into this world we are born
Together
I am soaked with forgiveness
Dripping gratitude tears of joy
In all struggle to become human
I have found you
Howling in the night
Surrounding me
Guiding ancestors
Visions in my sleep
Awakening to relentless
Reconciliation
The harm of many alone I can undo
Healing you is healing me

******* humanitarian
evolution
this is a letter from corruption
don't tell them about the bodies

The vets that fought for the Boston tea party
native impostors of tea tossing
or the vets that were slaves and fought for freedom
the vets that go to other countries to **** non white people
all of the care vets have or not
and funding and compassion
should go to freed slaves
the vets that killed slave masters
and saved their children from **** and torture
the independence that declaring freedom with broken chains
dead slave masters
beautiful songs and music
the blues
jazz
art and technology
affords
or the independence declared from being free of being taxed
The independence declared when a slave felt  
knowing that in Britain the emancipation has already been declared
seeing the desperation in the slave profiteers
seeing the desperation of whiteness
and the independence declared when experiencing the freedom
of Escaping liberty
proving that a human being is not a resource to exploit
Independence day

The damage is deep from racism
How much depth can I show you?
Education needs to be like a nuclear bomb
set to detonate out of spite without telling anyone
Then telling everyone
you still really love them
while kissing their forehead and clammy cheeks