everything you see
infinitely thin layer
reflecting
you give it depth
and violently strip it away
importance
from everything else
but your focus

whiteness is a mental illness
it dissociates from being human
to construct the language of slavery
I can help with treatment

Okay America
die yourselves black
get back on track
stop being
whack
on the count of three
one
Two
THREE
NOW!

I love my disjointed blackness
Torn from roots
Manipulated stereotyped
Proud like Africans in Africa
Interbred pillage *****
Beauty on a white template
Scared and overwhelmed
Charging through founders of genocide
The struggle is feeling
Dope cool radical
Normalized heroism

*******!
I yelled to the past
how could you do this to us?
then I read your history
dismantled your genocidal machine
refocused on my breathing
scolding past
rexamining the present
recreating the past
provoking the future

Ray

dead silence
“its too ****** quiet in here!
No wonder people hang themselves in here. If there were hooks there would be people on each one of them!”
His 60 year old smooth Puerto Rican english
better than the young white prison guard
“I need my meds! Its been 3 days!”
His afro cuban beats on the cell doors
helped me sleep it through
handcuffed together in a fast swerving moving van
a dangerous steel space
with no where to hold
a hard smooth steel bench
slippery and hard
sciatic nerve damage
unmedicated
looking out the diagonal steel lined window
“in the near future. This will be an amusement ride. To show how inhumane it used to be before whiteness was human.”
I slept
he didn’t
his eyes were losing their focus
amazing man being killed by a business
those mental ills of whiteness  
guards had no idea
how special these humans were
that they made them not autonomous
the captivity and its brutality
captivity and bad communication
the failure of whiteness
these prisoners are found not guilty
it should be slanted towards those that our innocent
not slanted toward white mass murderes
or the mental illness of whitenes

it is all the same
the differences contrasted
by the space that separates
things in order to give them shape
its always been there
and always will be
how can distance be great?

when the reparations get sent out
direct deposit
what have you
I want double
for having to hear the worst of whiteness
trying to get me to relate with racism
double for having to try and mix
with whiteness
impossible
no one will ever know how hard I tried

Because the snow is soft
The heart is thinking
The flakes are shimmering
The sound of worry muffled
Doubt is quiet
The heart is silently beating
Stylish stalagmites
Decomposition sleeps
To create space
For momentum
To thrive

the dunes
exfoliating our bare naked skin
the ocean is there
I can feel it
making me
and the sun is caressing our new skin
the clouds are moving too fast
for me to keep track of the shapes
this is how life begins
on the shores of love and gratitude
this is the end of worries
that stop dreams before they start
sinking through the top layer of the dune
trusting the depths we carefully travel into one another
this one day has been seven days
and only we know
in each others lips
that time does not exist yet

America needs a domestic violence specialist as president.

domestic violence is the interaction of separate people having gender crisis individually. How one deals with their own gender politics and/or crisis is how they relate to another human and their gender identity. Same with race and class too. Even within oneself it is violent to uphold the status quo of male whiteness.

most often couples diagnose the vulnerabilities of gender identity in each other and either reinforce the insecurities or try and help compensate to build up confidence. But the struggle of the individual may feel alienated because it is not something that may ever be settled or finished any time in the near future. If there is one. Nor does is need to be finished. So this demand of cisgendered relationships is a lot of pressure that causes unnecessary friction. It helps to know one is constructing this rather than desperately functioning in a construction of gender that is preconceived and punishable if one fails.

the trick to efficient communication
is secretly wanting to die
this ensures honesty and clarity

Looking back
whiteness is my footprints
in the eggshells
I walked over
ever so cautiously
ever so vengeful
treading gently
I do not think I can get away
everyone has heard the crunching
and I cannot deny that those
were my footprints
and yes that is why I have been limping
and yes the ****** footprints
were also mine
and thank you for helping me
remove the eggshell shards
from my tender soles

the children
have become my ego
where ever I go
they are with me
deciding my thoughts
earning my choices
giving me my reasons
love is logic
love is burning me alive

The gang of whiteness needs to be disbanded legally
Whiteness should be illegal
a hate crime inherently
those that associate with whitenss
should be forced to return to their ethnicities

police need an emergency shut off button
or remote
or education
and a delete button
or a lot of education
or the most education
exorcism of whiteness
and still an abort option
like most everything else that is inherently dangerous
a warning label or something
those simple diagrams of
a hand in a wood chipper
or diving into a shallow pool
electric shock
a poison symbol
a disclaimer
"will get away with ******"
"only know emergency. will make into emergency even if there is none. most likely became more unsafe involving me...uummm.yup. your under arrest."

I need to be enough
As is
Overwhelmingly enough
I won’t be the society of genocide
I won’t dissociate from humanity
I won’t fall in love
Inside of genocide
I will not smile within genocide
Play in it and laugh with you
I do not enjoy the sounds it makes
I know how to restore us
I know how to destroy
While having fun and being free
I love Beauty but it is in me
Seriously
Letting go
Before reincarnation turns me down
Too

Entitled
I have light skin
I was merely trying
To relate
When in Rome
When in white
I know I’m pretending
Taking advantage
Of suffering
Do you?
Militant accumulation
My father
stayed away from
Forcing
Others to bleed
Peace
Fingers guitar
Instead of trigger
Grammy nominee
My family slaughtered
Education to forget
Where children came from
Missionary positions
****** innocence
Human dignity
Transgender mixed race foreigner

language tip toes on genocide
trying not to wake it up
don’t want to face it
singing desperate lullabies
to keep it asleep
being quiet
breathing gently
praying in silence
empty goddess
doesn’t want to talk about it anymore
fill me up
again and again
with ****
dumped genocide off the ships
deep in the ocean
no ones getting it anymore
artifacts of genocide
discovered by future
ancient astronauts
epigenocidal language
non stop
minimize
*******!

http://www.amazon.com/Escape-Liberty-Elan-Gregory-ebook/dp/B01B8XQYBG?ie=UTF8&keywords;=elan%20gregory&qid;=1459178234&ref;=sr1_1&sr;=8-1

About my new book // Escape from Liberty

Birth is the experience we have, witness, and feel that is closest to where evolution rests. If it could be measured. I think the way birth is experienced and the proximity around it is the most important focus when discussing ontology and evolution.

“Escape from liberty,” refers not just to the getting out of the psychology of liberty but reshaping how that has affected what birth means in society.
A society can only be as good as it functions around birth. Since liberty has shaped what birth means in America from its beginning. It has a lot to do with why the reality of freedom is misunderstood.

Actual freedom and the possibility to experience it has been preserved by those that brought it with them. The African women taken from Africa preserved the evolved function of birth in American Society.
Liberty in terms of birth means that it is the defining authority on society. In evolution birth is the defining authority of society.
By proving that birth is not meant for liberty by escaping slavery to freedom, African American women gave a template to escape liberty and experience freedom.

The absurdity and genocidal acceptance of declaring liberty while birth for some humans has become artificially designed for slavery is unacceptable. Any American should understand what this means in terms of our sustainability or evolution as humans.
This should be understood more and funded more than any “going green” resource conflict crisis generation.

regardless of whether is was me or not
it is inevitable
that a mixed race male
would be considered “passing”
and accumulate all the weapons
and silent confidence
of privileged society
trained with the most valuable
intellectual materials
he would expose the disparity
and its shame
in its naked entirety
like I
everyday
exist in its entirety
thoroughly through
the most cooperative
conceivable act
of eternal mixture

nerves intertwined
with the natural environment
breathing nature in and out
heart beating
with the rhythms of the surroundings
harmony
instinctual evolution
you want more than this?
there is nothing better than nativity
you made life worse
the people colonialism slandered
are better than you
than you will ever become
I told myself
quietly
comforting my tainted worries
like an eternal mother
to sleep

ethnic on the mic
what is your ethnicity?
“white”
is not an ethnicity
it is a social construct
that means “not a slave”
meant to bring indentured servitude
back into the liberty of white supremacy
caucasian is a made up fairy tale
how can I trust whiteness
when it cares only about not having
anything to do with slavery ?
it thinks it can stop the dialogue
the freedom fight
simply by declaring it is white
that is insane and dissociative
because a very thin layer of reflection
covers everything
and you give it the depth
that you think it should have
saying you are white has no depth
has no soul
has no heritage
no lineage
just the desperation of distancing
oneself from the devastation
genocidal process that it has demanded
no one in the world
other than Americans
can smile and say they are white
then expect silence and acceptance
because only in America were people
forced to be on the white team
and brainwashed to think being white
is an ethnicity
like french
Dutch
German
Swedish
Uneducated nonsense
unacceptable

roses are red
violets are blue
computers are great
but I miss you

excess happiness

the earth churns reincarnation
life
like thoughts
like different size particles
molecules
different movement
different temperature
different heat
what is the temperature of existence?
the temperature of time
the coldest conceivable
frozen beyond movement
the essence
the excess
of stillness
excess of organic behavior
artificial compassion
the temperature of knowing plants
and what they do to human existence
is far more advanced
than any modern technology
and its doubt of evolution

whiteness wouldn’t exist with reincarnation
whiteness is only possible
if pressure of death is imminent
no longer being able to be conscious
no longer being able to have intense sensations
no longer able to exploit humanity
no longer able to convince
with a false history
that they are superior
if people knew in America
who think they are white
about the reality of reincarnation
that is an integral foundation to evolution
to society
to progress
now and before
in present culture
and past
that kindness and interactions
affected our next life
whiteness would have never tortured so many
human beings
economically
psychologically
legally
sexually
so that it could indulge in one measly lifetime

God is a wall
some learn to climb it and fall into the otherside
some dig under it to find it goes too deep
some destroy themselves trying to burst through
some figure out how it is built and take it apart
that is why

poems
existential ***
curious no longer
not surprised anymore
blatant
unforgiving
no word wasted
all composition
decomposed
to the most nurturing
afterthought
when it reverberates
echoes into
vagueness
wandering into
the most complex
interactions
interpenetrations
of gender
the most intense
experience was
trying to remember
the intensity

Oh man oh man you should have seen him
I said whiteness is a mental illness
a dissociative disorder
dissociating from being human to construct something
constantly
never finished
never human until it stops
his head started to shake
then spin around like an angry owl
people were scared
the police stopped traffic
a priest came for the exorcism
the man made out the words
“I…no…you can’t just group everyone together like that”
see what I mean
thats dissociative behavior
whiteness is the grouping of humans
it is not an ethnicity
like the humans are actually made of
that it tries to possess
It needs to stop
It has had impunity due to legal dissociation
Whiteness was invented
to create skin color based slavery
for profit
for the exploitation of being human
unless you are trying to create slavery
whiteness is a mental illness
needs treatment immediately and those
that whiteness traumatizes by dissociation
also need impunity and protection from
a genocidal maniac called whiteness
narcissistic
smash its mirror
to treat whiteness as a mental illness
and to treat it
is overly compassionate
considering it is actually criminal
the mans head stopped spinning
he came back and said calmly
“Thank you. You are right."

Every time I write a poem
I think the world is going to end right before I finish it
Is this healthy?!

Keep reading this poem
Stay focused and you will be okay
Safe from possible eye contact
With a possible assumption
Of the meaning of your eyes
A misinterpretation
Plotting momentum
surrounded by loving militant apathy
Possible beginning of interactions
Leading to heartbreak
Conversations lost to the ether
Removed from the immortality
Of the poem

If you want to know the audience
you must have processed the social construction of race
or else you might as well be johnson and johnson
white toned band-aids
nothing but advertisements
warnings
in newspapers
“Bleach your skin to look white with this product”
“straighten your hair with this product”
I just wanted to read the news
is whiteness being sued yet for false advertisement?

A certain spectrum of whiteness
still is delusional
it thinks it is still torturing black people in private
It functions as if it is out in the barren ocean
on a slave ship
choosing captives to ****
degrade and throw to the sharks
and the patterns of society are used to it
like the sharks that changed their feeding patterns
based on this **** and killing
by slave overseers
The white slave overseers enjoyed **** so much
and the money from it
that a whole social structure was designed around it
the Ivy league institutions made this possible
the government made this possible
communities made this possible
you make it impossible
please
and
thank you

the grandfather of slavery
wage labor
is an abusive relationship
domestic demise of humanism
I cannot tolerate or stand my light skin
I want to lay in the blazing sun
until I am burnt beyond recognition
a raging fire that catches anyone near
I cannot stand that white people
think I fit in
just to end up realizing I do not
I want to fight my way out
with language and brute force
until whiteness realizes
clearly
in a broken impotent rage
that it does not fit in
not in the world of the future
not in the world of ethnicities
having passionate ***
as its desperation of indulgence
greed
guilt
and brutality fade back to evolution
sustainability throws it aside
I am the medium
the vessel
the glory
of nature

fiction
intimate
with non fiction
on a honeymoon
on an island
the natives
serve them liquor and fruit
pretending to like them
tolerating the love affair
they better keep making love
settling into marriage
comfortable
in rest
tolerated no more
looks like dead riot police apologizing
looks like their fear tactics failed
looks like independence
feels like forever
feels like the people of the world
have something in common
an enemy
out in the open
with its branches spread thin
receding roots
the plot thickened
dried up and crumbles
fiction and non fiction fornicate
the ultimate revolutionary
is born

Come join us
at the international
Writer’s opposite of a retreat
Where we convene to write
in the places that have the least amount of peace
On the front lines of genocide
At home and abroad
Exposing through writing
The urgency of our work

our message to the complacent retreat
Join us as we forever
For all to see
Unravel imperialism contest
Protect the innocent  from unnecessary suffering
With paper pens cell phones I pads computers
no entry fee needed
Three awards for the best poetry
Non fiction and fiction
first and last prize is life and a future

every constant is a fortress of assumptions
in a world kept safe by change
the organic state
maintained as the only constant
change

When I was finally free
Of the fangs of white supremacy
I would not have chose
To blend in fumbling inside
Artificial intelligence
Confidence in dissociation
Momentous flesh
I would have found the natives
Free from liberty to keep
The abuse of our private parts
In legally privacy
Licking lips of lust of liberty
*** trading liberty
I would have thrived happily
Blissful with natives
Holding humanity down in freedom
Underground Railroad
Pockets of freedom
Slicing through the blood thirst
Liberty
I would have never mated
With the illusion of innocence
Hidden in the hell
Of white supremacy
I would have kept the dignity
Of organic intelligence
Breathing on fire
If you touch your own heart
The answers are inside

I need a break
from this unbreakable chain
of oppressive concealment
maybe not enough people care
the more violent
the more pain
there is there
We are having a reaction
to the chains
chronological revolt syndrome
symbiotic backlash
normalization of freedom fought for

stay creatively fierce
time is frozen struggle
misunderstood memory
the other destroyed
by its own compassion
for movement

pulling up to Chicago
approaching the ex slaves
gangs
ancient African leaders
videos of confederates
in the Berkshires
the country
isolated on the east coast
the vengeance of the native
is common throughout the world
is felt deep inside America
inherently connected
gangsters once in Africa
the world has your back
racist white Americans are few
isolated
confident
****** and weak
they have a lot you could take
land
food
weapons
to build what you want
to give the land culture
dance and color
stop killing for race
killing with ethical vengeance
take out the true enemy
nothing can stop you
vengeance is symbiosis
vengeance is the heart

I don’t know how
She makes me feel this way
All buttery melting
Through the holes
Of my toasted sourdough
Licking my fingers
******* my face clean
Faceless ecstasy
In between
her body and emotions
Hiding from escape

whiteness is GMO
genetically modified genocide
like and from fascism
psychologically modified
historically modified
purely incestuous
time loop
amphetamine
attention span

white people need to go back to Africa
Where they came from
Leave us be for a while
so we can grieve
and stop this genocidal anxiety

God is a native
Obsessed with decomposition
Pressure experiences
United States of being
What beliefs
Does decomposition
Hold true
Does an innocent smile
Still exist

somehow being black
has to be grandfathered in
to the whole social work scene
early childhood trauma
is very similar
to the collective trauma
collective trauma
of being black in America
being black in America
repetitive child abduction
into brutality
constructing whiteness
whiteness
it is as if the mental health professionals
themselves might have
a dissociative disorder
their behavior
shows dissociative patterns
behaviour