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Jul 2017 · 469
Difficult.
eF Jul 2017
You make being me
Extremely* difficult.
*Love me or leave me.
.........
Jul 2017 · 3.3k
Overwhelmed.
eF Jul 2017
Lying to myself.
Can't seem to escape this hell.
Feeling overwhelmed.
Hi.
Jul 2017 · 503
Time.
eF Jul 2017
A minute of* time.
*I didn't think it was too
Much to ask you for.
Jul 2017 · 414
Grudges.
eF Jul 2017
All that I wanted,
Was for you to just hold me
Like you do* *grudges.
Just hold me and let go of the grudges.
I've been trying to write more. Or atleast post more.
Sorry if it's not good.
Jul 2017 · 315
Life.
eF Jul 2017
Life* is a poem.
*Even if your unhappy,
While you're writing it.
It's all beautiful.

I wrote this before. But never realized I could make it a haiku.
Jul 2017 · 4.9k
Grave.
eF Jul 2017
You dug your own grave.
Now you're upset because it's
Too deep to get out.
Jun 2017 · 514
Overheat.
eF Jun 2017
I haven't been writing lately,
Can't get out of this funk.
Not sure what to do to get over this ****.
I've been driving but I can't seem to pass the peak,
I kicked the car in overdrive, but it started to* overheat.
*I took a break and had a seat.
Got angry and started to overthink,
Remembered that it could be all over in a blink.
Realized I haven't been appreciating whats under my feet.
Merp. this is probably gonna get deleted soon. I just really need to get back into writing. It's therapeutic for me.
May 2017 · 429
Haven't.
eF May 2017
Haven't* *felt the need
To write or to breathe. Lately,
It's consuming me.
Miserable. Lacking influence & muse. Not feeling myself at all.
Apr 2017 · 816
Dressed.
eF Apr 2017
Time to get* dressed
*Put on a smile for the world
Try to act normal.
Getting out of bed.
Even though I really don't want to.
Family functions are the hardest to go to. They want you smiling the most.
Fake or not.
Apr 2017 · 559
Pieces.
eF Apr 2017
I'm losing myself.
Pieces *of me everyday,
*Slowly fade away.
blah.
Apr 2017 · 922
Gust.
eF Apr 2017
I left the room,
Feeling like a* million bucks.
But once I closed the door behind me,
A
gust of wind came by
*& blew me away...
Depression *****.
Sitting in therapy feeling invinicible.
Leaving therapy feeling invisible.
One second everything's fine.
And the next it's all a lie.
Apr 2017 · 2.0k
Contest.
eF Apr 2017
They say the home is where the heart is,
But all that's left in my chest
Is an ugly mess, a vacant nest.
Another day, another stress.
Feeling like the prize isn't worth the
*Contest.
Quick something.
I wanted to keep it going.
But didn't want it to feel forced.
Last line had me sold.
Apr 2017 · 542
Creativity.
eF Apr 2017
Creativity
Has strayed off and went missing.*
*Please come back to me.
I feel like I lost creativity.
Idk I feel like haiku's are the only decent thing i can pump out anymore. Longer poems are just hard for me right now, there's no meaning, there's no muse & i feel repetitive.  I'm not good at writing about happy things or haven't tried much I see more beauty in pain and darkness. I have random entries I would like to put on here but I never do because I feel like poetry needs to rhyme. And i'm not sure if its ok to put random nonsense on here.
so here's a haiku instead.
Mar 2017 · 1.1k
Vacation.
eF Mar 2017
Speaking now,
Is pointless conversation.
Like the fluid talks we used to have,
Got lost in filtration.
It's sad because lately,
I've come to the realization.
I used to hate the distance,
But now it feels like
A  **vacation.
Self worth.
Stray from those who make you feel less than perfect, even if it's hard at first.
Mar 2017 · 471
Smile.
eF Mar 2017
When did my smile,
Seem to lose all its meaning?
To me, not the world.
Forcing a smile on your face daily.
Cuz that's what the world wants.
Sad clown.
Mar 2017 · 1.4k
Puzzle.
eF Mar 2017
The words just don't flow.
Like pieces to a puzzle,
With no where to go.
Ive been blah lately.
I have no motivation to write.
Feel like I've lost my spark.
Feel like nothing flows anymore.
The words rhyme.
But have no purpose.
I feel the same.

Trying to keep this outlet alive..
Mar 2017 · 919
Salt.
eF Mar 2017
I never liked the ocean,
But lately I've grown a taste.
To the way the salt water,
Runs down my face.
Into my mouth,
Taking saliva's place.

I've grown to appreciate the ocean,
Though I haven't seen in it years.
But I feel as if I'm near,
Every time,
**I ******* tears.
Trying to write.
Keyword
Trying.
Mar 2017 · 588
Reocurring.
eF Mar 2017
Reoccurring thoughts.
Ring in your ear like gunshots
Reoccurring thoughts.
Don't know if repeating yourself in a haiku is acceptable.
But it made hella sense. To me atleast.
Mar 2017 · 656
Broken.
eF Mar 2017
Hold my
 phone close to myself

Remember this is who I am.


Broken words
,
Broken heart
,
Broken man.

Even though you'll try to.

You'll never understand.

I do all of my writing on my phone.
Journaling etc. I pulled my phone in close
Basically pulled myself in close.
Mar 2017 · 350
Lacking.
eF Mar 2017
The words in here could,
Capture lifetimes.
Maybe I've captured,
All the hope in mine.
Lately lacking luster
Lately lacking **shine.
Blah
Mar 2017 · 439
Hunching.
eF Mar 2017
The pain so deep,
Words can't describe.
It crawls inside,
Eating you alive.
Hunching over,
From the pain that
*Subsides.
***** it idk
It doesn't look pretty
The last line is too long
Mar 2017 · 341
Sanity.
eF Mar 2017
Am
I losing sanity?
Or is this the beauty sanity sees
Before its gone forever
Mar 2017 · 369
Million.
eF Mar 2017
I remember being in so much pain.
Like I had been stabbed a million times.
It
Felt so
Good
Like the pain was meant to be there.
Like all million blades fit perfectly.
**Every
Single
One.
Mar 2017 · 765
Broom.
eF Mar 2017
Gloom fills the room
Can't be swept under the rug
With the biggest *broom.
Sorry. Blah.
Mar 2017 · 403
Melancholy.
eF Mar 2017
Today I don't care.
Melancholy fills the air.
My lungs need repair.
Blah.
Mar 2017 · 909
Clover.
eF Mar 2017
Happy St Patrick's day,
I wrote in a note..
But you didn't read it,
& That made me feel low.
On the page,
A 4 leaf clover I drew.
Thought about how,
It reminded me of you.

I wrote.
Good friends are like 4 leaf clovers,
Hard to find and lucky to have.


*You might've been hard to find,
But all the luck that you gave, was bad...
Avoid the people who make you feel worthless. Surround yourself with people who make you feel worth it.
If you don't feel like your worth their time.
Then they aren't worth yours.
Mar 2017 · 854
Handle.
eF Mar 2017
Tears getting soaked in my beard,
From constant questions and fears.
Do I leave or do I stay?
No pro's and cons to outweigh,
The love I feel for her everyday.

When I try to grab the door,
I can't seem to get a handle.
My emotions run deep,
On my words I trample.
Face feels warm,
As if lit by a candle.
Falling to weak knees,
Feeling dismantled.


Feeling lost,
Feeling hopeless.

Breathing in air,
But, still choking.
On my words,
I'm sorry...
You can feel it,
In my heartbeat.

You can see it in my eyes.

The eyes that would never cry.
Are now the same eyes,
That *
never dry...
I feel like I've cried more the past few months than I have my total existence.
Mar 2017 · 836
Equaled.
eF Mar 2017
Not feeling myself.
    If depression equaled wealth.
   I'd be one rich man.
2nd haiku... when your feeling unmotivated haiku's can really help get those creative juices flowing. Felt unmotivated today. Felt like today was a waste. These haiku's helped me feel like I didn't waste the entire day atleast.
Mar 2017 · 463
Overlay.
eF Mar 2017
Words don't flow today.
                   Sadness seems to overlay.
                       Smiles can't escape.
First haiku... today's gloomy.

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