DancingEnt

DancingEnt Oct 2018

Sorry (AHaiku)

You force yourself to
Love me and I'm sorry that
You're trapped in marriage

Sorry

#love #depression #lost #feeling #down

DancingEnt Oct 2018

Change

We say that things will change
But with little to no effort
They all remain the same.

You deserve better. I'm sorry. I'm finding it's better to stay quiet so I keep you happy.

#depressed #love #lost #losing #slipping #my #fault

DancingEnt Oct 2018

Untitled

I used to write about love
But it feels like we let the magic die
Because all you do is apologize
And all I do is cry
Nevermind we live our lives in fear
Of the thoughts inside our heads
We hold on to love so near
With a quick peck before bed.
Where did we go wrong, my love?
Why did we let it go?
All I ever imagined for us
Was love that would endlessly grow.
But now I'm awake and you are not
Because I cannot quiet the fears
That the love you once had for me
Is gone before we reach one year.
You'll read this and tell me I'm wrong
And maybe you'll be a little right
But if I'm all wrong
Then tell me
Why is it we always fight?
You know I'm not good for you
You say you're not good for me
And no matter how hard the other fights
We are both inclined to disagree
Walls we let each other tear down
We have now built back stronger
I just cant see how you want to stick around
I'll be amazed if you stay any longer.
My love for you will never cease
But I understand if you want to leave
Because being with me is never easy
And I've been told love should be a breeze.
I do not know how I'll go on
But I know I'll find a way
Because if you leave me for a better love
I'll know you're happy at the end of the day.

I'm never good enough. It's my own fault.

#anxiety #depression #love #lost #found #maybe #dont #go

Oct 2018

calypso

naIve/leAf norMal/gorGeous sneAky surveY

the scariest adventure
is the one where you step out
behind that darkened door
and reveal your true colors.

#lgbtq

DancingEnt Oct 2018

You know.

Drowning.
Everything is wet, like my temples
Perspiring.
Reaching out for a hand to hold but
Even if I could find one I would
Slip out of grasp and
Sever that connection because
Everything is black and I'm
Drowning.

Depression *****

#depression #mental #illness #depressed #lost #wet #black #reaching #drowning

DancingEnt Sep 2018

Love me

You tell me you love me
And I want to believe
But how could this be
When everything I do to help you
Seems to punish me?
I'll never be good enough.
I've known this my whole life.
But I thought maybe that changed
The day you made me your wife.
But I'm still alone.
Sitting in an empty house
Waiting for you to come home.
Let's see what we shout about now.

Our love has been broken
And I want to mend it
But every time I try
We just both get defensive.
I'm at a loss
I really don't know what to do.
How can I show you my love
When you don't even want me to?
My heart hurts daily
And I dont share it anymore.
I see the light in your eyes die
As soon as you walk through the door.

If it's me that's stolen your shine
Please tell me
You are the brightest of all the stars
And no one deserves to take that.
Have I been trying too hard?
And I've just made it worse.
I dont want to watch our love fade
Or roll away in a hearse.
I need us to be us again,
For the sake of being in love.
But how do we do that
When we fight so hard to be unloved?

I'm going through a tough time, emotionally.

#love #hurt #broken #shine #lost #dying #alive #feelings #husband #wife

DancingEnt Aug 2018

Three Feet Away

Isnt it funny
You always hear about couples who have ******* up
"Their only chance at love"
For the dumbest reasons
And here we are. We both know our issues
We both have them.
We both try to help each other
But if it's wrong then we snap
And now you're three feet away
But I miss you like you've been gone an eternity
And we fight fear with anger
Instead of love
Losing who we are in the process

#love #lost #hurt #sad #anger #dont #go