I love cats,
They always tell the truth.
If they don’t love you
They won’t pretend.

My heart being pressed,
my soul being crushed,
I am unable to breathe,
I am unable to stand,
what's happening to me!!!

Am I getting lost
or simply out of my mind?
what's rising within me?
a whirlwind of thoughts
or a whirlpool to drown me!!!

everything seems blue,
and i have no clue.
Can someone help me?
Can someone sort it out?
how to get these things out!!!

forgot about "****"
to be honest...
started thinking
that girls making
videos
of themselves jerking
off...
needed,
some sort of
              company;
it's not like
the global community
will suddenly come
to clarify amsterdam...
could it?
     francis franco?!
francis?!
     **** me:
  much needed applause!
i'm done with
the usual ****...
   girls jerking off?
that's...
              *****?!
      no no!
give me a girl...
        filming herself
*******...
   that i might
    next time encompass
a video
of me: taking a ****,
playig a video game...
scouts' honour...
because, why not?!
   she gets to *******
while i can't reveal
myself taking a ****?!
******* then;
what "social", "aesthetic"
are you talking about?!

They say,
"Good things
Come to those
That wait."

A Dream
Came True,
In a place
Hidden
From disgrace.

Is this
The end
Of
The escape?

Merely
Blinded
By walls?

Just as
The memory fades,
A sound calls
As if telepathic.

I’m listlessly restless
It’s not fair
The show
And the crow
Took the crowd
In a shroud
Now I stare

All of these strawberry people
I don’t care
Flavors
Can’t savor
The name
Of blue pain
Don’t you dare

The hatred I feel in the yield
You can’t bear
But I can
And I stand
Upon broken glass
Bristled clear sharp grass
Barefoot skin to tear

I’m listlessly restless
So ugly it’s yet precious
How quaint
How base
Such fate
Worthy of anyone who cares
Call themselves a good person

Listlessly restless
King of the fail
Such sweet painful woe
Begone, the loved one
Onward, set sail

I should start carrying fruit in my purse
First I should get a purse
After putting in string lights and wine
I need to add fruit
So anytime I feel like I’m going to
Put my foot in my mouth
I’ll eat the fruit instead
Giving me time to ruminate
While I masticate
Silencing my tongues need
To move without thought

Materialized
Up
To
The Ether,
Only
To return
Back
To
Earth,
After
You disappeared-
Trying to
Remember...
What
It was like
There,
Looking down
From
The Inside
Out
Into
Another life.

sometimes i wish i left my nails long
because in moments like this
i really want to scratch and shape them
on my skin
until they get red
a pretty vibrant color