Damnation to this drink
Shattered glass on the wall
Dulled senses no longer think
But I still hear her voice call

It echoes deep inside my head
And reality hits much too strong
When I know she is long dead
I want her, is that so wrong?

Damaged thoughts are to blame
Someone new in darkest lust
Using this woman in a game
Where I strip her of her trust

Do I use her all because of you?
Because she is your exact double
Oh this woe, what should I do?
Is this worth all this ****** trouble?

She sees beyond my deep scars
As you, beloved, once did
Still this bitterness still mars
All this madness I once hid

Can I escape my coming destiny?
Can the visions reflected be true?
To no longer feel pain and misery
How can this be if I am without you?

Have you ever felt trapped?
It doesn't need to be literal
That dark suffocating feeling
Like you're being dragged down

You struggle everyday
You cry every night
And it feels like
People are pulling you down even more

Will you give me a chance?
Will you listen to a stranger's advice?
I may not love you
but I know you're amazing

Eventually you'll understand
Giving up now,
Is a waste of time
So, live another day, please?

Should we continue playing?
The game of life
Where the challenge is to survive another day
Until you reach the goal

The goal,
Having a satisfied you

This is not a poem.
This are the words
I can't say,
This are the words
I'll never say.
The words
No one would hear, and
Perhaps no one
would read.
Pressing 'enter'
Now and then
I won't say
That I miss you
You won't hear that
Neither read it
I'm too proud
I'm too hurt
I'll say
This is  
Obnoxious
But I
Don't know really
What it means
I have just
An idea
Of the feeling
The words gives
Like your name
And perhaps
It will make
This
Seem like a poem
But it is not
Just some spaces
and words
But it is not
A poem
Some words in caps
other not so much
This is not a poem
I am not a writer
or a poet
I'm not even a lover
This is not a poem
And
I'm no longer a person.

you are the poem etched in her heart but was never written
you are the song stuck in her head but was never sang
you are her favorite book but was never read

you are the i love you that was never spoken
you are her greatest secret
you will forever be left unsaid
..
..
..
it's stupid that you don't want to reach out on things you want to hold
it's frustrating that the noblest feelings are always held back
it's disappointing that the greatest stories are willingly left untold

Regardless of the pain
And the manner that I could let it show,
Or those crowded buses,
That could have passed to cause delay,
     A heart still leans away.
It has to be taken far
From it's last scene,
     Forever.
     Your heart should lean away.

I take it madly here within me.
I would hold your escaping hand,
Though its phantom would mock me,
     **** me with its slow release.
Our first promises wander now,
And are to be found in new lovers like
Pups, like cygnets, like old nets
     Drowning in their love.

In this suffering, love, of then
And our future, faith and memory,
Your silence will come, storming
Into me. I will be riddled
     Past your shadowy goodbye.

And I will move,
A tired flame leaning into the shores,
     Glowing like embers all over the land.*

© 2015 J.S.P.

We can’t escape from the truth
From showing off
We can see the sea crying
From the deadly souls
We can see the earth
Full of pointless emotions
Falling into the wrong hands
Crying trees have never seen peace
The world becomes a smaller
Than you think it is

With all this pain and sorrow
We have underneath the system
Which controls and watch
All the moment we have done
All the things we have thought
That would help us
Get through a lot from sadness
We unleash our demons to the world
With no regrets
To seek to the dark
That carries a lot of weight

We left them hopeless
Without knowing anything
And easy to believe everything
Homelessness looks like a leftover
We can’t save others
Before we save ourselves
It’s the part of life
Which we can deal with
Mindless people always come
With bad ideas and worse leadership
Bad bloods created monsters
We fight to survive
We eat to be alive
We work to live
We die to rest
Our souls will be gone from us soon
We just have to be ready
For the final show

You can’t tell
How much fakeness in this world
Fake souls
Walking like deadly zombies
You can’t see it
Until it shows everything in front of you
For the right time and moment

When you realize that people have masks
And you don’t know which one to trust
They hide their ugly truth
From the public eye
Fake smiles
The creation of dramas
Start with them
Just to live the lies
That they put around
Their poison words
It will effects your mind
The true colors will show soon
It will effects their skin
Just like a chameleon

Wonders of life
Trying to survive the fakeness
You can’t read them
Until they show it
Music is the only real friend
That you trust
It keeps you real all the time
No matter what life gives you
It will be there for you

Its funny
that we can be in pain
our souls dying slowly decaying
yet no one sees

its hilarious
that nobody notices the little cracks that break through
you could be drowning in your own tears
yet no one sees