Today I'm going to stop
This ridiculous destructive thing
I've been doing it to myself
For five. miserable. years.
I talk so much about
How I hate to be controlled
but this is controlling me
I'm wasting my life
and this is my fresh start
I don't want to paint over
the same old canvas
I've already painted black
I've gone down this road before
and I could have been a killer
I don't want to be her anymore
The girl no one could help
and just watched her waste away before them
I'm no longer going to count the numbers
and measure and weigh
and cry and hate
I'M DONE
it can't control me anymore
she told me she was worried about me
now I know it's too far
what do I care anyway about all this?
It won't be very easy
but I'm not going to do this to myself anymore
I'm taking this canvas and BURNING IT
I'm starting fresh
I'm done with this
I'm finished
I need to be strong enough
for her
I won't become a statistic
under the earth in a wooden box
with only a block of cement
to prove I ever existed
because pretty doesn't have a size
and for her
I'm going to stop
Five years
is long enough

Never alone
But always lonely
I've nothing to hang onto
So you never hold me
Dripping from your hands
With a futile disgust
We're dreaming of love
Yet give into lust

Feelings laced with irony
That even I don't understand
So how could you?
Part of me wants to run away
All of me wants to hold your hand
But you're hurting, too.

I gave up on keeping promises.
Don't trust me; I don't.
Just walk away.
You're too nice to let me hurt you
Keep your distance; I won't.
But I wish you'd stay.

Rising above all
And all i want to do is finish standing tall
As i finish climbing my mountain of fears
I look down at my peers who look jealous cuz i look like a menace
They start calling me names and a bunch of different jeers
But it's not true cuz I've
Breached my limits
Reached my potential
Seized my pinnacle
My biggest fear is my future and how it will appear
But it don't matter cuz im standing alone,
Without a tear
And i know that I've
Started from the bottom now im here!

I dream of you, thoughts of kissing you, I miss your sweet perfume,the voice of most beautiful tune, the rhythm to my blues, the beat to my drum, the perfect melody, you're the perfect song, the perfect plan, just give me a chance, I will be the perfect man, I love you, I will hold you, I will cherish you, I will treasure you, I will encourage you, I'am devoted to you, I give all my heart to you, you're the rising sunset, I will love you past the moon, you're the star at nights, the reason I fight, you're my life, you're my wife, this is a love that will never rest, even after death, you make my heart beat out my chest, the love of my life, you're my wife, the greatest blessing a man could have, you're beautiful, incredible, so lovable, I will never let you go, a love so passionate, so powerful, a unconditional, the perfect love I been looking for, did mention you're so beautiful, my queen, my chocolate flower, this is poem I will read to you each and every night, a poem for you, my future wife.

By Chris Exton