Don't rush it..
But how can you rush something that
you know is right??
Time doesn't define love,
whether its a week or year.
When your soul finds it other half,
then there is nothing left to fear.

Living in the light,
wanting to shine but
the darkness floods my
heart and mind

Everyday fighting, battling
looking to find the rays
that will help light my way.

Its a comfort to know that I am not alone anymore,
alone to fall apart when my
depression and anxiety catch me off guard.

Because I have you watching over my heart and mind,
you can feel when
I need to be held and told every thing will be alright
and that no matter what you will always be there
to wipe the tears from my face.

The connection our souls have is amazing
sensing each other without
having to say a word.

Our souls were destined to
find each other so they could
be together and In love again.

Some days I wonder why I even try..
Feel  like I'm just stalled
my feet spinning in place
digging my own grave.

I'm overcome by the numbness of what I try to forget,
only to shut down completely inside.
I thought I could move on,
move on from the pain and fear,
yet sadly it still remains.
It was easy to leave,
leave you behind so i can find
myself again.
I now stand free of the fears,
that held me back and kept me prisoner.
Standing on my own..the Chains are gone

Before I speak, you have already tore
me down.
Whether its my clothes, that are worn
and old.
Eyes glancing to my tattoos, calling me
trash in your mind.
Finally my looks, overweight and plain,
far from the standards that you hold.
I am more than what you see..but with
every glance, a piece of who I am shatters.

Struggles, your and mine,
are different but the same..
MONEY
         JOBS
    BILLS
        DEBT..
Learning that its not what struggles you have,
But how you come out of them that matters..

I fight through the tears,
fight to stay strong and positive..
slipping  on the puddles of my soul.

Am I strong enough to win the
FIGHT??
or will I loose it all..
C.F14

Today is a better day..
the darkness is retreating
from my thought and im seeing
clearly the truth..
or lack of..

Like ghosts passing by,
never truly seeing each other..
my soul was lost among the world,
until it found you..

With every crash of a wave,
My stress is washed away..

I succumb to the shark inside me, tearing me apart
piece by piece..bleeding me dry.
My hormones are messing with my thoughts,
making things seem so much more foggy..
i know that nothings wrong but that feeling
keeps coming back into my mind..WHAT IF??

What if he changed his mind?
What if he doesn't want this anymore?
What if its me??
i must fight these thought before they wreck
my mind and heart..before the walls
build back up and im trapped in the darkness again.

Ive come to far to let the bad thoughts find
their old home in my thoughts..never again!!
people always talk about how everyone
is messing with their heads, but my insecurities
are my biggest demon..

You came into my life
when  I was at my lowest.
Making me smile and forgetting
all the bad in my world.
You gave me hope
for better days to come.
Lifting my spirit
while repairing what he turned to rubble.
Your love saved me from myself..