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33.3k · Nov 2014
waves (10w)
Cayla frazier Nov 2014
With every crash of a wave,
My stress is washed away..
17.3k · Sep 2014
relaxing breathe
Cayla frazier Sep 2014
With a single choice,
my anxiety is gone..gone from my
mind and my heart.
Now that I am ease,
the world feels different..
as so do I
9.5k · Dec 2014
The Struggles
Cayla frazier Dec 2014
Struggles, your and mine,
are different but the same..
MONEY
         JOBS
    BILLS
        DEBT..
Learning that its not what struggles you have,
But how you come out of them that matters..
5.2k · Dec 2014
Danger
Cayla frazier Dec 2014
Opening my heart again is danger..
to my mind..heart and soul.
Am I ready to risk it all again??
Each time I do it takes it's toll..
2.8k · Sep 2014
Awake
Cayla frazier Sep 2014
I woke up changed..
                                      finally coming out of the dream,
seeing past all the lies..
2.5k · Jan 2015
Haunted Heart
Cayla frazier Jan 2015
My heart is haunted
by the ghosts of my past,
the struggles of my present,
and the unknown of  my future.
2.0k · Sep 2014
Soul Sisters
Cayla frazier Sep 2014
You make my soul whole,
fill in all my emptiness with love and
support...
Never afraid to help and protect me,
there in a drop of a hat.. ready for anything.
Blood or not has never mattered,
I know that you are my family...thick or thin.
We've seen greatness and pain together,
holding each other to stay strong, pulling
each other through the smoke and fire...
Together we are unstoppable..
**Soul Sisters
for my best friends.. who complete me.
2.0k · Sep 2014
deeper ink
Cayla frazier Sep 2014
My ink runs deeper than paper.
It runs on my skin and heart.. mapping my character
and giving me my art.

People stare at my ink, on paper and skin..
casting judgement of both now and again.
2.0k · Aug 2014
Superficial
Cayla frazier Aug 2014
Before I speak, you have already tore
me down.
Whether its my clothes, that are worn
and old.
Eyes glancing to my tattoos, calling me
trash in your mind.
Finally my looks, overweight and plain,
far from the standards that you hold.
I am more than what you see..but with
every glance, a piece of who I am shatters.
2.0k · Sep 2014
Im Fine
Cayla frazier Sep 2014
They worry if I'm alright,
If maybe I'm depressed.
Flooding me with love
and support, trying to
show that they are there..
But I'm fine, I tell them, that
they don't have to worry.
I'm slowly finding my own
way, its just taking a little
time....To figure out that I
am worth a the fight, that
I deserve to be happy..
Without the darkness trying to
flood my thoughts and dreams.
So I smile and same I'm fine
and the hardest part is
believing my self..

@C.F14'
1.8k · Nov 2014
wish
Cayla frazier Nov 2014
I wish I could be somewhere else, be someone else..
Never again to feel the pain in my soul or run from the
darkness in my mind..
The longer I'm alone with my thoughts, the more they
pull me to the darkness.. with no light, love or life..
1.6k · Sep 2014
Hippie Soul
Cayla frazier Sep 2014
My soul feels older than my years..
like its lived for centuries before me.

Maybe that's why I think different,
feel different than the world I'm in.

Compassion, hope and love run through
me, helping me push through this world
of hate.

Accepting myself and those around me for
who they are and not conforming with the
masses..  
@C.F.14'
1.5k · Sep 2014
Get OVER It!!
Cayla frazier Sep 2014
Get over the fact that I have tattoos..
Get over the fact that I'm overweight..
because I know im an amazing and
talented person, who doesnt need or
want your approval..
1.5k · Sep 2014
My Home Run
Cayla frazier Sep 2014
The World tells you that it doesn't exist,
that you will never find it...
Believing that you can find your happily ever
after, regardless of how people put it down.
I'm holding out for the out of the park home-run
feeling you get when that person walks in the room.
Never again will I fight against my heart, it alone
knows where im suppose to be and what I deserve.
1.1k · Nov 2014
Through The Tears
Cayla frazier Nov 2014
I fight through the tears,
fight to stay strong and positive..
slipping  on the puddles of my soul.

Am I strong enough to win the
FIGHT??
or will I loose it all..
C.F14
Go from a beautiful high in life, to the bottom of the ocean..
996 · Apr 2016
recharge
Cayla frazier Apr 2016
I feel like I need a recharge..
need to plug back into myself for a while.
Maybe have the sun charge my soul,
melt away all the darkness.
But I cant find the sun.. cant find the warmth
to bring me back to life..
978 · Sep 2014
replys for matt
Cayla frazier Sep 2014
ahh the hung stud..
never have I had the pleasure..
to witness and feel all of there zeal..
854 · Aug 2014
Standing Free
Cayla frazier Aug 2014
I'm overcome by the numbness of what I try to forget,
only to shut down completely inside.
I thought I could move on,
move on from the pain and fear,
yet sadly it still remains.
It was easy to leave,
leave you behind so i can find
myself again.
I now stand free of the fears,
that held me back and kept me prisoner.
Standing on my own..the Chains are gone
798 · Jun 2015
flooding
Cayla frazier Jun 2015
Are those tears..or the rain
mix them together lately
there all the same.
salty droplets of my pain
pouring from my eyes and
the skies...flooding my pillow.
786 · Sep 2014
Altered
Cayla frazier Sep 2014
Altering your mind to keep
Thoughts out, may alter
your heart from letting
Feelings in...
779 · Aug 2014
Shine
Cayla frazier Aug 2014
Living in the light,
wanting to shine but
the darkness floods my
heart and mind

Everyday fighting, battling
looking to find the rays
that will help light my way.
755 · Nov 2014
Dark Castle
Cayla frazier Nov 2014
I can feel the darkness trying to find me,
tracking me down to pull me under.
I continue to run towards the light,
But it finds me before I can save myself.
Always inches away from a happier time,
to just be pulled back to the dark castle in my head.
happiness is a myth
706 · Oct 2015
P*uLLed
Cayla frazier Oct 2015
Who am I?
Who should I be?
Why cant I find my place in world full
choices?

I know that I'm everyone's cup of tea,
more like the tea bag just feeling used.

I pray for peace and self acceptance.
Knowing I need to love me before I can
find where I truly need to be.

Pulling in different directions
barely holding on, my strength depleting.

I'm weak and so tired,
just wanna fold into myself until
it all passes. but the darkness there
can be deafening too.

C.F2015
678 · Aug 2014
low expectations
Cayla frazier Aug 2014
There may never be a knight on
A white horse.
Never a castle hidden far away.
Never hear the sound of little
Feet running around.
Never being Beautiful, smart, or
Rich..learning to live with those.
Why dream of things when
They could never happen anyways..
Lower expectations keep the fear and
Pain from defeating me
667 · Jun 2016
Tumbling thoughts
Cayla frazier Jun 2016
I want to catch you attention,
        but not hear that I'm beautiful for my size.
The things you say stay with me,
        they tumble around in my head.
I will overthink and pick apart each word,
        compare it to how we act together.
I want to find my butterflies,
        find someone who wants to make me smile.
But I also want to be the reason your always smiling,
        I want to be able to chase away your bad days.
636 · Sep 2014
Always with Me
Cayla frazier Sep 2014
I woke up to a beautiful day,
full of life and love.
You open my eyes to its beauty,
showing me your amazing grace.
I can feel your light run through me,
warming my heart and soul.
You make me a better person,
just by you loving me.
I do not fear falling,
I know you will help carry me.
You guide me through my life,
walking beside me all the way.
Always with Me
@C.F14'
612 · Aug 2014
pushing the darkness
Cayla frazier Aug 2014
The music seems to flow over
and through me, pushing back
my pain..fears.. and problems.
I can feel myself sinking
deeper into my happy place and
forgetting how lost I really am.
With just a beat..I'm FREE
611 · Sep 2015
Inked
Cayla frazier Sep 2015
The first time can be scary
not sure you made the right choice.

Unfamiliar sounds and smells
gives you a rush you can never forget.

But with every new one
you slowly become submerged in this world.

The ink lets you express your heart
or heals your soul.

For a moment time stands still
and your at peace.

Accepting yourself and choosing
to live the life you want.

C.F15
564 · Jun 2015
Eternity
Cayla frazier Jun 2015
Swiftly I come to you
like a shooting star in the sky.

Swiftly I come to you
praying our passion never dies.

In your arms is where I
want to stay..
Never losing grip
for Eternity if I may.

@C.F.15
560 · Jul 2015
Banish away
Cayla frazier Jul 2015
The wisest men say
never wish away your days.
Pushing everyday to thrive
never taking for granted your alive.
Cherish the good days to
banish all the bad.
Always turning you eyes to the skies
soaking in the positive waves,
washing all your pain away.
Knowing your not alone in the world,
together finding a way to cure the hate.

C.F15
557 · Aug 2014
Creeping Darkness
Cayla frazier Aug 2014
The Darkness creeps in,
into my mind and soul.
I know after awhile it will take its toll.
I must continue to fight, hold it off...
but how long can I stay strong or
will it consume me??
526 · Nov 2014
Pieces
Cayla frazier Nov 2014
Are these tears I feel or Pieces of my soul??
Is there a difference..they both pour out of me.
They are all I have left of me...
My purpose I'm unable to find,
Do I hold on or let you go??
Can I let half of myself go??
how do i let go of my other half??
do i have the strength??
518 · Oct 2014
**FILED**
Cayla frazier Oct 2014
I filed for my freedom from you today,
paying the fee so it can be done.
awaiting 30 day before I know,
that i can finally be done with you.
You hurt me more than i ever could imagine,
but im healing everyday..everyday im away from you.
My friends, family and god give me the strength to move on,
the strength you took from me is restored.
I have no fear or anxiety, I filed those away.
507 · Dec 2015
Mental Riots
Cayla frazier Dec 2015
The chaos in me wont subside,
I try and push myself, make myself FEEL happy.. be happy
but I cant control the Riots inside my head.. causing destruction of
my heart and deteriorating my mind..

I hear people talk to me.. or rather at me, telling me to take my time
that I just need to focus on me.. but how can I focus with all the noise
in my mind.. its deafening ..

My greatest fear is that it will win.. it will completely  shatter the thought of who I was or wanted to be.
487 · Sep 2015
All Wrapped Up
Cayla frazier Sep 2015
Wrapped in your warmth
Snuggled to your side
your arm draped over me
with pride you cannot hide.
I am yours and you are mine
Forever with you is where I want to be
To cherish each day
For all eternity.

C.F2015
forever his
C&C
477 · Aug 2014
Words
Cayla frazier Aug 2014
They have been called sharp,
cutting you deep.
Bring you to tears,
or pushing back all your fears.
They can break your heart,
or make it fly.
Simple WORDS
463 · Oct 2014
Morning smile
Cayla frazier Oct 2014
We sat and talked for hours
not caring about the time
No distractions to worry about
nothing occupying our minds.
432 · Aug 2014
Internal Clock
Cayla frazier Aug 2014
Beside me he peacefully sleeps,
not knowing the fears I secretly keep.

The fears that silently tear me apart,
those I keep hidden within my heart.

Not knowing how it will all turn out,
is the roughest part without a doubt.

Doctors tell me there is always hope,
but nothing really helps me cope.

My fear of never being able to say,
that we have a baby on the way.

-cayla frazier
423 · Dec 2015
mental war
Cayla frazier Dec 2015
Sometimes I feel so hollow
just a shell of who I was or would have become
My internal war destroys what I think I want
making me feel doubt about it all
most days I stop trying to fight it
letting it consume what little happiness
I find..its greedy like that
always wanting more..
I know its selfish to allow others in
when darkness will surely win...
418 · Apr 2015
drained
Cayla frazier Apr 2015
They take and I give
they take and I give
Taking, taking , taking

I slice at my wrist to give more,
Remember to go down the tracks and not across... but nothing comes out, they have drained me..drained my life..
415 · Nov 2014
melting castle
Cayla frazier Nov 2014
My white castle was just a mirage..
Fooling me to believe that there is a happily ever after.
The ivory walls are turning black and crumbling to the ground..
The sky is darkening, pushing the light away from me..
Its useless to chase the sun, when u know u should let it go ..
413 · Sep 2014
Caged In..
Cayla frazier Sep 2014
I feel trapped inside,
unable to free who  I want to be.
I try and Fight, lose more than I gain..
But I still fight..fight through  my pain.
412 · Feb 2015
Dream Landscape
Cayla frazier Feb 2015
When my eyes close at night
I dream of  ways my life could take flight.
My mind runs with ideas of how
I could have been different from
the past to now.
Its always changing
never the same.
I never know which way to take
to shift my dreams and raise the stakes.
But changing in my dreams isn't really living
because I'm proud of the life I was given.
Learning to love myself one day at a time
406 · Oct 2014
Did you know?
Cayla frazier Oct 2014
Did you know I prayed for you?
I asked everyday for happiness,
and you turned out to be just that.
Somehow restoring my life day by day,
putting me back together one piece at a time.
400 · Feb 2016
morning love
Cayla frazier Feb 2016
You are forever my Heart and Soul.
My love for you will never cease to grow.
You bring light and love to my day, I love you more
than words could ever say.
From this day on I know this is true,
I cannot wait to spend my life with you.
393 · Dec 2015
cracked armor
Cayla frazier Dec 2015
There is a crack in my Armor
its beginning to let the dark creep
back in to my life.
I keep trying to patch my life
but my fingers are  numb from trying
from trying and failing..
how can it be so hard to fix
who I am, I don't want who I used
to be.. I just want to figure out who I
even am anymore..
I feel shattered on the inside..
cant remember the last time I felt whole.
393 · Oct 2014
Just One Night
Cayla frazier Oct 2014
In just one night...
You found
the butterflies I had lost.
You cleared the clouds that
hid my heart.
You gave me hope
after the storm.
You showed me the
way to shore.
389 · Oct 2014
**Rush**
Cayla frazier Oct 2014
Don't rush it..
But how can you rush something that
you know is right??
Time doesn't define love,
whether its a week or year.
When your soul finds it other half,
then there is nothing left to fear.
when you know you just know..
383 · Dec 2014
Spinning
Cayla frazier Dec 2014
Some days I wonder why I even try..
Feel  like I'm just stalled
my feet spinning in place
digging my own grave.
383 · Jan 2015
creeping
Cayla frazier Jan 2015
The hands on the clock are creeping by
like fog across a road, slowly reminding me of
how much time I truly waste.
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