I simply need
I must concede

A total fool
A blood pool
My razor shines
My fine lines

The red glint
The strong scent
High risks received
High stakes involved
Endless pleas sung
Endless screams rung

Waiting so silent
Waiting so violent
Over the edge
Over the ledge
Right here collapsed
Right now elapsed
So far gone
So stepped on
Too much pain
Too little gain

I am the worst.

More addictive than heroine
I've tried them both
Something to marvel in
Created from loath

Can't imagine the pleasure
Can't imagine the fun
Till you've tried to measure
The pain of a gun

How long are the scars?
How deep do they go?
More numerous than stars
And you'll never know

What is your poison?
What is your drug?
Mine is a razor
I watched as it dug

And none must ever know
So never let it show

I am a *******
How long can I last like this?

The most degrading of sins?
Such terrible disgust?
Or the filthiest of wins?
My only true lust

Knives aren't meant for playing
Hands aren't meant for hitting
But tonight I have no limits

If pain was a person then I'd be its scorcher
Put flames in my veins I consent to this torture
Beat me if you want, it'll take much for me to cry
I'll show my enjoyment, I have no reason to lie
Never been scared of blood
That's including my own
And they'll never know I'm addicted
I lock the door to my room
Just me and all my weapons of choice
They give me love so good that I lose my voice

~Corona Harris~

I said no in the kitchen
Standing
When you tried to put
Your lips on mine

I lie on the bed
As my ability to move
Or even speak leaves me
Then here you come
And you sit right
On top of me

Hands in places
They don't belong
You lift my limp arm
And place it around you
As if it's a romantic gesture
Or even my choice
Then you kiss my lips
Despite my no
With my eyes closed

My pants are in your way
You remove them
I lie there
Body limp
Eyes still closed

I'm able to move
An inch out of the way
When you try to do
The unthinkable thing
Not once
But three times

So you settle for
What you could get
Which was everything else
As my body was limp

Eyes open just enough
To stare my anger
Into your soul
I know you felt it
As you sat between my feet
When you were finished with me
Relieve yourself then use my sink
And then I sleep
And then you leave

"Let me walk you home
Let me keep you safe
Its dangerous out there
I wouldn't want you to get *****"

You fix in me what is broken
What was stolen by those I trusted
What was lost at the ******'s hand
A hand that was his ****
A pain so carefully hidden and nurtured that I thought the pain was me.
You let me use your eyes and then I could finally see.
I wasn't to blame. I wasn't insane.
It wasn't a bad dream or a fantasy gone astray.
It was ****. That's the totality of what was done.
No softer word, no kinder thought.
They ***** me. For a time I thought it was my fault.
I drifted. Lost without a tether.
Through the darkest space and deepest valleys.
Sometimes I would chance upon a stream and see my reflection.
The boy who caused it, who deserved it, who must have liked it.
Otherwise why would they have done it? Again and again
And again and again and again again again again.
No fun to read, but try having lived it.
Sometimes I would find someone to cling to.
But I couldn't explain and they couldn't understand
Because I didn't understand. So they left.
And alone I would wonder, untethered.
My soul hiding, curled in a ball. Afraid of everyone
Especially those I loved. The ones who ***** me
The ones who didn't stop it.
Broken. Broken as a child. Broken as a boy.
Broken as a man. So broken I couldn't be a man.
Locked in pain. Locked in fear. With my broken pieces.
But you.
You fix what is broken inside me.