If Only
A thousand words I wish to say
But only silence is heard
Feelings to share, a message convey
But I don't say a word
A ton of things I would do
To show how much I care
So much I would give to you
If...I really dared

All the thoughts I think of you
Deeply held within
Concealed completely without a clue
It'll look, as it's always been

If only I could but show
How you make me feel
If you would only know
What I can't reveal
If only you knew the ache I felt
The day you shut me out
The pain and sadness that I dealt
When we walk the parting route
If only you knew the memories it brought
When I saw something you'd like
Everything about you I never forgot
Hidden in my heart so tight
A thousand word "If Onlys" fill my mind
Wishing you felt this way too
A thousand words I would find
To say "If only you knew."

I tore down my walls
I opened my doors
And made room for one more

Your every word etched in my memory
Your every action burned in my mind
I hope we'd go on, not fade into history
I thought you'd be the same all the time

Did you think I could forget
All the times we had together
Since the very moment we met
I foolishly prayed it'd be forever

But you've forgotten all we were
How we could connect in every way
You remembered you had a string of girls
Vying for your attention every day

Don't think I'll always be here
Waiting for you to remember me
I've realized you never held me dear
You never thought of what we could be

All your perfect imperfections
Keep surfacing in my mind
Like how things drift in the ocean
The memories of you come back all the time

Fighting these thoughts just don't work
They bob up slowly, surely, unconsciously
Although I've tried to push them down
But to no avail, it forces it's way back, rebelliously

Let me know when you will care
For now I'll just be standing there
All alone, just waiting
Even if my heart is breaking

Do you realise I've been here
Always there for you, so near
I kept your tears in my heart
But now we'll haft to be apart

For now I'll try to be a friend
Won't imagine "Until When"
It's alright to watch you go
But when you return let me know

All that I done for you
So many I cannot count
I hope you'd care for me too
But my wishes, to you didn't amount
The energy I spent, I time I gave
You took, oh so eagerly
But it was your turn, you saved
And hid everything selfishly
Is it wrong to ask the same
Or if not a little more?
Do you think my love's a game?
Why is giving such a chore?

Perhaps I've been blinded to see
All your self-conceitedness
In truth, you never loved me
A thief of love and innocence

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,

No matter how much you hurt me
I will still care for you