Alya Adzkia

Alya Adzkia Jul 2018

I chose to be your friend
but you made a mistake
for staring at my eyes a little bit too long
soaked my soul into the ocean of yours

I chose to be your friend
but you made a mistake
for touching me without using your hands
pulled my soul into the embrace of yours

I chose to be your friend
but I made a mistake
for not being able to control falling into you.

— and I haven't done falling.

#longlostpoem #dailypoem #love #relationship #mistake #soulmate #lover

Alya Adzkia Jul 2018

Anxiety

"are you really in love with me?"

"of course, I really really love you, babe."

then, why doesn't it seem like you do?

because no—not really. you're just in love with the way I always make you feel. like you're the Sirius among my constellation of stars.
because you are.

you just.. you just love my words. you love the way I pour my feelings for you through my poems. you love the way I arrange words and phrases to cheer you up on your hard times. you love the way I appreciate everything you do.

you love the fact that you're special to someone—to me. but you neither give me a feedback nor treat me the way I treat you because you know that I'll always be there for you, whatever it takes.

— of course you are my Sirius,
but darling you're shining too bright,
and I'm burned.

#tellme #longlostpoem #burned #sirius #stars #shine #relationship #lost #love #trust

Alya Adzkia Jul 2018

Bittersweet

your words have always been as sweet as honey drips from an odd tea in the cold morning.

your actions have always been as kind as the sunflower's patient longing for the sun to absorb its light and attention.

your stare has always been as soft as a rainbow at the edge of the white cloud in the deep blue sky.

your touch has always been as gentle as the wind blows horizontally leaving my skin trembled.

your love has always been as beautiful as a remembered single line in a perfect poetry.

— but I didn't know,
your secrets also have always been as bitter as gall.

#dailypoem #longlostpoem #love #bittersweet #bitter #lost #relationship

Alya Adzkia Jul 2018

Flames

there was an iceberg
inside my cracked-soul

you walk in
in case to warm me up

but you forgot
I was an ice;
I could melt

and you don't like me
because
I melted too much
that I became a fire

too hot
you're afraid that
I will burn your soul

— I love you, why would I?

#longlostpoem #melt #burned #broken #relationship #dailypoem #ice

Alya Adzkia Jul 2018

Fair

you asked me
to understand
while I'm here
staring at blanks
craving answers
for questions
in my head.

and you're not going
to answer
because
you neither understand
nor tried to.

— you've changed,
so I had to change too,
that it could be fair.

#longlostpoem #fair #change #relationship #dailypoem #love #lost #understand #try

Alya Adzkia Jul 2018

The Sky

it was such a cold night with the frosty air kissed my skin and left it trembled. I was staring at the stars and whispered them how much I adore your mesmerizing smile as they promised me to take care of yourself,
"he is the Sirius, we know."
"he is," I giggled "so keep him safe."

then I danced under the moonlight with our playlist as the soundtrack. the moon giggled and shaked its head,
"it's getting late, you better go to bed than dance like an idiot."
"but, will you promise me to give him a goodnight kiss with your light?"
"anything you want, princess."

the city lights kindly guided me and my unicorn home safely without getting lost, although I closed my eyes along the road because I am a sleepyhead.

"goodnight, my Sirius."

— baby I'm living on my own fantasy,
will you still take me as I am?

#sirius #moonlight #moon #dailypoem #fantasy #relationship #love #night #nightsky #sky

Alya Adzkia Jul 2018

Apologize

forgive me, when I make my own chaos. forgive me when I'm thinking of some things that I shouldn't think about at all. forgive me when I overthink over a little stupid thing. forgive me when my anxiety attacks. I need you to wrap your arms around my exhausted soul.

forgive me, when I'm being stubborn. forgive me when I don't want to go to sleep early because I do miss you. forgive me when I don't listen to you to stop eating ice cream. I need you to wipe those ice cream around my lips because you know I can't eat them properly.

forgive me, when I'm being annoying. forgive me when I'm staring at your brown eyes but get mad a few seconds later because you stare back at mine. forgive me when I can't stop pinching your cheeks until my fingers paint red on them. I need you to kiss my forehead and I'll be quiet for a little while.

forgive me, when my worries get a little too much. forgive me when I double text you because you take a few minutes longer to get home more than usual. forgive me when I'm asking about how your day was. I need your smile and laugh to share warmth on a cold night.

— forgive me,
when I can't give you the world,
because you are my world.

#love #anxiety #apologize #forgive #dailypoem #relationship #longlostpoem #sorry

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