You do not have time.
Nobody has.
You could make time.
Not everybody does.
But if it mattered to you,
as much as it used to matter to me,
you'd make time.
But you didn't,
I did.
You stayed away.
And maybe next time,
when you accidentally have time,
I'm not here anymore.
At least not waiting for you.

*-why wait for someone who doesn't care if you actually do

I feel like I'm dreaming
Even though I'm wide awake
I hear somebody screaming,
I'm losing myself.

Some leaves are rustling in my ears,
The others crunch beneath my feet,
My head is filled with fears,
I hear a strange sound
I realise - it's my heartbeat.

A stitch in my wound,
A knock in my back,
I manage to sit down
When everything turns black
As I hear the shattering of my crown.

she never said a word
the silence was her loudest scream
but it couldn't be heard

is this life or just a dream
am i here and is this real
it isn't like it seemed to be
*-this world might be just not for me

i hope that you'll never leave
because i'm scared
to be alone with me
i know that's not how it's gonna be
but that's what happens in my dreams

i know you're only doing
what you have to do
but i'm still hoping
that sometimes you
will think of me

i know i'm only one in hundred
but you for me
are nothing i take for granted
i'm proud to be
a part of your life
and i still hope for the day
you'll recognize
it's not like i say
i need you here with me