You said talking to me
Was better than being high
Almost as great as ****

Now I'm always high
To keep the thought of you
Off my mind

Darling it hurts to be sober
But I don't miss you
When I live life as a stoner

The sorrow wraps around me
Like a noose around my neck
Making me unable to speak
As painful thoughts play
Like a record stuck on repeat

Darling talking to you is better than sleeping for hours.

If I were to compare you to something describing you best
It would be a cigarette
I sneak you into my bedroom
like a late night ****
I breathe you in as you poison my lungs
like this wispy smoke
I know you're no good for me
Yet can't help wanting you
So **** badly

Show me the marks on your arm
Where your cruel forbearer
Laid his fist

Show me the lines under your bracelets
Where you dragged the blade
Across your wrist

Don't hide the painful memories
For every wound I will heal
As I kiss

Like a fortune cookie
We must break
To discover something
We should have
Already known

You asked if I was okay
I said I was fine
But you didn't think twice
About leaving my side

But I'm not okay
I need you here
Because the wretched night
Brings out my darkest fears

You're not suppose to be sorry for loving someone
But you're sorry for loving her instead of me
And I'm sorry I ever loved you.

Your smile was so bright
Your laugh sparked a room
Always bringing such delight

But it was just a well performed act
Only a staging to conceal
The smiles were a hoax, a fraud in fact

Everyone in the audience oblivious
To the reality of his suffering
Blinded by the act, we never were suspicious

You never revealed your sadness
Always bright eyed and cheery
It seemed as if you were built from hapiness

Today i am still not sure
What the reason it was
To avert your stay on this earth

To force yourself to leave
If I had known before your departure
To have you stay I would infinitely plead

But you left with no warning
Abandoning multitudes of people
We soon found ourselves mourning

Over the death of our sunshine
The loss of an inspiring boy
Who had brought so much light to my life

Twist the cap
And break the seal
Chugging as if its a
Canteen of water
And she is dying
From lack of hydration

A waterfall of alcohol
Straight into her mouth
No matter how bitter it tastes
It can't be as bad as she feels
She drowns herself in liquor
Because it numbs the pain

Baby tell me all about your life
I don't mind if it is a long story
For you, I have all the time

I'm sorry is all I can repeat
As I sob with tears
welling in my glossy eyes
Burying my face between
my drenched sleeves
Gasping for air

Just wishing
To be anywhere
But here
To feel anything
But this
To be anyone
But me

Some things are not meant to be shared
There are places that haven't been explored
Sights that have yet to be seen

But you somehow discovered this dark place of mine
It was never meant for you to find
Some things are better left unknown

I would rather die by your hands
than live outside your grasp
Even after you push away
I come crawling back

If you can't live without me,
why aren't you dead?

Thousands of
Messages
But none mean
A **** thing
Anymore

I could die tomorrow and you wouldn't
give a ****.

Some care too much

Others, not enough

If I could run away from my problems
I would run until I lost my way

You have a smile
Like sun rays
It melts my heart

Your eyes are
Like a sunrise
Or a fine piece of art

Just take a chance
Maybe we could have
A beautiful new start

There may be thousands
of miles between us
But we are not apart

Its okay that you think I'm joking
When I say something
About wanting to die

But deep down inside
I know its true
You may not see it
But I truly
Do not
Want to be here
Anymore