aar505n

aar505n Jul 2015

In
Limbo.
Foot-in-doors.
Perfect opening lines.
Holding on to high hopes.
These beginnings are unfulfilled
Books started but never finished.
A seed planted but never watered.
Ideas thought off but never sought.
Best laid plans becoming ephemeral.
Music ending with an interrupt cadence.
Weighed in balances and found wanting.
*Wanting.
Never
Getting.
Starting.
Never
Finishing.

Just a little ditty on where I'm at currently. A little hyperbole but the sentiment is still tru

#love #sad #life #god #sadness #death #hopes #thoughts #waiting #wanting

aar505n Jul 2015

Float Away

I couldn't find peace so I went out into the rain,
To find a way to stop the pain.
Let my brain unravel at the seems.
Flow away with the drops down the stream.
Little boat in the rain.
Float away, float away.
Sailing from me while I stay anchored with empty thoughts.
At peace - but vacant.

#peace #sad #happy #rain #nature #thoughts #mind #vacant #mindfulness

aar505n Jul 2015

La Vie En Rose

Walking the same way as always
But different all the same
Stopped looking
And started seeing
Perceiving for once
Not an ounce of ordinary complex
Was there to look at
I saw extraordinary simple
And that made all the difference.

Rollercoaster of emotions today ahaha

#love #life #happy #good #positive

aar505n Jul 2015

Those Eyes

All I see are these eyes.
These dark, dark eyes,
floating on a sea of darkness - not connect to a body.

Just there - up close to me.
Pressing against my eyes.
I felt like the eyes had pushed into my own eyes.
Peaked in to my very soul
Breaking my weak spine and mind.

I want to scream
Pray for this to be a dream
But fear has a funny way
Of stopping you doing what you want.

So I do nothing.
And life goes on.

*Oh, but those eyes.
They're in my brain.

They're here to stay.

Hasn't posted in awhile. Something a bit darker. Mel is at it again.

aar505n Jun 2015

Dawning On Me

I walked out into a blissful dawn
Drawn to the emerging hues of hope
Dispelling over the hills
Dark streaks of orange layered with bright yellow.
Spilling towards me.
I spied Robin
flying low beneath the suns rays
to greet me as promised.
Now that the shackles are gone
Together we may go

We watched the sun rise that morning
Knowing that, anything, was possible.

I'm finish my last exam today. Two years of the Leaving Cert over. Now what?

#love #future #hope #nature #free #leaving #sunrise #bright #robin

aar505n Jun 2015

Just Me

There's this inner rawness
That comes at night
Lawless in its flight
Not afraid to fight
Because it's honest
The innocence of it
But so naïve and so me
I'm the sum of all I've done
Minus all I've thought
Plus all I've fought
What I regret equals what I'm proud off
So I forget the past, move pass it
To prove my point and not disappoint
Grasp the tomorrow, forgoing the sorrows
And accepting my soul for what it is
My very flawed essence
God, I'm not God or even a sun
But a son on the run
Lost into the sprawl
Finding myself - alone
In the forest falls
On a star lit night, feeling unlit
Scratching at the surface for purpose
And despite my fright I still ask
Suppose we're alone
And the skies really are empty
Would it matter?
Either way I'm still here, alone
Looking up at the closest star
So far away
So I look down instead
I listen to my soul
Like quiet waves
Gently lapping at the shore
Within my very core
The tide resides but only to surge forward
I fall down only to get up
Regardless of everything
Because it's only me
Just me.

#love #life #heart #god #alone #happy #lost #nature #stars #thoughts