I am all but an addict,
Though I need to feel the connection,
I crave like a smoker craves a smoke.
Before you sit, and let the comments flow forth,
Just remember.
I am all but an addict.

My cravings are ones of a rich man,
Who needs not to expect.
But as time comes closer,
The fear may run it away

My heart is racing,
My legs are shaking,
Eyes are wide as ones could be.
As I withdraw
I withdraw for you,
As love is a drug that kills..


Ryan Devery 2017 19th of may.

I wish I could die and walk away from this world I see, but death would be too good for me just like her you see,

If I go do not cry because I will be raising high, as death is only my biggest dream but death will not let me die.

If I go il leave her here and then Il wish that I, was just a little drop of rain one slash and il be gone

I thought i was moving on from you,

Until one day, someone asked me:
“If you had one wish, what would it be and for whom?”

And the first thing  I thought of was to waste that wish on you

She was a friend of a friend,

She was shy and had beautiful black hair, but the real beauty came out as I got to know her.
Her laugh was rare but well worth the wait,
Her eyes just simply empowered me,
She caught me looking, I gave a smile

Time went by and my mind just blew like a rocket going to space.
She's always on my mind but I'm scared.
I don't  get a reading from her, does she feel the same..?

I mustn't dare find out, as the question alone is enough to brake down our home,

Many people will stand around and stab you in the back.
Many people will hurt you for not going and doing something stupid.

But if life was easy and painless then everybody will end up going insane.
The truth doesn't mean anything unless the lies and statesman, are in order.

In the end.
you will be long enough dead.
So why not be crazy.
Why not have fun.
Why not try new things.

In order to see the rainbow of life,
You will need to go through the storm of death.

At first we are just two people,
looking the same way.
Looking at one another the feeling
made me feel so gay.

Days weeks months and years went by,
the love was never grey.
But then there was that other guy
Who made me feel so afraid

Shaking shock and suprise to see you walk away.
Out the door and in the car,
It only took a day

You can never, really tell when you will meet that person who you might spend the rest of your life with.

But in this generation, love and happiness is far fetch and mistake for.
And yes I used to think love, happiness and emotional feeling was far fetched, untell I met her.

It was only a few days that was need to be passed when I knew I wanted to be with her.

But do you remember as a child, having something you loved so much you needed it to over come new things? I want you to be my teddy bear.

But in the end if the connection is lost who's to say you cant get a new network to reconnect and revive ones feeling for her.