There’s no place for me in this world
I’m just not like the other girls
I know, all of them say that
And also complain about how they’re fat
But going on I just can’t deny
The more I lose, the more I try
I’m not insane, thin or pretty
I’m nonconforming but a little witty.

There’s no place for me in this world
I’ve noticed as my life has unfurled
Maybe I’m the loser here
Sometimes I want to disappear
But even if I ran away
My problems are still here to stay
Trapped in place to figure it out
So I’m plagued with mountains of doubt

There’s no place for me in this world
Except to take care of my boy and my girl
But how do I get them the things they need
When the system is corrupted with greed?
I don’t know the rules or how to win
This game of life we’re living in
The system is set, I can’t give up
Stuck in a cycle of self destruct

There’s no place for me in this world
Searching for the things that are real
Am I just giving up?
Each time it’s getting tough
Relationships work and school
Failure seems to be the rule
Maybe I should just give in
And conform to the world we’re living in.

I don’t ever know what to say
Living life in an awkward way
Am I really supposed to care
About the way you do your hair?
Do you want to talk about the weather
Or if that jacket is real leather?
Let us talk about what we do
The books we read and our passions too
I want to know about who you are
Or what you need to fix your car
Tell me about where you have been
Who you help and how you sin
Tell me what makes you happy
Especially if your day is ******
Leave the small talk to the rest
I just... could not care less

I’m feeling kind of down today
With so many words to say
I want to feel loved and cherished
Before my spirit starts to vanish
Won’t you cuddle me, hold my hand?
Not move off to another land
Hold me, don’t go away
I just want you to stay
I’ve fought these feelings for so long
Like this, I just can’t go on
When I needed someone, there you were
But was it just because of her?
Revenge, is that what’s in your heart?
Is it time for us to part?
Should I go ahead and go?
Should I just leave you alone?
So many have left me over the years
So many miles shed in tears
Are you the next one to phone?
To tell me I’m to be alone?

I wanted to write a poem today
The words just would not go away
None of them rhymed or went together
Random words going on forever
Follow them, see where they go
Falling down the rabbit hole
Bounce along, one, two, three
Letting thoughts run freely
Cheerful, sad and depressed
The feelings held within my breast
Let them out, let them go
That is how the story’s told

I need to see more good in the world
Trying to help but I’m just a girl.
Ignorance has gotten insane.
People! Can’t you hear what you say?
Oh, you’re just trying to make a buck?
Obviously, you don’t give a ****.
Oh, I forget, it’s a value now
To only think of ourselves
Maybe I’m just getting old
Sick of doing what I’m told
I don’t want your television
Pollution and slave driven prisons
Keep Calm and Carry on
That’s the motto when something’s wrong?
No! Do something about it!
Don’t put up with that *******!
Now you say you’re only one
Nothing will ever get done.
Change starts with just a few
We must stand up, me and you.
Because everywhere I look, all I see is pain
What are we going to do when nothing else remains?

Time, time, time, time
Not enough to make this rhyme
Running around here and there
Things to do, everywhere!
Daughter goes there.  Son needs that.
Stay active.  Don’t get fat!
Running round and round again
Fast food is my friend.

Money, money, money, money
Not enough, not even funny.
Work real hard.  Get that check
Got to pay to fix the deck!
Rent, utilities and food
Buying stuff to improve my mood
Fitting into a world that’s fake
I could really use a break.

Smile, smile, smile, smile
Goodness, it has been awhile.
Cannot let them see me crack.
On this work, I’ll break my back.
Have to work, need the pay
To retire, maybe someday
Whew! Here we are again!
Finally it’s the weekend!

Drink, drink, drink, drink
Today, I don’t want to think.
Keep on going, don’t give up
Have some liquor, grab a cup.
Watch some shows.  Play some Games.
Wake up with more body pains!
I guess I have more to do
Now to see the doctor too!

Bills, Bills, Bills, Bills
Make that money, take those pills
Take the meds to feel better
Getting mad? Go write a letter.
Fear, anxiety, and pain
Is there something here to gain?
Who gains? What do I get?
Surely it’s more than regret.


Whine, whine, whine, whine
Trying to make it all fine
No response to my letter
I just want to feel better!
Feeling powerless and dumb
Stuck underneath someone’s thumb
I don’t know how to make the change.
This system needs a rearrange.

I'm an artist
My canvas is my life
I'll make everything beautiful
Through even the pain and strife.
Because isn't it the worst of times
That we look back and see
The vibrant colors, stories to tell
Painting our lives brightly?
Reds of passion
Blues for pain
Yellows on the nice days
Keeping out the rain.
My favorite days are purple
Or perhaps maybe green
Days full of mystery
Or in a forested ravine.
But whether days are good or bad,
Black, green, blue or even plaid,
After all is said and done
My life will be an amazing one!