In a little lighter vein, the one, 'tween my toes,
I sink narcoticly into a bubble bath of ice and epsom salts,
slurring I say ****, this is relaxing me, this may have been too much.
My chest is heavy my stomach hurts.
I run the water again, belch, then,
hold my breath blowing all the hurt
out my ***.
Now I have the warmest,
though,
smelly,
more
bubbly
bath.

to the mocking sneers awakens me from imagining asleep
real now , I say, I shame not easily. Shadows, I cannot see
bereft of light.
Tell me of the jealousies, whisper in my ear,
what devil tome must I partake in?
What evils have I done ?
Shall I awake you, shake from your forever sleep?
Haunt you, as you me?
What visions here in the  light of one candle flickers,
roof and wall growing and fluttering with the breezes
blowing in the open window trees prancing limbs
through the dark. Hark, to thee, go to sleep.
Sleep until you have a
dream again .
Let me be.

I craved soul searching literature
And words that stumbled off your tongue
I wanted conversation about society and worldly topics
I didn't care about pop culture
Or who was marrying whom
So I read Dickens, Shakespeare, and Seuss
And I understood
But my memory was cloudy
Names never stuck
And when conversation came
I couldn't tell what from what
I wasn't worldly or interesting
I knew no fascinating facts

A shadow of immense power
had let darkness take over
and I was unable to see
a bit of light in the sky above me

Even the pool of water
below me was stagnant
and for a little while,
the wilderness was silent

The city's never ending gobble
had slowed
and the streets were empty
except for the travelers
hoping to beat the rush
that would never come

I wore your raincoat
but shed it
when I heard the thunder
ripple through the sky
through my body
Reverberating off the tips
off the trees I climbed as a child

I smile at you, my world
and danced in the gift
you had left for me

She stood there
eyes dancing
watching for the perfect moment
Her gold iris's glowed
as a promise of light
surfaced upon them
She stepped with
the tips of her paws
Careful to step around the creaks
of the old rotting floor
She crouched low
perfecting her stance
as an ignorant plump mouse
ventured around his new home
She licked the edges of her sharp teeth
and approached with agility now
but still not a sound magnified through her ears
The mouse heard her thumps
her steps
He waited, pretending to be more interested
in a crumb in front of him
He watched her from the corner of his eye
Chuckling with insanity
And as she clumsily approached from behind
He moved quick to his left
And the chase was on
Every move was caught last second
by his devilish grin
He made it into his hole in record time
and he stared at the poor old bat
Searching for him in the darkness
As he squeaked away

I used to tell you
things would be different now
They weren't
I used to tell myself
you would be there for me
Through the moments of certain demise
And when we sat up on our clouds of drifting smoke
You weren't
I held my breath
I waited for it to come down to this?
I stared into a fire that threatened
to burn down the whole world
or simply sputter ash till it put itself out
You once help me so close
That the comfort was everlasting
I made promises I wouldn't keep
My soul threatened to be captured
by the forced that surrounded me
But sometimes things need to happen
In order for us
to see a glimmer of light
in a night with no moon