In the foxholes
Of my childhood plight
I prayed and prayed
With all my might
Praying to be forgiven
For the imperfections
Of life
Yet these were merely
The symptoms
Of an ideology
Of either black
Or definitely white

With the rudimentary
Truths concealed
Those miracles
Seem so **** real
I could never lose
My faith
In that childhood
Holding place

When the years pass
In deep thought
Ultimate conclusions
Result

Each of us
An eye
From different views
Allegiance forged
In the comfort of norm
Evolutionary rules
Oh how I miss you
Invisible spirit being
Oh my contemporary
Youth...

For her I played a song of lust
It still haunts me across the years
Caught between severed ties of trust
Like an image between two mirrors

I see her eyes they never change
They still see straight through my soul
She draws me in her vicious game
Such a familiar repeting role

An echo on some distant wind
She draws me back for more
I write a dozen songs to mend
Still my heart's an open sore

The pattern is our worlds collide
They we go our separate ways
Across a sea of inconsistent lies
We ride on different waves

I've seen it
I've touched it
I've held it in mind
I lingered in that cave
And left the world behind

Until it occurs to me
That  living was the goal
To experience every bit
Of pain and pleasure
As I suffer growing old

And so I gather happiness
And store it in my soul
Right above my sadness
And a handful of woes...

Shed some light
And cancel all
The dark day's dawning
Hold the rain
Know that without you
I'll be drowning

Write it down
Burn it in
The sacred cauldron
Touch the gods
Hold the gate
The angel's calling

Touch my heart
Dreams expire
Lay beside me
Warm and tired

Sounds of laughter
Echoes wide
Lost in ether
Eccentric minds

Taunted by unseen forces
I am powerless to extremes
Why shall I be forsaken
In my lucid lover’s dream?

In cognitive slumber
I live a life of grief
I play the easy plunder
And await my special thief...

I see our world
Through enlightened eyes
I know my heart is not divine
The paths of love
Tear through the mind...

Chasing her, I dread the voice
That wakes me when I tire
Beckoning me to pace myself
And seek unknown desires...

The trespasses of one’s heart
Are far beyond the soul
Thus ‘tis the larger part
That I may never know

I know your out there
I can feel your presence!
"Your life force is very special to us"
Your consciousness shines
Brighter than the multitudes!

Your poetry is a conscious flow
You’re resonating
With the music of the spheres
You are firmly connected
There a good reason
That we are all here!

🙏
We know you're there
You're not alone
It time to post another poem!

The largest mass ****** machine that ever existed!
We make a profit off of death!

This poison
She has me on
Black magic spell
Now be gone
Return the Poet
To his pen
Dancing fire
White candle
Mend!!!!

I don't always mean
These words I say
Nor these things I recklessly do
In the pitch dark of night
I suddenly awake
And frantically reach for you
Somehow you're still here
Then I realize my greatest fear
To be alone in this broken world
A single man without a girl
So I must admit
I need your love
Even though
I abhorred the crutch
Nothing is as it's suppose to be
Thank  god
For cursing me!
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Beneath the surface my humility dwell
In holes leading straight to hell
With love deeper than the ocean floor
For that special someone I once adored

Imagine black or consuming white
An emptiness that's filled with night
An endless yearning for all that's left
A mirror image of all regrets

Accelerating particles
As thoughts turn to waves
Quickly materializing
Then fading to gray
...

My cheating heart
   Tried and rebuked
Untamed hunger
Bearing raw fruit
Bewares these eyes
That pierce through the soul
Seeking out cheaters
Somehow they know
He'll never suspect
They'll never roll
No need to fear
Just let your'self go
Only a cheater really knows
..................................................

I write from my heart
Whenever it bleeds
While running through the fires
Under my feet

I carry the guilt
That wakes you in the night
I could never back down
From a losing fight

I take for granted
The setting sun
I believe we'll see
A brighter one!

The day shall shine
Upon lost souls
I write from my heart
Because I know!
......

Is it the riddle
Is it the rhyme
Is it the rhythm
As words unwind

Flavor to taste
Rewritten
Erased
Paragraphs
Down
Rabbit hole
Caught
In a chase

The answer
For me
Is this
Emotional
Chemistry
It signals
My heart
To set
My soul
Free...

If I gave myself to you
My heart would burn
First greens then blues
I'd forget myself
And lose my truth
If I put my spell on you

If I burnt
   Forevermore
In exchange for
The love of my lover
Could my heart burn on in rain
In a thirst for wrong
Who can maintain?

If I turned my sights on you
And set my demon loose
The devour'er of flesh
There would be nothing of me left

If I left her love far behind
In the whispers of my rhyme
To crash your shores
To release my core
The lust would rip
My mind too sore

So in silence I remain
Behind these desperate eyes
My last  refrain
....


   ...

  


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Twisted figures in the pines
Creates distortions in my mind
Flip the switch close the blinds
Roaming spirits trapped in time

Distorted figures in my mirror
Creepy crawlies where I stare
Black magic residue rips the veil
Unruly realms, so strange as hell

I see them mostly in the day
When the breezy shadows begin to sway
Exposing figures with watching eyes
As if they can see inside my mind
...

Climb, push
Get the hell up!
Don't let these words
Get stuck in your ****!

We read and write poem's
  While these aesthetic bones
Are of knowing
The lawn needs mowing

We dream, ***** and pray
The prose slowly change
But the poetic heart's
Keeps flowing!

I let my love
lead me down
these dark and dreary paths…
I let my light
shine beyond
the gathering karmic wrath…

Take a breath
hold it long
clear your conscience
of society’s wrong’s!

Our universe is like a bolt of lightning
Suspended between
A negative and positive force
The past that connects the future
The conductor is intelligence
Conscious energy
Ever flowing

Unfortunately faster than we can think
So it appears our world is on the brinks
Yet beyond all worry and fear
Our energy is pure

Resilient
The poets heart
Words we use
Turning pain to art

Chronic stress
A syndrome no less
Our muses behold
The Mother's breast

Fight or flight
Sympathetic states
We resolve upon
Our creative slates

Breaking through
Rising above
Poetry becomes our strongest drug

When the fever flares
Word are but aspirin
And the poem becomes our cure
An observation I made while
living here,

on HP!

Come on everybody
Heed my words
We're all going to get
Our deserves
Change in the weather
It's getting cold
Human suffering
Is a bleeding soul
Open the boarders
Let them in!
Please, I beg you
We can't afford
Anymore sins...

Beliefs
Effect areas
Of our intelligence  
That sould otherwise
Contemplate logically

Waiting for
Miracles
Impossibly real
Stuck in caves
Where kindness
And fear
Come together
And ****

More than an image
The sky outside
Turn around
And run for the real life!

Her eyes are kind her heart is warm
She is a Rose, I am a Thorn
We catch and ride the wild steed
I’m so alive and she’s so free

In the gazebo we dance until dawn
Our bodies lay naked out on the lawn
Completely fulfilled and finally whole
I have no intention of her letting go

Wheels are turning my heart is yearning
A lust for life subconsciously burning
I breathe too deep and the dream is lost
I start the day with a secret thought

Perhaps she was fictional beyond conclusion
A kaleidoscope of colors, a beautiful delusion
If only to awake and find her near
Instead I sleep and gasp for air...

Here I am
Did you miss me?
You can’t get rid
Of what we all need
I am your hollow
Beneath your shallow
Nonexistent invisibly

I am with you
Behind the curtains
Within the wood
The fire set free

I am your sorrow
Awaiting tomorrow
I am the love
The heaven you seek

I am indeed
Your
Poet Freak!

In suffocation
I gasp for light
I've been far too long
In the dead of night
All that I've longed for
Choked from my sight

Shadows  dance
Shallow breath
Alone I fear
The dreaded death

Who knows not
This stormy
Insecure
Gut knot

We lie
To the devils
To our lovers
To ourselves
Knowing not
What the gut knot
   Is even about...



...

Life is but a day
That death falls upon
Eternity, an endless river
Uncertainty, a beautiful swan
Shall we meet our fate's
   And gallantly swim on...

Hope can be lost
When one bleeds alone
A prison cell of failing flesh
Often host a heart of gold
I can feel the weight of life
You carry on your wings
In every word and thought
You write
All the beauty that you bring

So here I write a simple spell
An energy surge I'll send
Life is like a candle
Blowing in the wind
.....

Rivers of love flow from her letters
I bathe in her words such beautiful weather
All that I am and all that’s to come
I promise her love, my living life sum

She appeals to my senses like a basket of flowers
Love raining down like a gentle spring shower
A star in the night just south of the sky
A stairway to Eden in her sparkling eyes

The sweetness of honey, the dew of the mist
The warmth of the noon sun found in her kiss
She’s an early spring thaw, she’s a midsummer night
She’s a fresh autumn breeze and a wintry delight

To the innocent she’s a princess who guides and protects
To the broken she’s a maid who cleans up the mess
To the fallen she’s an angel forgiving all sins
Her mercy is proven, her compassion no end

She’s all of these things and so much more
She’s obviously the one that I adore...

I am not my story
the narrator past
obviously his suffering
was never mean to last

no one bullied me
they helped me forged a man
into a lover of life
a healer of the land

I have no regrets
no blame to invest
I’d actually like to thank
the universe for this test

we didn’t come from our parents
we were only passing through
I’d like to thank them both
for the hell that they once knew

I am not a story
trapped within a book
I am a poet
the past is what it took!

When the waves
Crash over the shore
I won't be there anymore
When the sun
Falls out of the sky
I'm gonna learn to fly

Upon the silver lining
Of a wandering cloud
I'm gonna write real loud
Across the midnight sky
It's time for me to fly

When the air and ground
Turn freezing cold
And you're worried
About your nose

I won't be there
To bring the blue skies back
I won't be there anymore...

I had already received
My allotted amount
Yet once again this crazy life
Has me down for the count
Trying to explain
Is the hardest thing
If it weren't for being poetic
I could never break free
Words are the only thing saving me!

Behind gothic eyes her shadows hide
Silence screams from deep inside
I try to ease her soul’s unrest
What went wrong I can only guess

Black and red yet dark as lies
Mascara runs, I know she cries
Cotton under a woolly fleece
She’s running from the dream police

Silver rings pierce her skin
But will she ever let me in …

Guitars distort an angry tune
A song of lovers surely doomed
Is she with me, she says yes
She says life's a ******* mess

I kiss her lace; she takes me home
Tonight she won’t bleed alone...

Self discipline
Builds self comfort
So you need not cry out
  When it hurts the worst...

What scientist thought to be a Big Bang
Was actually the main frame
Booting up!

Doom is my companion, he breathes me
Death is beyond my grasp, it taunts me
My love has gone missing without a trace
My spirit lost in an in-between place

Such is my pain, have I lost this game
Pictures fade, faces without names
Reality an infection growing in my brain
**** sweltering heat, I wish it would rain

This bed I have made on broken glass
Where nightmares linger, sweet dreams pass
This dread unending, this ache that dwells
I am but a ghost of a man in my own hell...

It’s the world I know
And the world I love
So I’m not giving up
I’m giving a shove

Into the universe I send my ❤️!

Wickedly evil!
This beautiful trip
Pretend not to notice
The tares that we've ripped
Buy another car, drink another beer
Hell! We can't even see Yemen from here!!
Saudi Arabia, indeed! one of our good friends
Global warming will be the deaths of us all
In our final bitter end!


"We need change"
Seriously!

This is a gift I brandish alone
My sheath is my passion
My sword is my poem
Intellectual aesthetic‘s
My centre of pleasure
My creativity flows on
This body is tethered

People can make me feel quite strange
They roll their eyes and shake their brains
Seldom are they on the same page
Where poetry flows
In an aesthetic array

But this is who we are
And there is no need to change
The expanding universe
Is calling our names
...................

Stub my toe
On her stump of coal
Aesthetics still in bloom
Wrought and ****
The old man's heart
Rewind, reload, resume

Distant and removed
Like the dark of moon
Yet her presence  
Never fades
In a parallel universe
Where paradise
Is given birth
To her rays
Lights and waves

The cycle stalls
As we search for a cause
Yet her's is the shadows of night
Although existential mysteries
May never be solved
Her dream
Is a quickening light...

Normality
A struggle
In the disturbance
Of my role
Dread
A hormone
Pumping through my soul
Please free me
Let my weary heart beat
Open up my mind
Let me flow my ink!
........

High in the forest trees
Summer spirits
   Ride the breeze...
Timeless souls
Beneath they gather
Summer hearts
   Waxing fatter...
Summer romance
Nature's desire
All of her children
   Drawn to the fire...
Something else
Is about to bloom
Underneath
   An Autumn Moon...

When we laugh
We forget ourselves
Resentful hearts
Collecting dust
On life's shelf
The shining of our souls
Fails to illuminate
The black still buried
In our pockets
In time care will fade back to gray
If you recall
You lost me somewhere along the way
Silence overtakes me as the song ends
Soon enough
Restless heart's shall grow resentful
Once again...

It's time to write
To write indeed
A poetic mind
Need's to feed
It's time to conjure
Something new
Something beautiful
Something true
From far above
Or bitter below
It's time to let
Your feelings flow

Paint your picture
Be perceived
The prose, the laughs
The miseries
It's time to write
So take the lead
Write it down
So you can breathe



Besides...
We need something to read!

So long ago the unresolved conflict
Her pain that makes my bomb tic
The guilty demon wakes within
As I revisit my shame again

Funny that you believe
I walked away and never grieved
I wish such could be true
In these nights I dream of you

Morals that itch beyond a scratch
Dream which summon my demons back
The unforgiven can never rest
Perhaps you dream, in peace I guess

Larger than life
The paths we make
The voices we follow
The positions we take

Politics and religion
Impact our minds
Poetic prisons
Hearts on the line

Coming and going
Haunting like ghosts
So many issues
We dare to approach

Each of us
A means to an end
Blinding lights
Burning dim

On into tomorrow
These torches we pass
Surely these fires
Were not meant to last...

I’m not a guru
nor a teacher
I’m only a light
when you’re feeling
dark and cold!

They like to forget
What should be remembered
But they remember
What you would like to forget
The people’s voice
Quite ignorant and uneducated
Their stereotypical ways
Haven’t caught up to them yet

Bigotry will live on
Into the future
Hatred
An incurable cancer
Merciless apathy toward
The aliens and freaks among us
Few ask questions
Even fewer seek an answer...

Perhaps I prefer to play the ghost
To only be seen by the ones
I love the most
To limit the stress
Of life’s bumpy roads
I won’t let bad take its toll.

(But that’s not how I use to roll)

Life’s beauty fulfills my quest
A peaceful life is my success
There is no sense in worrying
Simply stay out from under the gun
If there’s nothing chasing us
There’s no need to run.

Once again the light of day shines forth
and the darkness of dreams subside
Sober thoughts embrace the moment
As I reach for my stable lost mind

Oh to be young again whisper my inner child
To deprive this nature of life so vile
As the thought slips away I sadly smile
I ponder the day, so many more miles

To be with you my body sustains
To share but a moment a fire remains
Intact are the memories imprinted on our soul
Into the nether our spirits shall flow...

Temporarily permanent
This limited eternity
One way or another
We surely won
Some lottery
A chance
To live
To love
To be
Only death
Can set souls free
Free from the spell
Of this existential dream
...