Its amazing the changes that happen
When you find in another new passion
Which leads you to breakthrough old blocks
The serene satisfaction can cause shocks
Reverberating through your body
Fixing ideas that were just plain shoddy
Developed from fear of being alone
Thoughts of romance dating back to Köln
But new life springs from inside me
Freedom and independence feeling likely
Another one bites the dust, one might say
But I left them in the dust that day
Moving on is such a vague process
People acting like its some contest
But I know im in it for recovery
Its all about my own rediscovery
Its easier to find yourself
when you stop looking somewhere else
Most platitudes can be hard to apply
Not me, ready to use these words to fly

I don't want kids
But sometimes I fantasize about being a parent...
So I could treat my child in ways my mother never could.
But what I think I really want
Is to go back
And parent myself

Freedom from your ties
I have silenced those lies
in my head from your attempts
to convince me I'm the bad guy
It's been nearly 2 years
Yet on and off I yearned
To hear your voice say many things
For the closure it could bring
But I got it for myself
my heart I did weld
back together all on my own
For so much I have grown
Keep Moving Forward
I used to be so tortured
But I left behind your baggage
Now I can take advantage
Of my new mind and body
No longer foggy
The rain has passed
Relaxed, enhanced, I have finally advanced.

I'm saying goodbye
trying to be the good guy
Don't want or need you to feel obligated
all it leads to is us both being frustrated
Casting doubt upon me
trust is broken, can't you see?
You tried to say it wasn't so
but your silence was the final blow
All this for them?
Was it worth it in the end?
You and I both know the truth
You never needed to sleuth.
But before you can cast me aside
Even though you know they lied
I will just walk away
With the weight of your betray.
Its okay though, its nothing new
Just more pain to accrue
Crushing, the weight so much to bear
I try not to think about what it fair.
It is what it is, I do what I must
Even if I'm filled with distrust.
With myself and with you.
But what else can I do?
Left with no choice
Your silence echoed in your voice.