"With an extra bit of “umph”
I'm not your average ordinary.
It may seem a lie but it's the truth
I'm out this world I'm otherworldly
Not to boast but when you step
Into my world it's rather unique
Something different bout the
Lifestyle like an extra heartbeat.
With a flare of flamboyant style
I'm quite the oddity.
Im rough with no fear of getting ***** with work and other things
That I've been created for.
And the mindset of disregard for
What average ppl think
Sets me apart for more
Than what the world believes
Should be me at the core.
I'm ever changing, ever growing,
I'm not one for bore.
Growing in my beliefs,
My person, my musicality.
And I'd rather share my
Eccentricness for others to see.
That truly, in all the world,
(Thank God) there's none like me. "

Welcome to my airspace.
How do you like the way my lightning
Strikes your weathervane?
The way my thoughts rain down
On your rocket ship?
The way the moonlight hits your skin
When the clouds clear
And you've landed on my mindscape.
Do you like the way my words gravitate
To you and wrap you in flames?

All I see is double vision.
Tears in her eyes, anger in mine
From my wrong decision.
How do I **** up a good thing
And set out to fix it?
I've got no answers to my thousand
Thoughts and thousand questions.
I've got no solutions,
So my thinking is there's
No remission.
Dear God up in heaven.
I did what I did to deserve this.
But look down at your servant with
Grace,
Show me the light at the end of this
Dark place
Cause there ain't no satiate
Where I'm at.
Had a good thing,
A good woman from my dreams
And I've undone that.
I'd give my life to have her back.
And I mean every word
When I say that...
Let your will be done
Even if it is this
Situation.
God.
I don't know how
To keep going.
Cue the insomnia
Dead heart, dead mind
And depression.
She brought me a better life.
And I know it's in the past
But that one time...
I
.
.
.
Know I did wrong and this has
Got to be payback.
Truth comes to light
Tho I didn't hide,
And now it's like a flashback.
Never again and I swear that.
Never again will I do that.
God. Never have I ever prayed this hard.
You gave me the other half to my heart.
And I want to asked this in Jesus name
Please don't take her away.

To Love and be loved,
I learned first from Jehovah.
And then, after much learning and preparation,
He sent me you and vice versa.
To love, and be loved.

Do you mind if I stick around?
I'm hungry for a little more
of your funky lovely sound,
and good music like yours
Just isn't to be found.
Can I get an Encore?

Bittersweet.
I share a smile and a laugh, all the while
Hiding an eerie pain inside,
Where deep down melancholy abides.
But then again I know the reason why,
Food has lost its taste
And I can't sleep at night.
I know the reason for the sadness,
Why I choose to waste away
Because I can't stand this,
Bittersweet one-sided romance.

I awake
Having not slept
As the moon sets,
Soft light nestled
Like warmth and draped
Over your curves.

My sons you have birthed
And patiently you've waited
For my slowly unraveling heart.

I am inwardly old and slow with these things and so you walk, not run with me.
Together
We reside in a moment
Of soft breaths and peace.

Should I not work till death creaks
In my bones to provide you
A mirror of heavens peace
Here with me?

I love for you to listen
as I play my heart strings.
A harpist for your loveless
nights of serenity.
Notes soft and peaceful I lay
pleasantly upon your ears.
Ever-present they stay
on the surface of your mind.

T'is for you that I am
a ethereal musician.
This is the role that I,
Forever tied to your wishes,
play in the cut of your life.

I felt hot desire.
For a split second
Time stopped the moment.
All motion paused
As though the room had reached 0° Kelvin
All eyes, every focus locked,
Every being in awe
Of the grandeurous woman
Stepping in from the cold.
Shall I light her fire?

For a moment I pause.
Ink from this broken pen
Held ‘tween my fingers bleeds
And stains into my skin.
Now the fateful thought,
That the pen is reminiscent
Of this poets heart akin a wingless
butterfly. My soul that cannot fly.

The highlights of my summers
Were the streetlights coming on
and having to come sit on
the porch or go inside while
my big brothers and sister got to run around.
getting in the big van and watching the trees, the farms,
the rivers, clouds, and the stars,
pass by as we traveled. Playing games and playing games
with my siblings till we got too tired to keep going.
Staring into the sun to see who'd blink first.
Falling asleep and waking up somewhere else.
sword fights with sticks, wrestling matches...
foot racing, bike racing, calling out eachtime
biplanes or blimps passed overhead in the blue skies.
Running in the warm rains of sudden showers,
watching lightning flicker overhead and counting the seconds
it took for the thunder to reach our ears to see just how far away the storm was.
Eating dinners that left me stuffed.
Feeding sugar to ants by pouring the disaccharide
on ant hills and watching the ants take each granule
back down into their homes.
Chasing down ladybugs and putting them on weeds
filled with aphids to watch the red beetles feed.
Capturing lightning bugs, jumping high to reach them
as before they could float out of reach.
Laying in bed in the middle of night to finish a book
so I could talk about it to my older brothers and pass it on to my younger brother.
Feeding the dogs and having to clean up after they'd made a mess.
Getting ****** at my "mean" older siblings.
Trying to talk to my crush, and showing off when
it came to playing sports.
My summer was playing football game after football game,
getting hit hard, and tackling as hard as my scrawny body could.
Sleeping on the top bunk because I loved the summer heat.
Eating popsicles  and Italian ice and sharing with the neighborhood kids cause we had more than enough.
Sneaking to the corner store to buy bubbaloos,
chips, pop, and honeybuns with saved up chump change.
Visiting cousins, and celebrating birthday after birthday.
Yea, those were the good days.
The worlds falling apart now right before our eyes
and I just remember those good golden times.
I haven't seen a monarch butterfly
in more than a few years and they used to come every summer
in the thousands.

I'm slowly but surely
Stepping out of your life,
Yes I'm omitting you from mine.
So when the door closes softly
You won't even notice the goodbye
Until you wonder "why?".

It's not so much her smile
As the process of producing
That special curve upon
Her lips
The makes me fall in love
Again and again.

We've all this stolen time
And I won't let it slip
through fingertips
that tremble in
excitement.
And all this love
ready to burst into flame,
to set us to flame, to burn passion
into permanence like constellations.

Within the small seconds of
somatic experience betwixt us
A thousand stars ignite
In supernovas across my mind.
From the simple grazing
Of my skin against yours
Neurons begin firing beyond light speed
My hearts bpm rising rapidly.
Can you feel the beat?
The music that is your voice entices me.
The euphoria that is your scent sets my mind free.
The galaxy hidden with your eyes has enraptured
My soul. I’m drawn in by my curiosity.
Ah…
When we embrace can you feel the heat?
When we lock lips I fall deep
and hard into you.
I find myself lost in your space,
I am locked into your gravity.
Following the flow of your ambient
presence with it’s addicting uniqueness.
You step into my life and demand
all attention.
In the battle to keep from addiction
I lose to my heart, my mind, my body.
I am yours. Yes, have all of me.

I'm melancholic...
And no, I don't want
To talk about it.
I'm not depressed,
Just on the borderline
Of dispirited and stressed.
But I'm not talking about it.
Not gonna talk about the
Why's and how's of my feelings
The emotions with which I'm dealing
The causes that've left me reeling
And despondent.
No, I don't want to speak on it.
So leave it be.
walk away from the topic
And let me be
Alone with the thoughts
I shouldn't think.
Leave me alone to my
Midnight dreary
Where I lay awake weary
And alone with my query's.
No I don't want to talk about it.
But the irony is that these words
Have already given away my feelings.

While staring at the distant stars,
We forget the beauty of,
And our necessity,
For the Sun.

My dear friend,
You are a Queen
Don't ever forget that ****.
Chin up, eyes forward,
Head held high, confident.
These boys be stressin
Don't know what they lookin
For.
Don't let them ruin your starlight
Love, cause you deserve more.

You're a Queen
Full blown royal regality
That's the reality.
Your court's full of Jesters
Tryina take
While you wait
And search for your King.

You're a Queen;
Inside and out, you're beautiful,
Sweet, kind, strong, and gentle.
So you gotta beware these
Kids tryina **** up your mental.
They wear fools gold crowns
You're young so don't let
Them take you off your seat.
Save your tears for that one
Who'll know what it means
To respect, adore, and love you
In his full capicity cause he
Know's you deserve to know
You can trust him with your heart.
You're a Queen, love,
Don't let these jokers tear you apart.