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 Mar 2018 Danial John
Mama earth
Filled with such
                             sorrow
    No longer need time to
                                             Borrow
Just waiting on
                           Tomorrow
Stealing my work is not worth your life
If you are married or in love
Valentine’s Day comes from Cupid, angles up above
Deliveries to work are gifts of candy and flowers
Evening plans, a romantic candlelit dinner for hours
Followed by hugs and endless kisses
And Many sweet untold wishes

However if you are alone or single
This day is an empty heart that sadly tingles
One by One the coworkers receive their deliveries
Their glances of pity added to my miseries
Their words of sympathy only deepened the pain  
Hoping for the day to end before I go insane

A day rubbed in my face
Now lonely bitterness and sadness are my grace
Hurtful memories of Old verse New
Dinner for One instead of Two
No, I do not like Valentine’s Day
I wish it would Please, just go away

There was a time when I too received deliveries
Before the days of now and my miseries
The man I loved did not come home
I spent Valentine’s Day starring out the window alone
I cried myself to sleep and thought,Life
could not be more bleak, for a new young wife

He came home after a night at the bar
He had bought flowers yet left them in the car
The next day when I awoke
Not a word between us, we spoke

The dozen once beautiful long stemmed roses had wilted
Like our love empty and jilted
I silently took a pair of scissors from the drawer by the bed
Cutting the roses One by One at the base of the bulb head
My husband said nothing only shook his head in shame
Silently, I set down the scissors without placing blame

I made it clear I never want roses on this day
We never spoke of it, what is the point anyway
Valentine’s Day is a memory rubbed in my face
Now lonely bitterness and sadness are my grace
No, I do not like Valentine’s Day
I wish it would Please, just go away
However 36 years today
We are still together to my mismay
Going to the bar with the guys for just one drink are famous last words when you are a newly married man of course I didn’t know were he was the was his story
At the age of 17
I graduated high school
The fast track for college
To become a Doctor  
Next logical step; marriage  
had a child at the age 19
age 21 divorced
I was never going to get married EVER again
age 23 I met a man
I met him in a bar
 I did not give them my phone number
but he listened intently
the next day he showed up at my work
I thought he wanted my parking spot
I said I’m not leaving  not recognizing him
I was eating my lunch in my car how pathetic
since he couldn’t take me to lunch
he offered to take me to dinner
from that day on
we were together every day
The third day
he told me he love me
After one week
we were going out to lunch
he said he had a really great idea
I thought he was referring to
where we were going to eat
he paused was quiet
I said that sounds great
He cleared his throat and said
Will you marry me
Did I mentioned he was 13 years older(36)
I said the first thing that came to mind
are you (f word)  kidding me
I don’t even know you
but then when I looked at him
I realized he were serious
I told him ask he again
in a year
Two weeks before one year
He was down on one knee
Now? he grinned
He just knew
I rationalized
If I have ten good years
That would be better then most
36 years later
Still together
So much has changed
Do you ever look In the mirror and wonder
who is that
what happened to me
My dreams, desires and goals,
Who I wanted to be When I grew up
I am in the winter
Of my discontent
By most accounts I had a good life I have weathered every storm
I am entering  old age I’m no longer advenseable That scares me
 Feb 2018 Danial John
Jinxed
I wonder do you feel my gaze?
Do you notice my presence when I'm near? Do you even notice that I'm there?
I feel that you do
but I feel like you're scared
of what I'm not sure
maybe there's some history there
Maybe I can calm your soul with some soothing words
some passing gestures
little fancies that can grab your attention towards my advances
You're scared
I'm scared
It's a continuous cycle of cat and mouse and I'm not sure if I'll ever catch you
I tried to run away
Thinking it would be gone in a day.
But it's not as simple as ABC,
I know now it will always haunt me.

Running is no response
For what the heart really wants.
Not some kind of vacation,
But true, blatant rehabilitation.

Life is the sum of your decisions
And all that your mind envisions.
So the hard road is to choose
To no longer walk in those shoes.

To step out and rise above,
Refusing to give up on the idea of love.
It make take years on end
For those wounds to truly mend.

However, the scars left behind
Will always be there to remind
That Love Alone is Worth the Fight
And that dawn always follows the darkest night.

So I will left failure be my North Star,
Even if it leads to another scar.
Not even a thousand wounds could stop me
From living the life that I dream.
Merciless
Pitiless
Selfish
And
Inconsiderate

Egotistical
Egocentrical
Self-absorbed
And
Ignorant

Thank you
For showing me
Exactly what I never want to be

We are complete opposites -
There's such a big difference
Between you and me!

By Lady R.F. (C)2018
There's a lesson to be learned in everyone and everything.  Good and bad.
Grateful still. Thank you, to all my teachers.
A blessing in everything!
 Feb 2018 Danial John
Andrew Ewen
The mind is the greatest obstacle that stands between us and happiness.
 Feb 2018 Danial John
Andrew Ewen
It took me sinking to rock bottom, to truly appreciate some of the simple beauty in life that we may sometimes take for granted.
Like a friend who supports you, appreciates you and is there for you in the tough times.
They are the people that make life that little bit easier and that bit more enjoyable. Keep them close and always return the favour.
 Feb 2018 Danial John
Mama earth
Increased power every hour
Royal tower
Flourishing beautiful flower
A love shower
-Brooke Alison Ilene Anselment ©️®️
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