I miss your goodmorning messages ending with ten Xs

I miss the days when we can just love carelessly and not think about what might happen.

Im tired of the unreciprocated love and affection
The constant worry of uncertainty where we stand with someone
Tired of losing sleep thinking if the one you fell for is actually thinking of  you.
Im tired of one way relationships
Tired of the lying, deception and getting used.
Im tired of being in and out of toxic relationships
Tired of people that are still secretly into their exes
Im tired of the lack of communication
Tired of the callousness
Im tired of the lack of effort to understand
Tired of being left alone when you need someone the most.
Im just...


Tired

Without seeing you
Puts a notch in my heart.
The days linger
The nights colder
But it barely means you're drifting
Drifting away from my heart
Because even if you aren't with me
Its unequivocal that you're in my heart
And that's where you'll rest.
Eventhough the seasons may turn
The tides may waver
My love for you will remain eternal.


'Isang tanging pag-ibig'

Never will i ever taste the sweetness of fruits
After i have tasted your lips.
Never will i ever fear what lies in the shadows
After you lit up my world.
Never will i ever feel the glacial winter breeze
After you warmed my soul.
And never will i ever find a better partner
After you came into my life.

I swear i've clawed myself out of here before
But somehow i manage to go back
The deep and endless void that is my mind
I always look out
There's nothing here but memories
Memories of past failed loves
And then theres a snippet of us
That moment when we first met
Suddenly, im jubilant
Just watching us
My beam of salvation

Do I still have your heart?
Alot of the times i wonder
Your voice sounds diminished
Your words are of surrender.
If everything turns sideways
And messaging decreases
Will you still be by my side
When the music finally ceases?

I miss seeing the way you sort of scrunch your face
Moments before my lips touches the tip of you nose.

First, we must learn how to dance in the rain
For us to truly appreciate the beauty of sunshine.