Sorry I am not perfect.
Sorry I cut.
Sorry I break my promises.
Sorry I want to give up.
Sorry I want to die.
Sorry I want to **** myself.
Sorry I hide my tears.
Sorry I lie and say I am fine.
Sorry I punish you with my emotions.

It hurts the most
When the person
That made you feel wanted yesterday
Made you feel so unwanted today.

You broke my heart and made me cry.
You hurt me so much and I don't even know why.
I loved you more than I loved anyone else.
Now I have no idea how to get out of this mess.
Please come back to me and don't let go.
I promise to work harder this time and it will show.
I will do all it takes to make you happy and see your smile.
I will get you back, even if I have to go to exile.

I write everytime you cross my mind
I write everytime I miss you
I write everytime I cant talk to you
I write everytime I want to forget you
I write everytime I want to let go of you
I wonder if I ll ever stop writing

I love lots of things.
I love the literature club.
I love reading.
I love manga.
And i love you!
I love reading together.
I love making cupcakes with you.
The way Monika looks at you breaks my heart.
It makes me feel alone.
It makes me want you more.
It makes me miss you more.
Yuri takes you away.
But it was our time to play.
Play with me.
Play with me.
Play with me.
Play with me.
Play with me.
Play with me.
Play with me.
Play with me.
PLAY WITH ME!!!
******* Monikammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Troubled, Crying, Red, eyes
The bottle containing
Tablets
The tablets help
Tireless exhaustion knocks the bottle
Tiny white dots
Tick away on a white surface
Transparent to my vision
Too many to count
Try to close my eyelids
To rest interminably
Two, four, eleven,
Twenty is needed.

Rays of streaming light,
Heat bouncing off ocean waves.
Blue water shimmers.

Do you not see your greatness-
          Your beauty, that radiates from your smile?
Do you not understand that others look at you
          and see far deeper than you can with a mirror?
I know you don't think much of yourself,
         and I know you don't believe others kindness,
But there are people who think the world of you;
          so the next time you feel the doubt, the uncertainty
          weighing you down,
Remember:
          my belief in you exceeds the stars.

Nobody tells you
it is okay to call yourself beautiful
it is okay to smile at mirrors
and it is perfectly fine
to say your own eyes are pretty

it is wonderful to love your waist
and your legs
regardless of their size
and you are not conceited
if you use your fingers to list
everything you’re good at
rather than point
at all your own flaws

you can acknowledge you’re smart
and that you will go places
and you will be someone
greater than your mistakes

you can’t always expect
other people to believe in yourself
for you