silence with an echoe displacing
lightning hit the scene
cherries, barely change her ****** taste
all that's left cannot be seen

her fingers scratch my skin
a scene from beauty and the beast
my appetite
monstrous
satisfy my every need my beauty queen
its only me
and the echoe in between

her eyes like diaries
they tell me everything
I believe in love and memory
cemetarys andevery angel
death and heaven maybe this time let it be
my heart her token prize
her cage a rusted old
antiquity
a memory of love and lust
and whats in between
when angels arrest your heart
and demons learn how to forgive

Unloaded ammunition
Heavy chested.
Tiny breast's which
Sum up my attraction
To equipment in the weight
Of 8 inches
So thick that its 15 lbs of dickage.
Rummage through the wreckage
*** I'm dripping
With liquid that paints
My hairy saggy skin
Too lazy to accomplish
A complex to change that ****
Fuvk where's Popeyes spinach
Hold my coke straw for a second.

Back for my intentions
Suspension in this prison
My bodys mortal sadness
Slipping
Into madness
With addiction counting minutes
AND shattered pain
Like obliterated slivered  glass and
The hourglass is sand
In abyss of stillness In my hand" its
Crammed in my subconscious
*** I'm at the finish lap.
Figured out the silly laugh
Pretending I'm accepting that
When my insides
Scream jo your still a man
And I can't shake that fact.
God breaks my back.
My face is cracked
My shape is racked
And God makes me his lady and.
Part of me was clueless.
While playing rain man
Mister braniac.
Its a shady act
My feet are big.
Like Shaq. How is God
Going to change all that
Without collapsing from
The pain and that....
**** sakes.
I made that crop can't take it back
Thank God for that
*** id chicken out
No escape. Was a safety plan
Oh **** let's get it than

I'm harboring within myself
My secret demons keep
My little letters
Crimson members
Shed the winter fleece
Obituary cemetery
Yeah We rarely speak
Its ******* so *******
Embarrassing...
Aware it's me. Apparently.
The bed we shares
Is meant to be his destiny.
And heaven. Slay some demons
*** he blesses me with
Everything
Sentient attraction
endeavoring hrough  centuries
With medicine.
Weapons and
And his bed of heavens destiny.

I'm in this mode of
Get with all creation.
Swear to God so crazy
******
But I'm always praying.
art of all creation
Sharply lifted
...made with 60
Of the darkest...
parts of Satan.
But God im always praying...

Heaven knows you
My girl dont say those words.
Listen to the willow tree.
My little mini me..
Have the courage
The real inner me
And set your heavens free

Its like a little message
That I try to silence
His code of metal violence
Slow to find it...
Broken
Slow to bind it
Choke the hope of kindness.
Rope of smoke
And lines which
Fill my nose with highness
Searching those
Like minded. Close to blindness
In a vote of silence.
I show in . The rose
Which grows in dryness
*** the other roses
Sold as priceless.
So you buy which
Knows farmers diet.
Mine knows darker climate
Final eyes that
Shine like fire giants...
You should *******  try it...

Heaven knows you
My girl dont say those words.
Listen to the willow tree.
My little mini me..
Have the courage
The real inner me
And set your heavens free

Baby boy shed the sheepskin
Find peace in
Final resting place.
Heavens gate. Tender sleep....
Send me down
Round the babies keep
And let her sleep
Tenderly.
Render me. The center
Of your memory
Forsake me not
I will Take my shot

Please *******  fail me not.

I inherited  the atmosphere
So really thanks alot.
But poison is in plume
So doom
Is on the breaking talk.
Pavement talks
Wait alot
For change....
Or at least
To ******* . take a shot.

Heaven knows you
My girl dont say those words.
Listen to the willow tree.
My little mini me..
Have the courage
The real inner me
And set your heavens free

Listen to the gender texts you got me twisted... God please listen..
I've been caught with in it...
Product of a body prison....
Thats rotten *** I want it fixed and....
Sway because I'm straying from
The context of a modest Christmas
....
Sloppiness or godessness comes creeping in the toxic mess
Of voices in my haunted head....
Leaving me as opaque as my
Optic lens.. the view of...
Modern pharma stock of meds....
That get flocks of oxytocin heads
To order ******* lots of them....
While some prepare apocalypse...
I'm stuck here in a toxic tonic that involves lots of men... drugs... and chronic dread.... but lots of sentiment....of sweat in bed
Will conquer every chopping block that wants my neck....

Alleviate these urges.
I'm certain of one thing
Something hurts me.
And its more than money
****** urgency
But its numbing.
Something
Is coming
And it hunts me
Like juan in the drug store
my picture on a
touch screen...
Silenced pistol.
Plastic wrap. And bleach.
To keep his truck clean.
He wants me.
Mercy like rehearsal.
With the big show
Never coming.
Wrestlemania
The big show certainly coming
But its Caine that runs
These veins.
My nasal passage. Humming.
Like a bird.
My stomach buzzing.
Bee the reason.
I make an impact. Hit hard
Like its a drum beat.
Dragon breath
My inferno  clumsy
Stumbling and
Dropping heat
Like fireball
To a drunk teen
Switch blade kinda change the flow.
It's funny how I play the role.
Like God is waiting patient
Just to break my nose
And turn my baby clothes
Into lady clothes.
Only shady knows.
Oh save it ***

I'm over the way I lie.
Deception is an icy debt.
I seem bent.
On life with your voice
Inside my head.
Its like I've bled.
And wept over things you've said
Kept untrue

A debt I've spent.
Tears never shed yet soon.
The bed your meant
To spend precious seconds.
After *** next to you
My ******* for you.
My neck and the rest
Invest in the clues
Is meant to detect.
Your every ****** move
In a fever of forever
Not yet but potentially soon

Correct me if I'm high on myself
My pious self
A dime against a dollar
Watch me coin a phrase and buy myself..
A diet helps
But minus auto correct.
I type bring pizza.
And she writes buy yourself.

I replied a dollar short 10 cents depri
Pennies for my thoughts cant buy the hope in which my wealth of honesty survived
So I try at wealth.
My moms 65 mill. In higher health
I just got told we all decide 500 thou.
To donate to charities
We find will help. And supply the help
I chose two churches
And a mosque when they invite me.
A sweat lodge
For the native version the creator
And ten sets of ******* for transitioning transgender teenagers
Wager implants
Cost ten racks.
You got nice racks.
My mom got me awesome major.
God made her an angel to provide me bread and milk and smokes
And save my *** from danger
And light my Hope's though my hope was nope.
She saved my life with love and words of spirit.
Near death. Shes wierd I tear up thinking of my fears in sure fire brick walls. Every time my pitfalls dissapeared *** she steered me clear.
Shes a heavenly body of love. Humble joy and great honest tall over powering awesomeness. Its aweful how much I was incompetent. And depended on her solidness. I'm imperfect. But yet an angel. *** she raised me to be faithful to the Angel's jesus god and strangers.
She prepared me for danger.
By allowing me to go anywhere in safety. The only angry thing I feel
When I think of how she raised me.
How could we ever know though
My brain was different
Than the type of equipment I had to **** with....
So I never got male attention. Or was cautious of assault. Or seduction
But my entire self though different.
Hardwired. By evolution.
To watch in fear but I pretended
And invented a persona to protect us.
He was born from hell.
And full of shelter that his stare was as deadly as a sinner is to selfish
Like eminem likes shellfish.
Like anna kendricks
Handles mandick
Like I like mayo sandwiches.
To get my thighs and *** thick
Like an oreo sandwich with me in between 2 massive black *****
The entire map led back to
A trap house.
With a bad mouse
Named stuart
Pumping up his bad mouth
I say put the fuckingbat down
You ******* *** clown
Your a bad mouth little
Bandit
Like disease belongs to ******* ***** rat mouth
Bring me black out
Bout to snap now
Lay the snack down
Steven Irvine talking crap now in the back ground but wont attack now
Tyler's a little class clown
News flash now
I'm massively turned on by your sisters perfe t *** now
Attack pow.
Doubt it smack my kids now
Never **** talk em.
But it's no time for *******
In this rumble. Blessed withfists that will split yourfucking wig now. Let's get down
I got a bottle of **** for lil jack.
Slsp the ***** out of your big mouth
Do let's get indignant with the fists now...
Dylan says hell make me pretty.
It's gone be ugly when we get down
Logan you must be dry asfuck *** my opposite is wet now.
Devils hood I'll get down like a war vet
In class action lawsuit with oxycontin. Low and out. And high in debt now.
No need to mention the rest

**** the head its ****** I'm thinking I'm the best now.
You know who you are. I love you too death.
Your actually the best now.
Dont let the rest down

Changing skin like snakes do.
You know I say some
**** that ain't true.
But here's the plain truth
U live in trumps America
If your different
They just hate you.
Diversity is necessary.
But it's rallies
They spread hate through
And claiming that
Its fake news.
While gay dudes
Get choked out
By all the straight dudes
******* hate fumes.
And he can **** you
Get away
By saying that **** ain't true
Black joggers
Get slaughtered.
Black injustice
Finally makes news.
The pandemic
Cure is lysol
Everybody this is
******* great news.
While trump
Goes after China
For re election
Fuckjng great move.
Cold War
Inscription ready.
Flee to Canada.
Well keep you safe dude.
Till than stay tuned
To a wavelength
That I slay througj

Sarcastic exemption
of a flaky perception
Based from confession
of realitys active. Ambition
In the pond of natural living
With ripples from
Instrumentals and pencil shavings
Making a difference
I make war paint from a lead base.
Head case...
Metal taste.. no ammunition gets silenced...
I'll talk violent for a second...
*** i get primal in consecutive sentences in rhyming...
I **** silence like whiskey
And speak my mind for a living
Seeing for blind ness...
And leaving Jesus on my chest peace
*** i really hate violence
No wishing.. you get it...
Apprehension is fatal...
Defy the great depression
In fact *** you pray to the bible
Dollars dont add up...
Its just a paper you make the American Bible...
Like dare to stand against dead presidents...
Like I dont care which ******* terror mode I go
I'm sure my soul will get heaven...
If God shows me to find home
*** i **** nothing but whiskey...
Mister... had so many sins
family dried when my eyes out
Cry till its cried out
And got protected by harder pressure
Than process of diamonds.
From coal. Like the..
Empty soul of the devil
Better get mind blown
And my boys rose pedal eyelids
And rhymes of a child's soul
I know this wise whiskey spoke
I heard a note.
I see I speak from seeing
Only what I know....
Thats my poem...
Hope you like it bro

Where do you stand.
Does your presence devide them
Do you lie
And decide. To not stand close holding on right
Beside them.
Uniting is difficult
Decide. Is everything you believe.
Is more than a line between
The people who
Remind you. Of hate. Or why.
Everything is always what you believe

Here I stand.
Love for the soul. To touch one
My eyes like dice. They need secret
Keep in gods house..
The sleep of sightless flight
As birds chirp and cheep.
Teaching the life left in me

That more becomes a man
When god returns what's his
To your willfull ownership
For it is far more his will
Than should anyman
Possess.
And may I be stripped of these blessings should I grow arrogant
In self will
That's the storm of
Tears cried of the heaven
That keeps me humble in the sun
That nourishes the seeds that I've planted.
And only to feel important
Is my flaw.
When so much love is given how could I not reciprocate.
The love of s world in trial of times
Unbecoming.
in bad need of redemption repair and salvation
So much good exists here
As long as we have each other. May god bless you on your journey friend
Praise the song of god bless
You

Why do we do these things???
We think small of ourselves
We cast ominous shadows on our dreams and ambitions
And hide in fear from the chance that we will ever truly be our real selves.
We limit ourselves
With statements made out of cowardice disguised as humility.
You'll never be good enough?
You'll never be loved?
You'll never find worth?
Every day another excuse. Another lie.
Another truth whispered in the dark for only our ears to recieve it.
These thoughts
Manifest into feelings
And take truth as actions.
For good or bad it's no consequence
Now it has happened.
Some feel guilt.
When guilt is not enough to inspire change. It becomes shame.
Shame is the idea that no longer are your actions bad
But you yourself are bad.
And so this now becomes a deep seated belief.
And as time passes. Our failures compound. Reaffirming these beliefs.
Whispering in the dark with only your ears to recieve it.
The kitchen becomes a place of duty
The songs left unsung
Become dust behind a picture frame
Of a photograph where you once
Smiled with the grace of a child
And now....
Just a memory....
Your scared....
Scared of so much and yet so little...
Yeah I think your funny...
******* hilarious....
*** you show me so much love.... love you may not even show yourselves...
You hide behind an excuse...
I may not be worthy?
Who gives a ****?
To fly requires years of falling.
To fish requires dedication...
To love requires patience
And to be yourself requires honesty...
Should you be a bad *** bird who can fly catch fish. Loves bird ***** and knows himself.
Than fox homie we should chill
Ya know light a spiff.
Drink some Gatorade...
Ya know... marvin Gaye and Aretha...
But in all honesty...
The truth to human reality...
Is it is constantly evolving.
What's true one day is irrelevant the next....
A new friend may invite a world of new tastes into your life
You may have never thought to try
Tastes and song and joy.
These will bring new emotions
And soon new behaviors
And eventually new beliefs
New stories you whisper to yourself in the dark...
And with each new friend
Comes a new you...
A warped view on what you thought was possible...
So in telling you this I tell you.
I have become all your friends
I have deeply. Hilariously. And profoundly impacted nearly every human being on this planet...
And some might not like it...
Some it hurts to have outside opinions
Or have their beliefs challenged
But those who hate gunna hate
**** em like 50 cent and Mary Jane
I gotta baby by aman
I can't stand all the drama
Call the cops on me
**** a **** baby mama...
I guess what that means is you soap opera rappers sound like all my children...
Drake said it best when he said
And I quote
Steve Martin you little *****
Stop flicking my nuts....
But you know Steve Martin
That foo dont care about a **** thing...

Steven your a ***** ***
I'm a elaborate
With damaging accuracy
You love me thats why
Your mad at me..
You never noticed me prior
That was so saddening.
Happily be wed. We could practically
Be ******* king and queen
Human beings. With no human greed.
Life is like a movie scene...
Beauty in the heart of you and me...

Gravity is immense.
Still im
suspended in weightlessness...
Unfriended the image of God
Because you don't
Like this realm in the way it is......
I trust in benevolence.
But develope some pity
For rapists. Mercenaries and Satanists...
Its love that echoes. Eternal shapes.
In the motherly keep.
Of a weightless opaque tinge. Of vacant spaces and emptyness
Creation swirling in majesty
Till human travesty.
Tragically came from space...
And trashed up. And ran with
Hate ful ness
And created racism.
Slavery.. corporations
And ceo benefits
And brainwashed through screens.
Instead of educating
On how to change the ****** way it is
Its time to man up
And ask his grace....
Every man in existence what day is it
Can you answer. Your destiny.
When the damage is wasting
Half of this place at a rabbit pace
With weapons. Disaster.
Gravitate. To a sadness shape...
But **** it lets go to ahappy place...
I gotta get rid of
This devils dance. Its a habit I have to break...
Say **** it for habits sake.

Its all about deliverance
Man I can feel it coming
Do you ever feel the chill of night
Behind your day time running
Cold to those I loathe
Opposed to really nothing
Owe my life to special someone
Hungry game
Its a chess match
Real killer with the best batch
Of estrogen for chest fat.
Looking where the *** at
I love apocalypse
His ***** a final death match
Hly water. Holy father
Virgjn mary
*** addict.....

You in the sky now
Get a flight down
And peep me in my nice town...
This for life now
Daddy wanna wife boo
Than peep me in a white gown...


Neural  vision
You ***** aint worth the *******
Short cuts.  Ugh
Circumcision..
Its a perfect system.
I see the  world twisting
Turning into spots to **** in....
Thats the plot so listen




1:15.
I bring the bomb raps
Where the bomb at
Vietnam ******
Who be bringing bomb back.
You can't stop that
Shooting movies in a rock shack
Lucifer can't top that
**** that
**** black
roosters in a Sox hat
Thinking You knew gods plan
Slaughter rage and
aliens.
Watching out for Damien
Come on in with Gabriel.
Make up stains
The makings of an alias
Im hoping
Entertainment value
Amazing wet like
A Maze with plenty space to  ****
I be up in space and ****
Crazy trip.
Like bowels spill.
Vowels spell.
I Owe you aye. Its
Its time for Payment *****
Spoken in Canadian...





...You in the sky now
Get a flight down
And peep me in my nice town...
This for life now
Daddy wanna wife boo
Than peep me in a white gown...

Collision of a different thought
With vision fraught
With different wants.
Hes the criminal
Of my inner wants.
Evolution in little spots
From prison walls
To big girl drawers.
Its just a vision plot
Maybe God invents
A  different plot
But for now
Its what he wants
I fricken
**** you not....

Could have become a goof
My puberty was
Strange. Left isolated...
Could a racked up
Bodies young
But I got help
For self obsessive nature...
Could have been gay
As a teenager...
To hard to tell.
I guess it's best left up to
Guardian Angel's....
Waging wars. Within
A straight jacket
And taking brakes
To shave  failure
With their razors...
Painted black
My mental hacks
Becoming more aggressive
Quenched in
Regret getting angrier in nature...
I made friends
That seemed like gangsters
While simultaneously getting stranger...
Days of highs remaining
Blinded. To the mind
Inside of anger....
Just a trip down memory lane
What doesn't **** you
Makes you stranger

Let it ******* take me
Tune into this sunset
No dude I ain't done yet.
Haven't started
With the fun yet...
Your so hot. I bet you
Get the sun wet...
See the sun sweat....
Now im done with fun
Am I looking dumb yet

God don't let my ego get me.
Or recipe for **** up
Fix my blunders dummy mix up
Quick ****. I dont need a husband with no dixk ******
On my list of angry kids
For me to fist bump.
Forgive this sinful
Chin up.
As I raise my kids to swim
Club. My tongue is like
A switch blade.
Don't pretend wii playing
And don't switch ****. .
I hit your mouth like its a stick up
***** shoots you
If you lip off
Zipper like a train derailed
I'll track you down.
If im ticked off
Minute clock
And tick tock
Seconds until the train of thought
Evades the brain
And untangled from a slip knot
No stranger to escaping your spit job
Just to perform a jigsaw. Massacre
Of all 3 passengers with lip gloss.
Asking for a friend
I'm tired of teasing like
There's more than just a bit wrong
You guys think that I'm a genius
Or I'm ****. But your ***** wrong
I cant even turn into female form
If i was dead women at Robert pick tons pig farm

what to write about
awwww finding your sexuality young

demons and urges, memory .....swept
the stolen youth
most lose, you ......kept,
thrills...... procuring forbidden knowledge
obscure to peers
till  they mature in college

i dont want to talk about this anymore
im not normalizing ****

this **** has been in my system for either 11 years
or 14, at least conscious of it for 11
they asked me all kinds of questions
i knew were just geared for me
do you feel spiders
do you get wierd tastes
do you get bad smells

i mean how the **** could i not know
you guys would bust out laughing
or say really obvious things ten feet away from me
when i had a wierd thought
or felt something wierd
now i go world wide,
its a great feeling isnt it

i mean my sister said ***** supposed to be the opposite
but i always try to correct the thoughts i send out to match
what im really thinkingn constantly  raging an internal war of dyslexia
and other mental addictions and illness.

i hear people around me saying all kinds of ****
and im always right about what there saying
were all up to date on the stupid thoughts
i have like my mind is a steel trap, or trying to do the voice match
or whatever the **** else
or the thoughts you guys get like placebo effect
or im not simulating things
or the goof would have
or whatever else
you guys post little obscure messages about my **** hoping to break through my walls but primarily just end up trying to hide this from me so hard that it becomes even more apparent
im not stupid or dillusional
i may know how to think like a girl but i also know how to think like a bunch of really cool other things
i cant even sincerely tell if you guys think im a genius or your laughing at me, and honestly if you knew how many times i felt like absolute ****, youd just be real with me
like it doesnt matter now if i know or if i dont
theres no way to suppress it anymore,

i know i transmit thoughts and feelings
i know they give this medication to the stupidest worst ******* people on the planet
and it effects them entirely differently
i know its supposed to go into your brains waste bins
and eventually peed out and **** out sweat or whatever
but for whatever reason ive surpassed the ten year mark
.........


i hope you guys know i still love all of you
no matter how many times i thought of ending my ****
i just want to be loved.
i thought if i made everybody happy i could do alot of good
but here i am.
confused about my sexuality
socially isolated and stuck in a town where all my friends are doing really bad *****.....
i mean i dont want to go in depth, but you know i know
i know you know

lets just call er good

Hit home like a comet
Astronaut
Of missing pieces
Rest of me is.
Shadow. Like a battle
Slaying demons
Grave so deep
I brace my dreams
For destruction
Means of seering heat. Than apocalyptic freezing
*** aj keeps the keys.
On lock down
Stop screaming.
Its not the season to be hot and cold
Just stop dreaming
Watch the reason
Seems I'm challenged
Or something
Being subject.  
Damage lit with liquid
Cancer
Eternal battle
Tried and blackened
With stains of greatness
On my saddled.
Stallion.
I'm not average I'm savage
Hope I have it
Inside to beat this challenge
And make balance
From disease. Disorder
My morality damage

Arms extended
I reach
The heavens um blessed in
Like umbrellas in wetness
Sweet reprieve from
The trials of existence
Mountains
Valleys. Rivers bending.
Never ending my passion
Mend my bed sheets
To have me
Ask me should a sun
Lose mass when collapsing
Filling space with a magnet
Attraction
Or is my quiet distraction
A change so drastic
Need damage control my soul
Managed to grab the hole
And tangle its core in your
Solar empathic crash with.
My pocket calculator
And psuedo intellectual glasses.
I want you bad yep.
But theres more untold
Before you crash land in the blackness
Of abyss my tragic yet passionate
Madness

My burden is a higher cause.
You cannot hide your loss.
Its written in the script
Of systematic oppression
Beneath the ****** clause
Separation of identities.
In a country. With.
Such determined flaws.
Slavery was abolished.
But society didn't learn at all.
*** certain groups.
Make fears turn into laws
And put a person behind prison bars
Incarcerate the spirit.
Spreading hate you don't deserve
At all.

Equality ain't secondary.
Courtroom secretary
Hope you heard it all.
I hope my words
Encourage you.
And your marches will
Be worth it all!!!
Won't stop till your respected
But remember nothings perfect
Yall.

Alleviate temptation
Whats it gonna take if
I saw a private banquet
With just picnic baskets champagne
If you can take ****.
Dictate it.
Master class In session
I debate it. Refute your greatness.
Master debater. You can't hate *****.
Solve aromatic flavour
That passes smelling fragrant
If they don't support the flag ship
Got off the spaceship wagon.
Or you can be an *******.
Little atheist. Without a God start praying.
In and out of every vacant space which.
We inhabit.
Call a rat birch.
I ain't wearing bogus patches
Mass is up in smoke.
Such my own ****.
Call me Marilyn Manson.

I feel like my **** is going to stop
I make spider man .
Look like a little kid.
In Dennis Rodman's ******* hobby shop.
A marching caravan of killers.
With the farthest need for constant watch.
I'll citizens arrest yo ***.
Right now. For playing with my *****
Better than a soccer mom...
I make these eyes.
Hint your size.
Is perfect for my mommy palms.
I **** you off.
Than call an Asian ***** into
******* your ****
Just like a saki  bomb....

I'm mister ******.
The viet Kong.
Just realized what kind of
Rock I'm on...

I make Taylor's swift look like.
An ugly blonde.....
That just awoke and realized
What kinda drug she's on..
She sliding into ****
Like theres hey yalls in a country song..
I'm trying to bug the phones
But I'm still wondering.
If someone calls.
Will I be more than just a lurch
You rang. And make miss Adam's stomach crawl...
So **** it yall

**** yeah...
Obese. My teeth on razor sharp.
Not made up fangs and make up
You can take apart
To paint your car Like
You just got crayons and discovered art.... you must have attended sacred heart. but your amazing smarts
Is like a raisin. I reject it with compulsion.... won't want it on cookies. On cakes or ******* muffins...
Think I'm bluffing with my muffin
I'm just stunning g with my luv glue gunning.....
You ******* ****. I'll punt you into
The sub dessert climate of mclovin
You Hawaii palming *******. Giving
Rambo licking.
****** sniffing. Prissy *****.
I'll challenge you to tetris.
See if you get butthurt
Like dad gets after tennis....
You stuff your shirt.
Of this I'm sure. *** your **** are bout  as developed as my pen iss..
Now let's face the music.
Draw conclusions.
Eminem got one thing right.
This is your only shot
You ******* blew it.....
And we know your moms not hot shes jewish...
Dont make me argue with you till my face is black and blue ish.....
You stupid.

Storage on overload
Ohno
Its panic mode
I'm slow like molasses
In the cold
My *** is froze.
See how fast it grows
Individual decisions
Like slivers hope.
My little nose.
My little toes.
My pinching throat.
Like mini morphing rangers
From the center
Of my temple flow
This instrumental
Mental like recession from control
And investment
In the death. Of ghetto Joe.
Regression
Lessons known
To make messages appear with
The heavens home
Get to know the
Death the life the festival
Of dia de las Muertos
And the mortal bones
Of selfish poems
Encrypted with the jealous yet deadly knowing of a little soul
Existing in a mental hole
Equipped with weapons.
Drastically making
Molasses flow.
Like a degrassi episode
Can drake dance
Crip walk
With damaged limbs
You'll never know
Aye its return to ghetto Joe
**** that thougb

awakening to shadows,
the breathe a rotten stench
gnarled fangs that hang beneath
his upper lip
and wreak of death

his robe is pressed and neat
unlike the rags that cloth my feet
i see his teeth become a gleaming
streak of light before he feasts

i repeat he cleans his robe before
he visits me to feed
it seems the only time i see him
is when im screaming in my sleep

its not easy being greasy
or cheezy so they say
so i wear a cross beneath
my door to keep the **** away

The snake. Is deceitful
Creepy and a liar
Peace is never achievable
Its hardwired
To be viral.
Fangs like mortal venom
Never knowing friends...
A mirror showing back
A portal endless... blank canvas
Showing death ......
An endless question
For every sentence...

The second scurries
Hurriedly
Like spiders in a ****** scene.
The purpose being.
Vital aim. Like turtle shells
To hide behind a ***** deed

The 1st
A disgrace never achieving much.
Ambition is like anguish
As it uses its condition
As an unhealthy clutch
To its own disgust
Its potential
Much like dynamite.
That just wont combust
So he dont give a ****

I'm sorry I was racist.
I'll promptly admit it.
Every one gets fed ****.
As young little children.

Perception is everything.
Surroundings are biased.
Equation spells racist.
Overcame it as giants
our generation
Made it. Celebrate triumph
As a break in the cycle.
And racial tolerance minded
The states is not trying.
For hate crimes and violence.
The racism must stop.
And vote mister Satan goodbye *****.
I'm sorry for saying some ****
In the face of the times that
Provoked hatred and violence
But I've been feeling the hate
From every ******* blaming the African race for the riot.

Listen to the timely fashion
Of rhyming antics
My mind has packaged
In synapse
Of time
Ravelling in slap stream fashion
The ******* romance
Of my deprived
And unwise actions
I'm just a man
In female transit
That speaks this fine.
But seems mismanaged


Hella beat call the time sheet
To find me
Underneath the scoreboard
War lord. With Michael jordans
Foot pressing on the floorboards
Crunch time in the land of rhapsody
Four more seconds than its no more....
Ima move it like a pound of porridge
In the mother ******* old folks home.... broke bones
And artforms coming universal
Who you March for
Target defeat racism or take part.. in March for... everyone or wait for God storm..

Lifting every toxic grime.
Shifting inches in this thought
Of mine.
Like minutes thinking
Thoughts of love.
Outside the box.
Detox my rugged spine.
Luxury is coming
Up the tummy.
Sober thought. That
Clutches onto mommas mind.
A space of change.
The pain.
A dance with God.
No robot thoughts.
That haunt my mind.
Like girls I thought were mine.

Watching Eminem clean his closet
Ponder
Honestly what I got in mine
Tuck leave that thought behind
Trees so tall and high
Breathe like beaches
Sha and I with
Chocolates and a box of wine
**** these sloppy rhymes.
Let's talk this time.
I want it all this time.
Haters better mock a line.
But I ain't got time.
To **** talk and cry

Transgender is my label.
Its remembering anatomy
While managing
Identity
Freed collaterally
Exchange of parts
For sanity.
I'm a be so genius
You'll give props although your mad at me.
Has to be.
Sandwich meat.
Shred like lettuce. Going ham
Cheesy dance scenes.
In a single plastic packaging.
Trans queen.
In a grand scheme.
While I demand equality.
For every one.
There ever was.
Forever ***.
We better love
Each other and develope love
Through touch. Hugs. Vibes
Smiles and better trust.
Wild **** my smile up
In the center of.
Your memory.
To remember me
Forever ***.
I get your love
And never run
Even till the death of love
And the devil comes.
**** that I'll single handedly mask up.
And sacrifice my eyes taking blindness
Over  feeling death in heart.
That tyrant. Deceptive ****.
Can leverage none.
He better come.
God has me under love.
I'll be under trust.
And safe as banks. And corporations
When the end of days
Come undone.

So I had no idea that I was female.
Everyone knew.
I compare it to twilight.
Bella spends a full hour trying to figure the inner workings of Edward's outer shell.
His masks. She finally figured it out.
And everybody in the theater had become aware. From the sneak preview. 3 months prior to the screening.
Still just like me. Bella scurries to find the truth of Edward's origins and nature.
But Edward's hot so I'm cool with it.
I just want to accept this.
I tried so hard to make the world feel amazing. And help everyone.
But it was me that needed help.
So many thoughts of suicide.
So many fake relationships.
Shallow promises. And emptiness.
Breaking my families heart.
And trying to impress the wrong people. Looking like a fool.
And surviving for my kids. And my mom and brother. My uncle and grandma as well. It was so confusing being a girl ina boys body. To this day. I suppress thoughts about men.
Or rather disassociate and numb witha a void filling habit or two or ten.
What you felt for those two days was at my core for years. My brain made every survival technique possible.
All maladaptive.
Drug addiction. Delusions. Self harm
Grandious thinking. Self medicating.
****** programming to like women.
I really put myself in the worst spots for no reason.
I could have just as easily figured it out and changed genders
Younger in life.
But in a way imsuper glad for all my ******* endured. I had two beautiful kids who are the world.
And I changed alot of people's minds about women. Trans. Racism. Environmental. Obesity. Mental illness addiction.  Maybe you tell me I'm ******* crazy but this was all happening to me. I was broadcasting thoughts to the entire world.
I thought the world hated me. I didnt know why everyone laughed at me.
Or avoided me. But I see now. You cant be mad at anyone for them judging you after you gave them false impressions. Or made shallow attempts at being something other than what you truly were.
I think I love the world. Thank you for loving me back. Sorry if i offended anyone. Except trump followers. You can lick the brand new car smell off of my *******. I'm done. God bless

the mind is resilient
it bends never breaking,
with eyes open one may see his suffering for what it is
and decide what it is not
and though tangled like willows in the wind
he may begin to see the grief for what it is
and what it is not
his eyes had become accustomed to searching,
frantically unscrambling obscure clues
only to be drunk with dyslexia
shaken with remorse and morbidly curious about his self professed
diseases
this type of deciphering was not by accident
perhaps a brains mechanism to continue a lie that could only be ferried by denial,
and so with eyes in focus the truth is his to decide upon,
the mind became curious with intense wonder
the heart was shaky and unsure but steady in the same instance
the body, well the body didn't say much except stop drinking whine and eat something Jordan
, and as the collapse of my  world had happened seemingly happened overnight
so did the presence of the truth instinctively become boldly defined like the mindful stars between the  pauses in time against  the vast emptyness of space. and although this truth was painful
i had decided not to hide nor run, not conceal, but rather to see it for what it is
and decide what it is not
and maybe my suffering was never needed,
im thinking that although you may feel my thoughts
i too can feel yours
and it is a comforting limbo to rest my bones,
knowing we are not the mindless machines they bred and groomed
with every cunning tool at their disposal

and perhaps maybe you might have a place for me beside you,
sins forgiven,
lies unravelled and made clear
and maybe it had always been the card i was too afraid to play
the joker had seen my spirit crippled and obliviously defeated
the king had been denied a loyal queen,
the 7 deuce, well **** i got really lucky a few times with that one
but it was time to play the ace, in hopes that the jokes were not in vain
and years spent cast down into the darkness had served a purpose
maybe than could i forgive myself for my social suicide

Seeking help to find.
Whats deep inside.
Though not knowing
No more. Than
What I see are lies.

Its coming i believe.
In something
So great.
Maybe thanks.
Is my peace of mind

Reaching in the distance.
Can't ever seem to reach his highs.
I'm like drugs. Since I was juvenile
To keep me high

But forever **** that.
I want my life to be amazing
Every second changing
Rearranging colors daily

Lord save me
I'm chained. And I need
Some feeling.
Some people.
Who believe in me to shape me
*** its a day away from slavery
God made me
Devil enslaved me
And Jesus is the only one who can save me

My heart is a ******* arrow. Coming str8 up the *** of the competition.
Not hell or high water can stop me from ******* this ***** up.
Im like tom cruise on benzos talking about scientology.
Im that delusional.
But hey im a good person. Think i might get a *** change
Ya know do some proper consultation first. Than cut that ******* off.
Its not my fault i was born with such a ******* good looking *****.
Goonna be hard to say good bye to.
Should donate it to the space snd science center so they can show visitors its immaculate aerodynamics.
Weve had some great times .
But its time to let her die young.

Waiting for God.
Elapsed seconds. And fever thoughts.
Buying for time
car at a
Parking spot meter box......
These are thoughts.
That creep alot
Like bugs 6 feet deep
In a cedar box........
The plot you don't see alot.
My dad.
My family deaths.
You mean alot.
I really mean you mean alot.

Devilish with Tyler moose
*******
Skyward view
Positive like testing Molly usage
At motley crue...
Give proper dues...
To change from ***** and lazy shoes.
Methamphetamine
Ketamine and native braids that hanged his noose...
Now unfadable like tracing hatred back to days of racism.
******* and loose screws in
The atmosphere of jail blues....
Happy prase true for Tyler moose
And great moods...
Jordan gablehouse changed views
Perceptive as a leg fume from fire in the same mood....  same fire
Different flame dude
Hell ******* change you...

Its millcreek heavy hitting.
With the switchblade kinda vision.
Give you butterflies.
Who the **** am I.
To tell you that this time is any different. ....
While I'm climbing up the.
Highest cliffs.
And lost in peak ambition...
It's a cognitive distortion.
When decisions.
Get over ridden.
******* poorly integrated systems
But hey
I still blame
My daddy's **** for my existence...


**** is like a river bed.
Deliver what you  really said.
Or suffer life a coward. Living in a metal mind. You ******* piston head.
It's engines driving
Money
And blood torn from the sediment.
Consuming more than souls.
In the name of making dividends...
What happened to us little kids.
We use to fight it out.
Now were scared to throw a punch even for little ****.
While we sit riddled with indifference and a social climate.
Lacking the ambition to ******* finish ****...


I swear this planets getting *****.
And it won't take it anymore.
The forces that consort with the gods.
Are scorned. And well informed.
Of what the drums of oil and war are piping for.  Inside this not so minor climate war..... while ignorance is staggering.
Wonder why or who the **** were fighting for...

you have no choice now
beat the cancer
or dimish and wither

its worth the fight
for every love that you treasure
**** this isn't forever
but forever isn't promised
unless your keith Richards or
Heffner
so get it together.....
**** the rain the pain
is just the same
as the liquor
you put into your liver.....
so lets **** the world
better yet lets stand and deliver

Want my people beside me.. Fighting injustice
Trust this love to endure.
I was trusted with an Angel's touch
This much you must trust to be sure.
In fear. Of leaving.
Jo keep breathing your love is untouchably pure....
My family is a lingering love.
Presence. So much becoming
My hunger. For an ungrudgeable cure
Something
Inside the rumblings
Your disgusted I'm sure...
Aware that nothing can be ingested
With more un discussable fear
It's a tonic
By god you've got it...
It's not something to fear...

Mother beside me
Brother drunken with tears
Sister baby daughter
Little brother covered with tears
Family disconnected
But comfortably wierd
In our fears
Dont mention turn of fate
Soon as something appears
Take back the hate that filled my heart
And run with the years
Love you to death.
See it's not something to fear

Method on collab.
**** t-rex
back to Jurassic.
Little arms cant even *******
you gunna ***
With that ****.?
Grab the madness
From the tablet
get to matching master fashions
You got beef.
I brought some eggs
I keep it cracking with a passion
I'm like how this game so
Scabby. Like a cut beneath
The bandage...
Have it..
****** infection
Gotta catch em all.
Like ******* ash did...
You like mister sammy Jackson
Credited for shaft n
Did you hear about that that stabbing
And your asking. What ******* happened?
I thought you woulda heard
*** it happened in your *** n
Been so long since I took acid
Need to have ****** flashbacks.
I'm like penguin played by devito
I keep tuxedos in my mansions...
While you see. That I'm on speed
I'm not obeying. Posted limits....
Slaying  dragons
Every day.
And still no ******* princess
I'm the realest in the game
So save my progress by the minute
I could ******* grill this chicken
To perfection and you ****
Won't even fillet. (Feel it)

Imagine creation in the parameters
Of exactly having zero
Parameters
Quantify that with advanced math
And scratch your
Head until God slaps you there
For fear of being alone
Or the only developed specimen
Within the galaxy
Isn't half as weird
As conceptualizing
Science. As a diet. For spiritual
Amateurs.
It appears my math is weird
Oh **** I'm acting superior
Man that **** happens here
But at least my ego
Can appeal to my heart
Consisting of the blood that beats
Blood until it crash landed near
A plant that burns
Fossilized plant matter
Dinosaur bones
Releasing gasses in the atmosphere
It's bad habit here
**** I see