I'm sorry I'm weak
please forgive me for my childish games
I loved you and I still do
but I was scared,
scared of the things ahead of us,
and seeing you suffer from this toxic relationship
this sickeningly toxic relationship
forbids my lungs to breathe

And setting you free was hard
but it was the only thing
that I can do or so I thought
to make the sun shine through
the darkest of your days

As I thought I moved on
but when I saw someone new
tears streamed down like a waterfall
of longing, regret and pain
for letting you go.

So I'm standing here
in front of you
with a torn heart and
a handful of courage
asking for a friendship
my high school fling.

As I count one two and three
the bottle landed on me
who could it be

is it a he
or is it a she
we'll find out and see

as I sought  it's identity
I can no longer find tranquility
cause it's the girl that makes me faulty

what is this feeling
that I'm feeling
it's so frustrating

not knowing what to do
with this overbearing
feeling called loving

Is this reality?
or just  a dream,
a dream created by my temptations,
temptations that that would destroy me.

Well if it is,
then let me feel every inch
and piece of you
before I wake up from reality,

A reality where our love is forbidden,
forbidden by society,
a society that is messed up
where people judge
for what we are and for who we are.

Lying in bed
with an aching head  
saw a glimpsed of moonlight
sipping through the curtains of white

my curious little head
got out of bed
draw the curtains
my sight is uncertain

because of what I'm witnessing
hundreds of firefly light
buzzing through the endless night.

saw you in a week
loved you for months
And wanting more of you for years

never was
never there
and never will be
sincerely yours
my love for you

Here I go again
With a paper and a pen
After I count one to ten
There will never be an us again