I didn’t know you could die without dying but thanks to you get I get the  experience my lungs and heart gasping for air at the same time feels like I’m suffocating but some how i’am still breathing this is the closest I have felt to hell you have to be the devil in disguise you took my joy balled it up and made it tears I mean you could have fooled me I thought only magicians could do that but I guess satan had some trips up his sleeves for me , I’m sorry that someone hurt you but I don’t deserve this type of pain and for you to purposely try to hurt me because someone hurt you that hurts you knew what you were doing you disgust me I don’t feel sorry for you but I’m sorry that happened to you but still we all are accountable for our own actions we are not kids anymore you knew what you were doing you masked up for a while but eventually your horns start to poke out you couldn’t hide it any more a devil in disguise you were never the perfect guy  u claimed to be  , you sit on a bed of lies and I sleep in a bed full of tears and regret….. I may be drowning in my tears right now but I know that god is still watching over me and hoping I learned my lesson well if your listening god I have learned my lesson I know that you are here with me every step of the way but people  like him makes me wanna to over dose and come see you at least I know I’m safe with you ❤️🦋

No hood better than father hood

You were supposed to be my bodyguard and my Therapist
But instead your just a provider
A dad is supposed to be the  ride or die  for their child
A guardian angel
I don’t know who to be mad at you or my mom for choosing you
It’s clear as a crystal that you didn’t want kids it’s not like you don’t say it
I did my best to make you proud of me
But that wasn’t enough
But I made a promise to myself and my future child the father of my child will love his daughter or son unconditionally
A bond strong enough to never be broken

Intoxicated
His  love is in my system
My friends keep telling me to let him go and I tell them  
It’s something about the way he holds me
He never try’s to control me🌬
My friends tell me they miss the old me the old me wouldn’t have fell for him so quick
My friends don’t understand the love I have for him

Because of you I have been sleep deprived
Because of you my heart has a hole in it
Because of you “I love you” means nothing to me
😞

I want my best friend back
I miss staying up late talking about everything....there was nothing we didn’t talk about
We laughed in church even though we tried our hardest not to
Together we laughed anywhere and everywhere
I remember when we would not see each other for like a week and when we saw each other we would run to each other in slow motion

I just wanna drink till I can't feel anything .. but then again once I wake up with a hangover I will feel  everything again... So what would be the point of temporary pain relief? I would rather something that's forever pain relief... I don't wanna be the drunk mom you hate, I don't wanna be the auntie that comes in late , I don't wanna pass my pain on to anyone I rather just disapear, everything is temporary expect death it's a forever thing

Just gonna let love exist without me
I don't need it messing up my life all over again
Making me miss something i don't need making me feel like i need someone when reality i was born alone I'll be ok
But being heartbroken makes u think other wise
"I'll never be happy again" yes you will it all starts with you ❤✨
"I'm never gonna find someone like him or her" yes u will and they will be 10× better then him or her