You feel nothing
Yet it is the worst of feelings.
Deprived of the power to feel,
it hurts in between breathing.
Emotionally unresponsive,
your mind refuses to think,
your heart refuses to hurt
but later you'll feel
something warm
making its way
from your eyes
down your chest
and you don't know why
coz you're numb.

It's not always sunny all the time
but even the storm is better with you by my side.

You kiss a lot of people that taste like anything but home.

Street light stars flicker above you

the blue filter over your skin makes you look a little less sad,

a little more drunk.

You fill yourself up with the saddest things;

Of people that slow your pulse down,

that sharpen their teeth against your bones.

Of a churning sea of clear *****,

waves breaking over your rib cage.

Of thick smoke that makes your lungs feel like silk,

that make your fingertips dance across the thin line of what feels like forgetting,

and what hurts.

But you’re running out of things to make yourself feel better,

and the more you hurt yourself 

the less you are inclined to hate him

Gumdrops in Candyland, teardrops in soup;
Tomato red, I spin my head;
And jump now through the hoop.

In the rain I walked, in the rain we kissed;
Paper hats, playful chats;
Forgetting what I missed.

Forethought for me, an afternoon with you;
Flick the light, to day from night,
More love, your love, I do.

•

Hold me closer to you,
     Until this throe is over,
          Wipe away this despairing tears,
              And build smile into my face,
          Take away all of this weights I'm lifting,
       And let me rest in your embrace,
   Whisper comfort into my ears,
With the warmth of your breath I feel.


                                You're all that I needed.


                                                    But­­ oh well, I won't expect too much,
                                          I know for a fact that it won't happen,

'Cause I'm just a NOBODY.





                             © Earl Jane
                               ♥ E.J.C.S.

i love you,
but you don't
i'd give everything
but you won't

you're my sun
but to you
i'm just a light

it hurts a lot
but i still hope
that maybe you'll feel
what i'm feeling towards you

i want to give up
but i can't
and i don't even know
why

maybe because,
you can't teach a heart
to stop loving someone
who doesn't love you back