i'm not a slave of compliments.
I won't overdose on injections of racism.
The only addiction i have it of the melanin in my skin.
My heritage is not a sin.
My womanhood has always been the evidence of excellence.
My faith is not a bad habit I need rehabilitation from.
If discrimination was a drug i would be high every day

The twitch of the fingers,
The loud beating of the heart.
Everything becomes sharp and focused.
The tingle that shoots through your whole body
The shallow breathes that start to get harder
every second

Starting to feel feint but you must go on.
knowing, waiting
for the moment to be over.
It feels like eternity but
its really been seconds, minutes
maybe even hours
but it feels like forever.

Shaking all over,
Thoughts going a mile minute.
Will it be good enough?
Did you try your best?

or

did you just make a fool of yourself?

I never thought I'd believe in fate
     until I met you
I never thought I'd believe in 'happily everafter'
     until I held you
I never thought I'd believe in true love
     until I kissed you
I never thought I'd believe in 'the one'
     until the day you asked me to marry you
I never really thought I'd believe in anything
     **until you

I am built like city blocks
crooked and running in all directions.
My veins run up and down like busy streets,
lit by headlights and street lamps.
My scars are like demolished buildings,
a reminder of something that once was.  
I have a skyscraper mind that
reaches higher than anything else.
My heart is a monument that many see
but don't really know.
My thoughts are subways and buses that
move everywhere all at once.
There is no stopping- only a hushed hurry.
I am hard and concrete, my sidewalks are stained;
but to some, I am home.
I have hidden secrets inside, that you only know once
you decide to stay in the city
and choose to love me.

earth is so cool
earth is so nice
earth is the worst
earth makes me cry