Jellyfish

Jellyfish Aug 2017

Many nights ago,
you sang a love song to me.

I remember you singing often. Your voice is beautiful and could never be described as rotten. When will we sing together again? I remember how my heart fluttered the last time we did.

#logan #sang #love #songs #10w

Jellyfish Aug 2017

Laughing With You

You always get me to smile
even when my mind is acting hostile.

#laughing #with #you #love #logan

Jellyfish Aug 2017

June into August, Crash

When things like this come up,
I often wonder if I'm good enough.
I'll feel cold as I remember it all
then super weak remembering the fall.

I tried my hardest to forget,
I had thought denial was my best friend.
Just when I think I've made peace with it,
everything comes crashing back to me...

I hate these heated months.
Not only because of the bugs,
and the weather that brings so much sweat
but because of the nightmares that come with them.

I don't just remember what happened, I remember everything it caused me to do.
I remember how I felt like I wasn't good enough for anyone else or good enough to stick around. I feel like I need to take two hundred showers and not go out. But I'm doing my best to look around, I don't have to be afraid, he's not around.

Jellyfish Aug 2017

Thundering

The rain is coming down
but I can still see the sun.

#sun #rain #thundering

Jellyfish Aug 2017

Back Then

When I go back
and listen from beginning to end
every song I listened to back then,
I feel so sad.

Remembering all that I did,
back when I was feeling hopeless.

#back #then #hopeless #remembering #other #times

Jellyfish Jul 2017

I want to be there, next to you.

I want to kiss you
at the end of each night
and the beginning of every day,
I wanna be there so you can see
me smiling at the things you say.

I want to be there, acting ridiculous.
Awkwardly laughing as I realize I'm being recorded. I want to be there again, waking you up to be embarrassed with that terrible video... I want to be there... next to you.

#next #to #logan #octopus #under #the #ocean #love #longing

Jellyfish Jul 2017

You know it's been driving me crazy

Up until my eyes are bloodshot.
I think about my life until my stomach is in knots,
I feel sad, happy, mad, sometimes it gets confusing.
In the end I do fall asleep but tomorrow I know what's awaiting me.

#bloodshot #eyes #tired #life #thoughts #up #down #moods #confusing #depressed