i don't
wake up
when my eyes
open
i haven't
been awake
for some time
now

I just never forgot about you.

i am a
horse
on a
carousel
with four legs
built to run
but i insist
on retracing
the same
circle

Your beauty is not in your eyes,
Your body or your hair,
Your beauty is within you!
Your beauty is in your soul,
Don't let anyone make you feel less than beautiful just because they're not wise enough to read your soul..
Don't be misled by shallow minded people who judge you by your looks,
Whether they think you're beautiful or ugly,fat or skinny,dark or light etc,
It doesn't matter,what matters in what's in your soul,
No matter how much you try to fix yourself,it will all amount to nothing until you fix your inner being and believe that it counts the most..

It took me seven years
to realise
the words in my mind
were too deep for
my mouth to dig up
I thought it was easier
to open my skin
and let the truth
pour down my arms

It took me seven years
to realise
nobody should be allowed
to touch parts
of your home
or hold pieces  
of your heart
that you don't yet understand

It took me seven years
to realise
I will wear these scars
forever
I'll carry them
through every smile
every kiss
every concerned gaze
I'll carry them
to my grave

It took me seven years
to realise
the pain carved
into the walls
of my castle
etchings of
attempting to disappear
are not a story of weakness
but a tale of
how I survived

there are so many of you
that i would love to sit down with;
maybe over a milkshake and a plate of fries;
and just talk.
i want to ask you about the boy that hurt you,
about the anger you feel deep inside
over a father who said he’d come back...
and then didn’t.
i want to run with you through pages of words and say
“oh that’s right, what a lovely metaphor.”
i want to see all your smiling faces and
thank each and every one of you for showing me kindness,
for saving my life.
i want to collaborate on novels of poetry
and laugh with you through the tears of our pasts.
so until we sip those milkshakes and eat those fries...
thank you, to
some of the most beautiful people i have never met.