finding out the one you love
is different than what you thought
is kind of like finding out
"daddy's not a superhero"
you feel sad
disappointed
scared
and worst of all like it was all
a lie.

Your smile may not light up a room
but it sure does light me up.

i am awake at hours  
                                    I usually
                                                    spend
                                                               in dreams.

Adam blamed Eve,
Eve blamed the serpent;
the serpent blamed god;
God blamed Adam,

Lilith, the mother of monsters
prefiguring the ****** Mary,
stood off from this & laughed

The fallen angels
(who hadn't fallen yet)
& the Holy Host,
still one congregation
stopped singing
for a moment to think

yes,
you can kiss
my rose petal eyelids
my stained cheeks
my humming neck
my willing waist
my burning skin
anywhere on
my restless body
but kiss my lips,
and I'll spend the
rest of my life
aching
grieving
searching for
your stinging tongue

  fate assured me
   we'd burn violently
    but ultimately suns die
     every flame grows tired
      every bulb will break
      every wick will drown  
     charred and regretful
    weary and worn out
   drained of energy
  choking for air
i'm not ready
to ignite
just yet

I can't seem to understand
These happenings
Scraped and leathered hands
Wipe away the stinging tears
Of this ardous transformation
Saying goodbye to everything
That no longer
Feeds me
Pulling from my old, tight skin
Growing into
The skin I was meant to be in.

I'm sorry your fragile ego can't handle the obvious