Rolling dice in the garden of eden
Take chances so my heart will keep beatin
Got a bad hand but I'm still goin all in
Greed and avarice is my choice of sin

Gold chains are what I want  choking my throat
A sinking feeling on a sailing boat
Need gratification to stay afloat
Feelin sick I'm greener than my banknotes

Take risks play games with my life for a chance
My life interwoven with my finance
Paper and tokens have me entranced
Material things have me romanced

Things always there when I reach for em
Name your price and ill hit the atm
Ask for my soul and its no problem
Losin blood, sweat, and tears its no problem

Love can be bought
Friends can be bought
People can be bought
Rights can be bought

Money and chance is what I call god
I have lived life committing fraud
When life is so deeply flawed
You have to make your own god

Worship something in a sea of nothing
Statistic and chance the sweet nothing
Of something intangible feels so loving
Imaginary value and numbers my calling

Times up tabs up daisy's up
Hit you up like whats up
Get bags don't **** up
Don't talk no cutting up
Snitch an your lucks up
On the street getting ****** up
Got a bottle and its bottoms up
Your girl in the club bottoms up

On the clock moving dope
Smoking up on your block
Hold the rope and the glock
Hold the rock and the soap

Got a pound from the homie
Flipped it now I'm makin money
Eating eggs its all sunny
Making rent on the monthly

Last week dug a ditch for the bag
This week was out playing tag
To keep out of wearing these rags
Steep the cost of playing without toe tags

Its all luck and yours ****
Now mines up got it on lock
Up goes my stock what a shock
Now I rock got out the box

Times up tabs up daisy's up
Hit you up like whats up
Get bags don't **** up
Don't talk no cutting up
Snitch an your lucks up
On the street getting ****** up
Got a bottle and its bottoms up
Your girl in the club bottoms up

We ain't got no cash now thats ***** talk
Go out get your cash thats how a man walk

Pour one out if you got dead homies
Get the **** out if your found phony

Cooking it up like chef Boyardee
Looking me up cuz I'm the dope boy

I keep business on the low
But you know I'm finna glow
So who is it you wanna know
Know who it is if you need mo blow

I come in the the party with a splash
I pose in every camera flash
Me and the bro's with a fourty an the stash
How it goes every night smashed

Now I spend my nights lookin at cash amounts
Bike into the night tradin out the stash an bounce
Home all night smokin up the stash there goes an  ounce
Tonight livin it up puff puff pass we smoking blunts

Times up tabs up daisy's up
Hit you up like whats up
Get bags don't **** up
Don't talk no cutting up
Snitch an your lucks up
On the street getting ****** up
Got a bottle and its bottoms up
Your girl in the club bottoms up

Dark streets at midnight Not a soul in sight
Wander by streetlight, light up a spliff for the trip
Wander in shadows closing in as they follow
Wander into shadow fade as they swallow

Another night shift done another night gone
Sleeping in fits straight on through dawn
Wake up and bake then I'm gone

I discarded my heart in the dirt
Buried with my pain and hurt
Follow my idol the punk Kurt

Look at that skin bag out playin tag with rusty nails
Lookin for guts for stuffin but found rags on sell
Always fails always fails maybe this is just hell
Another sad tale another nail on the coffin
Losin it lookin pale and unwell keep him talkin
Or silent return to nothin aint that somethin

I'm bad for my health but so is everyone else
Can't somebody help I think we're all in hell, hell
Oh I just need some wealth? and **** all the rest.
Use friends to sell and then, pop another pill

Get rich and thats the only route worth ****
Maybe I'm a lunatic but I think thats just not it

******, ******
Just orders, protect borders
Justice and order, Fixers and sorters
Guts on a camcorder
**** out if you can afford her
**** hotels for the soldiers
Taped and stored in federal folders
Holes in daughters
Blood and *** drips as you hold her
Got questions, torture and water boarders
Doers, leaders, fuhrers
Child soldier bullets go pitter patter, splatter    
Colonial slavers are the industry pavers
Acceptable loss, lawyers and waivers
Watch or ignore it with entertainers
Silver screen lives and liars
Fired and dead reporters
****** in the mortar
So **** your leaders
Or live in hell forever

All the things I have done spent far too long playing dumb
Have I finally won or do I just lose the some one I once was
I have shunned any who do as I displease never spared the crumb
Many turned away by who I chose to be turned by my flaws
Flaws turned the world but the never do they turn the sun

All of my regrets I leave to my empty space
I wear each on lines that mark my face
Speak them away with my silent voice
I speak out to you in white noise
Can your hear what the sound says?

Crash on your drums is the reply a locked door
I am on your dialtone I lie on your floor but no more
Disappear  just as I was here guess the signal was poor
Everything around screams and I don't hear a sound
Nothing is found as nothing is lost as something goes around

One more time
Say the line
Snort the rhyme
Doing fine
Words from a mime

I'm a demon yeah I'm an angel with a gun
Not dreaming the enemy already won
Fighting back is just screaming at the sun
Fighting back while they scream at the son
Losing track as sky's turn black we're undone

Losing my head at the chopping block
Tick tock as my head rolls across the clock

I want drip I want drugs I want to burn away in the night
My mind slips ash in my lungs don't know who to fight
Wind down wind me up nothing ever goes right
Crucify the righteous and expect survivors to live righteous
Our leaders the kings of capital know were cattle

Gods sick threw up all over the floor
The odds slick slidin towards war
A ***** an skin splits with black tar
Tin soldiers march after a dark star
We molder under a tyrants charge
Flickering compliance on the verge
Without defiance suffer the purge
Silent laughter after every surge

A tyrant who defies sense and science
Irate eyes die and fry in noncompliance
Half a brains alliance with petulance
Ants who think themselves giants
A gross death squashed by pseudoscience
Until the breath stills they rave and rant
Many a contrivance for the easily pliant
Really dyin because of words on an appliance

Hands lost in her pants
Time for a new pair of genes
Viscera all over the lance
And the organs start to sing
Friction feels like an addiction
Intentions lost in her diction
Wanton hopes dashed for passion
Backs lashed and impassioned
Awash in sweat and heat
She's weeping at the ****

Life is overrated but its the only show out
By default rated highest number one it touts

Guilty of survival
on the bullet's arrival

Man shut the **** up with that bible

Nothing holy found in a meaningless death
Nothing gained nothing lost just lost his breath

Nobody ever cherished he,
meant nothing to me

Never meant anything to the family

They say the whole world can be seen in a grain of sand
Well the whole world can be lost for the gram and a band

**** got me lyin
in my own brain

Thoughts of shame and ****** pain

Watch the time flow through my scarred hands
The clock tickin life lost in front of claspin hands

Pray away the pain
leave the needy in the rain

Pray rather than give a *******

**** empty words in the pulpit
Preachers speakin to the rats

Skittering scared masses
gather en mass

For their weekly holy masse

To hide from the sights in the front
The cyanide in a cup from tainted font

Self idealisation  
adulation congratulation

Nothing real no action no salvation

Burnin the minorities on crosses
Holy ethnic cleansing in the mosques

Killers deserve forgiveness
****** deserve forgiveness

But man takes **** and deserves pain relentless

Its a facade a coping mechanism
Lies to fade away the pain in realism

Fundies is colloquial
a term for the mentally ill

Sundays the ***** hit a sleeping pill

Manson family with some Boko Haram just contemporaries
Hands-on oppression and manipulation it barely varies

Historic faults ignored
easily overlooked

None holier than thou got addicts hooked

Hide actions with words and rhetoric
Form factions and division so reverent

Be just and holy
treat others kindly

Do what we say in the majority, **** the minority

More than a bargain, it cost me more
But now my brains scattered on tour
Of every moment and place I hit the floor
No catharsis every stops been a chore

But I'm still looking to travel some more
Tonight my face hits the floor once again
I'm traveling through life on a tour
Feels like my body is the bus for my brain

I'm looking out the window as life happens to me
Sight-see mountains high and valleys low
Where the crows fly is where I'll be
The journey is slow and even though its all I know

A empty spot resides of another way to go
So another way is where I'll go
Till I crash and my body's all over the floor
And I 'll get up and look for more

Written off cause of the things they said
Locked away put your all back to bed
Heart tucked back under sleeve and thread
Words mean more than actions when someone trusts them
It's swords hidden behind fashion each word thrusts you into sin
Ask where you been what you've seen then cut you off before you begin

Judged by the most evil of thoughts left in a cell to rot
Truth and law never matter when both get bought
At least that's what the accuser thought
Play the games your never taught that's your lot
Never get lost in someone else's thoughts
Don't get caught in the ink and the blots

Take me back to the homeland
It's all Ive had its become all I am
My land, my pride, and my flag
Nothing to hide except the past
People die so that the soil lasts
My empire will never pass
Eternal taxes from axis to axis
Commit to peace through casual violence
Apple pies, red delicious lies, and amnesia
Saviors and hero's that's the ideal that's the idea
Protectors like crusaders feel zeal with a righteous cry
Drone strikes over the people we choose to die
Money is denied for most of the lives
On empty expect everyone to strive for
Picket fences a couple kids need more than more
Work harder as long as me and friends got ours
I love my country I suffer for its health
I work to death to produce its wealth
Can't even tell I'm proud of hell

When enemies turn to friends the time of mercy begins
When friends turn to enemy it's time for mercy to end

Workin for a livin
That bacon sizzlin
Housin and medicine
Keep dreamin

Big house a car and some kids
Stead I got a bike and some sids
Family taken to the big house by feds
And a bank account in the red

So many said I wanna be dead
Everywhere its read
The depression of the kids
Generation of the dead

Still born lost in the womb
Bombs dropped on Aggha-Solatan
Satan throwing food in a lunchroom
Playground spats killin  all around

So which  team you stand with
For the game of pleading the fifth
Actions and words Irrelevant all on faith
In a team like our lives are sport on earth

Everywhere on earth us against them
Them against us and all for them
Rich kids throwing fits bangin drums
Gettin people to march out of the slums

Spill blood out from my veins every time I think at all
Panic when I'm doing nothing at all
Losing it when I'm doing nothing at all
All my time I'm doing nothing at all
I think I've gone insane every time I think at all

I want a fix and I want it quick, order up
One dose to stitch up this **** up
One more to make my head shut up
One more to push the daisies up
It never sticks runs out quick, order up

Just keep livin in this feelin
Never am I beleivin
That **** thats written
Questin for questionin

Im losin
No reasonin
No serotonin

Jane, dope burnin got me floatin
Lucy dances turnin got me smilin
Druggy desperate runnin got me huffin

Huff and puff an puff, pass
One piggy in a house oh straw smokin grass
Nother piggys house of glass
Last piggys house of cards but, alas

Little piggys grow big and pass
One pig in the straw smoked over ash
Nother pig served with a glass
Last pig out of cards, alas

Last pig out of the farm
Free hog free from the harm
Hunted down with a firearm
Pow Pow hogs need not roam

No escapin the farm
Just dyin in a drugged calm
Or dyin strugglin in dirt, ****
So just chill and spread *****

New meat for the grinders
Fresh meat for the diners
Pigs aint **** but some dinners
For pigs with gold incisors

Progeny of sin                                                              ­                           Genetically inclined                                                         ­                                            I’m the next of kin

Ideal is in death                                                            ­                                      Apathy is in me                                                               ­                                                  I am losing breath                                                           ­                                       

Worshiping hollow hope                                                             ­                                           Pray to the self                                                             ­                                              Take a little dope to cope                                                             ­                         

Dry eyes, dryer tears                                                            ­                                           Cold blood, colder heart                                                            ­                                               Flat-lined mind,                                                            ­                        where are my fears

Leave me alone,                                                           ­                                          Help me please

You got red eyes and irises so blue
Commiserate an sigh along with you
Problems we already knew not so new
I try to solve the case without a clue

Sunset just goes by talk in twilight
Embers of words keeps us alight
A fires last stirrings before it dies
And we part off into the night

My brain was ripped from my head
And all of my legends are ******* dead
Every day is just hollowed out dread
While me and my friends bleed
Parents sowed some bad seed
But ******* I got mines the creed

So I take my abandonment issues and shove it
Said I was free at least but I die if I miss a shift
And if I **** a **** then in half these states thats it
If I don't fit in then on the streets I'll get left
So maybe they say I'm not a slave but if the glove fits
I feel sick and I'm one day from making these tiles slick

One bad day from losing everything I got
It's not hard work its not skill its ******* slots
So run it fast and hope your lucks running hot

Posturing with a burger king crown
King has a nice ring a nice sound
But as much as I grasp even at my last
Final gasp of life I'll die in the low cast

Eat glass my thoughts are cosmic
But my body is earthly and sick
Thoughts of supremacy flow arrogantly
Reality is that's a fallacy thoughts fall flatly

Big fish in a small pond but just a bottom feeder
Drift aimlessly but wanna think I'm a leader
Talk big but I ride around in a one seater
Really lived that life but never had a heater

I can say proudly I've never caught a body
But quietly I have poisoned somebody
Dope dealin addiction feeding on the block
Just selling mush and that smoke never rock

Still took mans paycheck when the rents due
Slid em the product and fed their flue
Killing em slowly for profit in my pocket
Small time pounds I'd stock it and move it

Re-up from a college girl with Mexico plugs
Still worked that 9 to 5 could never be a ****
Just a petty criminal surviving on the scraps
Get fast food while bumpin gangster rap

I'd shoplift eggs when money was short
When rice and beans was all I could afford
Needed more, desire turned me sour
Shift managers had me scraping to petty power

Delusion of grandeur in a dish pit it didn't sit
Couldn't humble myself almost bit it
Pride killed my mind, body dead in the grind
Joints poppin body failin, drugs melting mind

Suicidal thoughts when reality didn't match
The life I wanted was always out of reach
No chance at a home and a that Mercedes
Just traps debts and loans maybe I'm crazy

Maybe I'm bad with money, that's funny
Got help from affluence got lucky
In one year saved 15 racks once out of the trap
Glad I never took that shot at a dirt nap

Who knew the answer to making money
Wasn't work or effort just being lucky
Knowing somebody not trapped with a hand out
Took it and pulled myself out of the ****** plot

My heart has crumbled my soul has left a vacant shell
Walk away from myself I go my own way
Strong enough to keep going but to weak to stay
Is this hell is this where I lay alone where I fell
It hurts I ache with hypocrisy I've got nothing to say

At every end I fray I want one more breath but gasp and heave
I ask you to stay as I walk away taking the scars and the pain
I spoke to you as you died my hate flowed out of a sieve
My ****** my sin my failure its driving me insane
Should I go should I die should I grieve

Reality distorts when your in the deep end
Memory it corrupts turning you on son and friend
Know someone for years and one day it ends
I keep it calm on the outside, hate on the inside
In you I will never confide out late to hide
Never been on my side always about your pride

Took care of business when you left state
Went to the corner store and left me to fate
Wonder if abandoning your son gave pause
Not enough to make you stay and wait
That monkey on your back wouldn't wait
Left me at a loss so you could get a taste

And it was your last, was it worth it?
How high was the crash into the last hit
Slash and burn, got dumped by a *****
Now under a bush you live in a ditch
Still none of it on you I would wish
Still love you after all of this

Hate and rage have a claim on me
A sliver of pity is still plain to see
I would burn that whole ****** city
That had taken you away from me
Wanted to see who you were meant to be
But you didn't want to stay with me

That said I would cut your tatted throat
Drop your body watch it ******* float
Leave behind nobody and feel what you felt
Red on cheap velour drips off a leather belt
Shot glasses, pill bottles, in the past they are left

I'm sorry I couldn't help, sorry I wasn't enough
Sorry a sons love wasn't enough
Sorry that love ****** you up
Sorry and sorry again that you ****** up
Worry about how i'm so very like you
Worry one day someone will say sorry to me

Twenty and I see you in me, wants to be free
Saying **** this society and **** this poverty
Drugs and whiskey sour no chance at property
Know the government owns everyone, thats you and me
Not a felon only thing different from you to me really

Only difference I never found love
Never got pills from clinical gloves
Never ****** without rubbers
Never got played and became a debtor
Never became a kids *******

If I had a crown I would have them all worship me
Every child born free at the price of fealty
Imagine single mindedness in law in propaganda on TV
And if they don't agree then they must be the enemy
If the world was mine then they would be trespassers
So deport them from my reality no time for dissenters
Excess and charity will make them ignore their lost family
If they choose to rise against me then we can all die with me
All your lives on my property and I'll evict them all to vagrantry
When they question if their free answer simply, free to swear fealty
Do as you please as it pleases me and I'll give you silk fetters
Even allow you to speak freely as long as you live to my letters
Allow arms to all if only they are to safeguard from the enemy
Give alms to the poor if only they are to serve me
Allow any godly sanctity that encourages support of me
All the power to me, all the control to me, all of society under me

I live in the clouds in the city of fog
Secrets are said aloud as if in epilogue
No vision is allowed in the murk and smog
Can only hear the turnings of the cogs

Believe in the machinations never seen
On the radio stations is a static scene
Of a rigged lotto making everything serene
Everyone climbing blind to be a golden king

Cant see stepping stones in the haze
But continue walking for days
A straight path nothing but a maze
Lies hidden in mist missed by my gaze

Narcotics are often very therapeutic
Tonics, the prescribed chronic do the trick
Unplatonic love for the sick sold by a doctorate

Theres no more reservations left in heaven
Living in hell my expectations but more at seven
Live to talk its satans words out the television
Driving me to drink till I see in 2020 vision
Doing drugs so I dont think with double vision
Red thugs out and their on a ****** mission
Maga mugs sold out make a billion on commission
Red hats worn out looks like its the new fascist
Oops I meant fashion

I'm so tired so now I'm dreamin
But now I'm so tired of dreamin
Cant even remember the skin I'm in
Or who it was that got where I am

Now I commit a cardinal sin
Find a sacrificial altar to begin
Place my soul somewhere within
This is where one part is at its end

My body will make its exit
Somebody will cease to exist
Yet its all worth it I insist
Gotta make it to subsist

I killed myself and found someone else
But he walked in my skin with a little less
Less weight on his back its good I guess
But the old spirit wants to possess

It wants its body back from this stranger
The haunting tries just who is stronger
Who will I be as time goes longer
I think my present will be placed on the altar

Another casualty to causality
Death built up my personality
But who will keep my body
It definitely wont be the current me

But whose to say there's a future somebody
Who will take ownership of this body
I think that this body will eventually
Just belong to nothing, nobody

Pigs hunt us for sport
Then get awards from court
Judge and pork are cohorts
Victims to villains that's how they sort
Was it a gun or drugs put on the report

Kids dead and the feds said he deserved to be bled
Now a hole in his head and parents filled with dread
Murderers stalk the street they'll find you in bed
Watch where you tread listen to orders still your dead
Made no moves, Hands up, then your blood is shed

Now people protest the wrongs they write
Civil unrest, follow your psalms do whats right
If you can't see the plight then you've lost your sight
To be quiet is to support the violence in the night
Justice is worth the fight now, don't wait for hindsight

Media making enemy's out of friends
Bigotry, blacks against the whites
Plant the crack, give people a ***** sight
Now the injustice is looking alright
More ******* on news coming at eight

Trust your own gut go figure out what's what
Check your source cause events are never clear cut
Make sure you don't believe something stupid as ****
An example, thought blank was a gun, that's a cover up
Stay the course of the righteous never let fear shut you up

It may be hard to breath or to hold onto sanity
As the fires seethe and the jury makes claims of guilty
Hard to eat while fury builds within the family
Just stay on your feet remember you got the whole city
Don't worry the streets know whose really guilty

Bile in my throat and all over the ground
Doing to much again when no ones around

Cook our intelligence
Look at the belligerent
Hate filled hornet nest
Continent of ****** pest
Fumigation of the U S

litigation red tape
when a sticky red fate
gets caught on tape
Oppression communicate
When killers walk out gratis

CIA, FBI, NBC, All of them be
Lying to me, cause the tv told me
this was the nation of the free

**** that we are a nation of slaves
Haven't evolved since yesterdays
Declaration freedom from tyrants
Then drove the natives to tears
Never equal when they see ants

Regicide of a king who had a dream
Martyr the leaders to slow the steam
Now the nation burns its mainstream

ACAB, SRA, BLM, All of them be
Talking to me, cause life told me
That freedom it ain't really free

Data stream use instant transmission
Every one, one team with one mission
Can silence a king how about a nation
All chasing the dream of compassion
Fighting mace and tears with passion

While our president hides in his residence
Plotting with pence on building a fence
And Biden forgets he was the antecedent
Passed in 1997 military gear to the precinct
Two party election, its insanity or compliance

That trump boy works with Geppetto
Puppet and toy to masters he echos
Funny money, president to get dough
String pullers they really made a show
Now the polls they swinging so low

But Biden's another flunky
Dancin to the biddin of ******
Oligarch kings of the country
Sayin dance you ****** donkey
**** the country till it walks funny

Scared of the protest they cant contest
Plants in the crowd to **** interest
Cant fold wont be fooled by insects
Declare a war on our country's best
Commit war crimes in blue vests

I don't know where our future will go
But if we keep movin and never slow
Where we're goin is better than now
Yesterdays wounds will heal I know
This nightmare could end tomorrow

Maybe this was never the land of the free
But it could be if we wanted it to be
If we plant the seed nurture it and see
Keep it safe from greed's insanity
Nurture it with bodies of the bourgeois

Lethal doses and a handful of fairy dust
Feed on the rust be mirthful or go bust
Life is roses all plastic and lust

Don't live anymore round here just make a living
Hold knives by blades and keep on smiling
It's all ours this hollow empty nothing

To crave and be craven and lose yourself to the raven
A slave to maybe lost in a fools haven
But a brave man is a dead man left in the midden

Life is a treat from your betters
So step to the letter step with fetters
Mice are good cheddar getters
Up the ladder type in your headers

Office spaces and other empty places
Smiling faces and glassy eyes
Corporate lives where everybody lies
From the top floors how many will fly

/

Hell is sent from the past
All body and *** living trash
Tats plaster like a mask
Let loose and shirk the tasks

Beer bottles in the lawn
Full throttle till I'm gone
Burning alive up and down town
Moths after fires we're drawn

Blame it on the system
That never helped those within
Blame it on the depression
That furthers a spiritual recession

Blame it on those around me
That ignore, deciding not to see
Blame it on the one at the center
That ignores the cold in winter

The blame rests on my back
The blame rests on all I lack
The blame rests there till I crack
The blame so restless a heart attack

As I fall into an abyss thoughts turn black
Hard fought steps forward just to fall back
The last call back as I step right off the track
Stand tall even as I sink into the depth lost in cracks

Cracks like valleys and in valleys a kindness
Escape from happiness and all that brightness
Lights so painful to my shadowed eyes  
Fights and spite my dark outcries

Lost in the shadow of the valley
The fire of rage snuffed nothing to rally
Acceptance of blame so biased is folly
Is there any blame out there really

The blame dies in my thoughts
The blame dies in my throat
The blame is just a frame caught
Snapped and shuttered shot

Nothing to blame when nothings wrong
Bad break after bad break nothing wrong
Abandoned by those close, nothing wrong
Expectations and high hopes somethings wrong

Assumptions of happiness and fulfillment
Consumption of giddiness and achievement
Got me dying of consumption
Lost in my own assumption

Get ****** over get put down doesn't matter
Bad luck but I still get up and it doesn't matter
Dont deserve any of it not the enemies not the hate it dont matter
Don't deserve any of it not the friends not the love it dont matter

I could die sad and alone completely undeserved
Or surrounded by those closest completely undeserved
I deserve nothing and if I get everything its completely deserved
For all my work to die in a gutter or a home is what I deserve

I found heaven its inside these four walls
and I found hell its just waiting on the fall

Boot straps pullin
Noose won't loosen
Round the throat chokin
Bout to make a killin

Follow lights the will-o-wisps
To red lights onto pillow slips
Walk under streetlight to pink lips

Everyone after green glow
Even if it means being a ***
J.Gatsby's after the afterglow

Peddlin their product, street vendors
Dealin in meat and being tender
****** in a backseat, body lenders

Crafting blissfull afterglow and after glow
Some call it sinful so callow although
Most aren't so shallow, chill in a bordello

Red lights swimmin in the air
Sanctity dyin without care
For sale tittys and derriere

Wanna be someone cool but I'm a loser, I'm a cheat
Wanna get a move on but all I have is my two feet
Watchin my life pass me by everyday on repeat

I've cheated liars I've ran from honest money
I've let late nights and party's create a personality
Ive let it escape me, take over me, become me

Have I made it somewhere with this crown
Have I finally walked enough to be someone
Have I become happy now that I'm not alone

**** if I know but it sure is fun
****, I know I'll never turn
**** its so hot I'm gonna burn

This is a game of chicken with no way to turn
This game full of people who cheat for fun
This life of thrill seekers who just wanna burn

And I've taken my throne king to someone
And as king I wear a heavy metal crown
And with its self righteousness  I sit alone

Its not the reputation, nor the money
Its desperation for people to like me
Exasperation and greed to personality

Someone cool bit of a liar and a cheat
Walkin with all I have my two feet
Every day life happens on repeat

rent rent rent die

The walls dance on the hillside
Claws pull from fester tides
Unease in tall knives
Grass and tall lies
Underfoot the fall lies

Shaky walkways over the abyss
In the middle idle and gaze
Watch as the bridge sways
Look up and see idle days
Am I crazed or am I unphased

Feels like I could just slip into the abyss
Fall and leave behind all the fleeting nothingness
But I'd hate for others to feel amiss
If I were to be missed
So I sway and make lists

Lists about why I am so listless
Maybe cause I sleep in fits
Or cause nothing really fits
Is it cause everyone's sick
Is it cause no one'll ride my ****

The devil resides in my mental state
Where lust and wrath own real estate
Greed and envy are my fate
Sloth is why I'm always late
My pride allows them to stay

Devils in the details, devils in my failures
What does that entail for a being of years
In the entrails read a future filled with tears
Dangerous trails are predicted by seers
Death on the pale predicted by my fears

Still believed to have a few years staring at the abyss
More years to wile away with my shaky hands and lists
When the bridge collapse and I can say this is it
I'll say cheers right before the ground rises and hits
As I relapse in my personal apocalypse

Streets lined up on a platter
Tracks up an down the leather
Each step as light as a feather
soon I'll feel better
I should know better

My feelings made me sick
So I puked out my heart
Shudder to a click an swipe

At a twilight height with a swisher lit
Good things in every hit best to forget
Every night its the same old ****

Old flames, dust to dust ash to ash
***** that if I had more cash
Our love had a chance to last

That's the past its best to forget
Lose it between every hit
And fade into my regret

Smoke is still on the horizon
But the heat is far away
Lost the clouds in the confusion
As I insist they must stay
They drift out of the bay

As they gather they grow heavy
With the shadow of death
A storm brews with its levy
Taxing life of its breath
Soon rain will be wept

A thousand words escape the cells, like the sound of crunched gravel
Reverb heard in the hall the silence after a period after a gavel
Shadows still as body's follow suit and the situations unravel
Nothing is found for all of the searching your no Percival  

Crush crush, elation chasing behind as the engine knocks side to side
Pine scented freshener and a Marlboro smokers car out for a ride
Rent a place on the velour till tomorrow till then I smile wide
High speeds but no race just a tour of the passengers pride

We all wanna go missing just for today my driver going nowhere
So many words with no one listening living laissez faire
Blah blah blah ha ha ha don't feel the wind in your hair
Give me more empty words so I can pretend to care

I am a crutch left to get dusty in the attic
Its a crutch abused some might say an addict
I get used up all night and I just let it
So come day I'm empty an quiet