my heart is hollow
my mind is empty
i cannot shake the thought of you coming back
although i know that is a
fantasy
i cannot shake the thought of your lips
against mine
i wish i could fix things
i wish i could change this outcome
i'm so sorry i ****** up
i'm sorry i took you for granted
i hope one day you can forgive me

I wonder
If you think about me
As much as I
Think about you

I wonder
If you could possibly love me
As much as I
Love you

I wonder
If you want me
As much as I
Want you

I wonder
If you need me
As much as I
Need you

I wonder
If you miss me
As much as I
Miss you

I wonder
If you dream about me
As often as I
Dream about you

I wonder
If you reach for me in your sleep
As often as I
Reach for you

I wonder
If you want to kiss me
As often as I
Want to kiss you

I wonder
If you daydream about the things we could be
As often as I
Daydream about us

But most of all

I wonder
If you know how many feelings I have for you
And I wonder
If you feel the same things too

If you're happy
I'm happy
I can't ask for any more
I tend to be the most frugal person in the room
But that's just who I am
I just want you to be happy cause of me
Girl, I know you have been trying to fend off the gargoyles inside your soul
But I'm here to help
Be happy for me
I want to see that smile
It cures my anger and sadness
And it lightens up the most brimming room.

I fear,
Do I care less for you?

Sometimes I feel am so involved loving you, that I forget u as an individual. I love you.

Those tears drops at the edge of your eyes, are on a brim to break free and flow, am I the dam?

your soul should deserve to someone who is more clean than me, less wounded , who can be your muse.

Love cannot be static, I know. I wish to caress those wrinkled eyes and when we turn old, maybe.
This uncertainty is inevitable. there are small nicks- knacks  i want to share with you to grow together as you said.

I fear I shouldn’t lose that baggage of experience and exposure I wish to wove with yours, to create a memorable tapestry of our love.

In every "opposite's attract" relationship, they say she's the yin to his yan,

He's mysterious and calm like the moon and she's electric and energetic like the sun.

But I'm a painter and I see ourselves as different colors and hues instead of objects and symbols.

You're a midnight blue; a serious yet earnest lover who parades in a facade of blankness.
.
Slowly and gently, I've peeled away the mask you wear, to reveal a sweet, loving boy I always knew was inside.

I am a vibrant yellow; playful and sweet,  illuminating the darkness in your life.

I've shine a light to your darkest corners and found the boy you hide away. I've reached out and pulled him up, showing him that he no longer needs to hide.

With taking my hand you've shown me, the trust and understanding I need, guiding me through my darkness.

Together, with your strength and my kindness, we made emeralds, raditating the world around us.

Together , with your seriousness and my sillyness, we grown shamrock, making us feel like the luckiest kids around.

Together, with you and me, we've created a forest filled with green apples, pines, olives and limes, making us feel like anything is possible.

These are the shades of you and me.