I’m jealous

Jealous of him,
Of the love you share.
Jealous of the way he gets you,
Of the time you spend together.

Jealous of the closeness you have,
Of the relationship you have.
Jealous of the way you act together,
Of the way you love him.

Jealous of the special place he holds in your heart.
Jealous of the way he makes you smile
Jealous of the hand holding
Jealous of the way he looks at you

Jealous because you
Will never love me
The same way
You love him

I wonder
If you think about me
As much as I
Think about you

I wonder
If you could possibly love me
As much as I
Love you

I wonder
If you want me
As much as I
Want you

I wonder
If you need me
As much as I
Need you

I wonder
If you miss me
As much as I
Miss you

I wonder
If you dream about me
As often as I
Dream about you

I wonder
If you reach for me in your sleep
As often as I
Reach for you

I wonder
If you want to kiss me
As often as I
Want to kiss you

I wonder
If you daydream about the things we could be
As often as I
Daydream about us

But most of all

I wonder
If you know how many feelings I have for you
And I wonder
If you feel the same things too

You weren’t in class today,
And you didn’t answer my texts.
You should know better,
Than to worry me like this.

I couldn’t sleep.
I wondered if you were ok.
I stared at the ceiling,
Just thinking about the things that could be wrong.

Wishing you would call,
Or text,
Just so I know you’re ok.
Why do you ignore me like this?

You know I worry
Why do you push me away?
At least say,
“I don’t want to talk, but I promise I’m ok.”

This silence is killing me
I can’t take it any more
I call you. It rings.
No answer. And then...

“I knew you would be the first to call.
It’s always you.
I’m sorry I worried you all day,
It was selfish of me.

But I needed to prove to myself,
That you still loved me.
I promise to never ignore you again,
If you promise to love me forever.”

I waited for the beep
And then
I whispered softly
“I Promise”

One Day
24 Hours
That’s how long it’s been
Since I saw you.
And I’m already losing my mind.
I’m in too deep,
But I don’t care.
I love you too much
To think about how
Unhealthy my obsession
With you is.

Love is a strange thing,
It knows no limits,
It has no bounds.

It can happen anytime,
Anywhere,
To anyone.

I never thought I would fall in love,
But I did and now,
There’s no going back.

I love her.
I don’t know why,
I don’t know how,
I just do.

She doesn’t feel the same way,
She sees us as ‘friends’.
She’ll never see us any other way,
She doesn’t know how I feel.

I don’t know how to tell her,
She may hate me if I do.
I can’t lose our friendship,
She can never know the truth.

I’ll just have to love her from a distance.
I’ll have to not get too attached.
It’ll **** me, but losing her would **** me even more

I can do it.
I can hide.

Forever