Departures
Fast and slow
From my life
You come and go

Each and all
You and she
Once were here
In love with me

Alone
Upon a dream
A thousand memoirs
Written

A cold night in a long winter
The fire burns, the logs do bleed
With ancient eyes
I still can see
All this time
All this time
Within these dreams of memory

Our lives are intricate and fleeting
Spent on that which will come
That which already has
Always in the back of one's own mind

Never in the moment
Unable to treasure while beside you
Until the ride has ended
Deposited at a tree that bears no fruit

It was harder than we thought
So now they call and text me at home
Left it in a park, left it in a lot
Walked around a while
The two of us talked
The burial ground of our winter spark
One which gleamed for near two years and a day

Today, we only feel the gap
Abstract and ethereal
The songs were written for you
So it became a fact,
Dark places, common spaces
The one buried in my head

I awaken to the pictures of my past, hallowed and vast
Not as deep in colour as they once were
How ironic, that for even a moment, I missed her
Now the tide has receded, my heart retreated
I'm safe in my new home

The prospects of the later and the now gently guided me through turbulent waters
Their eyes glimmering with pain as I recalled past slaughters (of heart)
They gently murmur "Ah, ha, ahh, ha", like Angels slowly coaxing melodies to those in Hell

Now, I recall
I drove away slowly, tears streaming down my face
Because it was you I did not want to leave
Yet, it was you,
You were the one to leave
And all I could do,
All I could do, was bleed

Moonlit ending
Knowing how this finishes
Smiling at the end
Oh, this beautiful end
Word for word,
Cannot go back
Your heart has grown too small
'and I'm all better now
Yet, I still hope it all works out for you
In the end

Turn the corner, the snow descends
A crowd has gathered, all dressed in white
Mourning you
Not one weeps, they know what you have done
They simple stand and stare at what could have been
The snow falls faster, the scene changes again

Now under an open sky, the moon so high and bright
All is quiet, no children of men
Here in this cold Summer, I remember,
Once warm and soft, now frigidly stiff
Memories of black and white, colour photographs of a forgotten Love
Faded beyond recognition, here, in this long hallowed night

Left to my own devices,
Sink or swim
In the distance I can hear the ringing out of Cathedral bells
A slow smile births across my face,
A knowing comfort in the coming grace
As the waves rise higher in their great swells
To consume me

You, no place left to go
Lost it all, sold your soul
Hew woe with space even so
Cost natal, behold droll

Hard to see through these new eyes
All those similar faces filled with new time
I recognize the sound and smell
But you won't glow like you did while we were in love

And I want to know, I want to say
All those similar warm things
I want to feel the way I did those days
But all those years have been given up

Oh, there I could see
All my time and sense could not be
Oh, there I could see
All my time and sense could not be
Oh, there I could see
All my time and sense could not be

And if I was but a different man, I would know I was right
But my hearts been broken too many times
So I refuse this mind, I refuse a muse
Would logic prevail, I would grow up

I want to walk a trail that was once mine
Until I shared it with you
But now I know that none of that is right
All those years have been given up

Oh, there I could see
All my time and sense could not be
Oh, there I could see
All my time and sense could not be
Oh, there I could see
All my time and sense could not be

We all know where certain roads lead
Down autumn paths during the final dreams of day
Still, you like to climb your throne
Ascending until the past has no home
If you're wrong,
Well they didn't deserve
A part in this song

I came across mine own hand
'and all the love of scorn
So, when I find myself alone
Without my love and her roses,
I smile beyond emotional thrones

How do you feel
An eternal question
Liquid and virile
While the waves crash around you internally

Time, forever
How much was the fare?
A price I cannot comprehend
Memories beautiful and places I can no longer see
Remembering the people we used to be

You, a star upon the flu
Looking too much into the past
God, you could never know
How much an emotion lasts

As of late
Feelings of weightlessness
Taking hold

Bolder now
Louder too
Barely thinking of you

Concerned with life
Laughter and air
New sensations

Never felt this way before
Happy without reason
Enjoying for the sake of it

Wrapped up in summer dress
Loose to the wind
White to the best

Laying down
Shimmering white
I ask if she has ever seen the moon
She responds, "Only at night"

Summer skin, high and thin
Juice fills the bin
Light all the rest

Spread out coast to coast
Hoping to find the gold
That eludes most

Ethereal presence
Transfer all hope and dreams
While Kingdom Come
Grows ever near

Oh, I will live the pain
Once pain
Now memories

Just memories
Just memories

I'll decide, I'll decide
What to do when the summer comes
I'll know, I'll know
When I see you

You had a class act
That cost you the best years
Pace yourself!
You only have so much vitriol you can throw at me,
Take a breath,
Learn to see,
You hate you,
Not me

Young and beautiful,
Softer each time
The way I see your eyes
Deep and under control

Would I ever be free of this love
Could I call it home,
I know you live with me
'Here under the banner of "us"

Please just accept my hand,
All the grace and immaculate warmth
I wish to once again hold
Will we recall, something so beautiful

I cannot recall
Reasons for which I have not slept since early May
Without answers, beckoning at a visage of you
The purple beneath these tired and weary green eyes
The memories for which another multitude of seasons died
These things I know and remember
Once more, at the mirror in the hall
I desperately yell,
Do you recall?

Swift talking like you'd never get hurt
Really living with a curse, ***
Could you really take another hurt
White winter long and far from family
February moves on

Go too fast and break the mold
I could not see well enough to get a long
My friend, ambivalence waved to me

Now you're raising a family
But still you remember,
You do it to escape your current hell
Like the autumn leaves,
You wish to flee

When your smile gleams,
The light hits your eyes just right
A familiar smell brings your heart and mind
Back to me

Love you once had, cast out so easily
Wish you had held on
Now tearfully, you lose your resolve
You think you know who you are, I see those symptoms from afar

Hush those fears, they will only grow
The December of now will thaw one day
Eventually you'll be free to pray
Until then, remember a better day

Revisited your familiar face today
Inspired and organic
Caused my heart to panic
I smiled, remembering I was once a romantic
Before my heart died

Sitting here singing in the dark
I wonder about where you lay
'Wonder about what you feel in your heart

Cool winds are still blowing
And every step is unknowing
But I still think of Summer past
Still remember to learn from a love that made me laugh

Though all this is my cross to bare
Afternoons and friends can bring me back home
Before I set off into the unknown

To those that have no fear
Which wait and hold each wine glass full of tears
Whose shadow songs wail with gold
Aside a heart so dear
Quiet and patient
With heels by the door
In the hushed dust
With ashen hair it waits

I never thought I'd find a proper end
Always thought you had let go
Thank God, it won't begin again
I now know better though

You told me lies to cover your mistakes
The one I loved is dead and gone
Told me all we built was fake
Long buried before the dawn

Was not Love that tore us apart
For I was all and more
It was selfishness, the lack of a heart
I can still appreciate the before

Thanks to you I now know
How infinitely far I can go

I treasure every breath and won't let go
Oh, of those beautiful moments ahead
I know they'll happen yet
Beauty yet to be born is another door ahead of me
Ahead of me
Ahead of me

Oh, yet to the next move
Gentle whispers will call
As you look up at me
Without a frown, a kiss upon your brow
I see all those things which once held me
Dissolved when I set out to become this man

So, follow me
Follow this journey
Hands so perfectly fitting into mine
Oh, sigh to the muse that remade everything
Never too late to whisper down
Never too late to whisper away the night
Smile and breath for the dawn is near

With all going on
I can't help but fall
Fall, on my knees
You always knew just the way to catch me

Now every time I stumble
I think of you and know
How far this journey has taken me
So
Tell me where it is you had to go

And yell at me when I cry out
Plead with my soul
Forget past atrocities,
Just take us home