I saw someone dancing in the street
So vibrate, so full of happiness
Reminded me of you
Your sunshine smile
Mischievous eyes

My eyes full of joy
As my heart sheds tears
Your presence felt so strong
In this small moment
Yet we are so far apart

But in my soul
We are still dancing under the stars
Joyful, carefree, home
Finding peace in each other

Watching a stranger dance in the street
Brought back the happy memories of you
Though my heart aches
I smiled softly
Remembering the joy you brought me

Sparkling brown eyes watching me like no one before. The sun kissing his dark, soft curls. A child of love and warmth staring into my soul.
For a brief moment I let go, as much as I dared. Let myself live in the healing moments, hoping for more.
Just enjoying what was never mine…

Every time I close my eyes
All I see is your warm smile
I feel your chest under my fingertips
Your heat fills my palms
The whisper of your voice echoes
Vibrates through my body
Beautiful memories replay in my head
Dancing, singing, talking
Oh those beautiful moments
Now painful to relive

What did I do wrong?
I gave you what I had
What I felt like giving
Somehow it wasn’t enough
          —————   Yet also too much

To be honest, I had written you off
Before we had even met
Because how could someone like you
Ever fall for someone like me?

I did not plan to fall
                      Told myself, “take it slow”
But looking into you eyes,
                        I slipped so easily
You felt like coming home
                       And I let my guards down
Hoping and dreaming:
                        this might be it
It wasn’t!

I gave you what I had
   ———— My time
    ————my love
        ———my compassion
It wasn’t much, but it was mine to give
Somehow it was too much
Because you wanted less

How do I give less than how I feel?
                    I do not know!
I give all I have, and it’s too much…
…….. yet it’s never enough
                                         to make them stay

Loud as the rumbling thunder
My love roar with pride
Never ashamed of it’s power
I give it to those who needs it

Strong as a tidal wave
My love embraces with care
Healing wounds of the past
Tending to those in pain

Glowing like a lighthouse
Calling those who hunger for love
To safety in my light
Always protecting

He looks so small now
The man who used to tower over me
Broad shoulders
Strong body
A mountain climber
Who walked through Europe in his youth

He was the strongest man I knew
The one who took me on adventures
Biking to the forest
Climbing ancient ruins
A world of knowledge
Collected through a life displayed on his shelves

Now he looks so small
Like I can pick him up
And carry him in a box
Barely even there
Vacant behind the eyes
Trapped in his own mind

This giant of a man
Made fragile by age

Your scent is trapped in my sheets
Your touch lingers in my skin
Your smile burns behind my closed eyes
Your soul imprinted on mine

I descend into longing madness
Remembering our beautiful moments:
The starving looks
The heated embraces
The soft smiles
The loving touches

We collided like two hungry stars
Longing to feel love
I was yours and you were mine
Only for the briefest of moments
A moment never meant to last

Ablaze
The torch in my heart
Burning wildly
While knowing
It’s never meant to be

You were
My ever most beautiful
What if