I look for you
In every place
In everyone
Pieces of you remain
scattered amongst different places
inside the souls of strangers
I keep trying to piece you back together in my life
But I can’t
Because your gone
no one will ever be you
maybe that’s because you put me together
And I fell apart when you left

“I hate you,” she said
Those words burned through me like a forest fire.
It was a gunshot right to the heart.
Not even my bulletproof vest could stop it.

Those words were worse than anything I have ever heard, any name I’ve ever been called, and any bone I’ve ever broken.
To be the reason for the pain behind her hatred was the final blow.
It broke me. It peeled back any shell I had as protection.
Killed me.

I understood her pain.
Those words haunt me in my dreams.
Seared my ears on the way in and scarred my heart when they hit.
I just sat there wiping away tears
This can’t be real.

I would give my own heart to fix it. I would give her my life to stop that pain.
I hate me too.
That’s what got me here in the first place.

“I have no ties here” she said
That statement tied a noose around my heart.
“No ties?” I thought.

I thought I was a tie to be here
I thought I was a tie to stay
I thought I was a tie to so many memories

The words wrapped around my neck. Constricting the oxygen to my brain.
The ties I had to you seemed to be fraying.
I saw my visions of the future that I held so dear unraveling from those very words.
I couldn’t fight off the thoughts of you cutting ties with me.

She was ******* herself. She was a tangled mess of pain, fears, wants and dreams.
But all I ever wanted to do was sit down and untie those knots.
And unravel that beautiful mind.
All while hoping I could intertwine a connection together forever.

The words that echoed in my head tied themselves around my heart.
They slowly hung my heart out to dry.
I wanted to tie the knot with her.
I wanted to stitch our hearts together forever.
She was my anchor.
She was my tie.
But I guess some knots that are tied come loose.
“I have no ties here”
But my heart will always be tied to her.